[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Happy Birthday, Jennifer 1967! I'm sorry I'm late with the wishes. It's nice being May babies, isn't it?

Thank you. Happy birthday to you. It sure IS nice being May babies.

I ate healthy again today. I feel so happy with myself! I also didn't spend any money today -- not a cent! My good mood could be due to the Lamictal kicking in at last or the fact that Spring has finally started in earnest -- or both. I'm just glad to be feeling better. That Winter depression blew.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by spikes

Doing horribly. I hate this hospital.

Sorry things are bad there. Is there anything positive about your stay. Are your meds helping? Hang in there.

[Wander]

Not much to report. Mothers Day went well. I love my Mum. She is so supportive. I am so thankful for her.

Yesterday I walked for half an hour and did a little of restricted yoga due to my hip. I’m trying to exercise to heal my hip and lose weight. Today I feel sore from the exercise but my hip is ok. It’s just the Fibromyalgia. I should recover soon.

PTSD is worsening. Lots of memories flood me and I’m having trouble using the coping skills. I tend to hide and withdraw inside. Otherwise I’m good. Today is going to be a wonderful day. Beautiful weather. Hot for late autumn. Weird. Even the plants are confused.

[wildflowerchild25]

RS is back! I missed him so much. He really enjoyed his vacation but he missed me too. We had a great night last night. Then today for mother’s day he made me breakfast and helped me clean. I haven’t been keep up with the cleaning, just haven’t been motivated. So I’m glad he helped me.

I finished the first week of classes! I even finished my work a little early. It was t due till tomorrow but I finished today. That’s unheard of for me, I usually procrastinate till the last second. But the assignment was pretty easy so it wasn’t as anxiety producing. That’s why I procrastinate, I just get so anxious. But I usually do really well so I shouldn’t worry as much as I do.

I’m so nervous waiting to see if we got this house or not. I hope the guy actually calls tomorrow like he said he would. He doesn’t have a good track record of getting back to me in a timely fashion. If I don’t hear from him I’ll shoot him an email on Tuesday. I really really really hope we get approved. It’s such a great little house. And there’s really nothing else available in our town right now. Every time I get my hopes up for something though they are dashed so I’m trying not to get too excited.

Happy birthday to our May birthday girls and hugs to all that need them!

[LadyShadow]

Had a really great day. My mom is so grateful and shows me how much she appreciates me. I try to do everything I can for her and I am glad she is happy.

Hugged my doggie friend today, he is so wonderful and I love him so.

I am in really good spirits because my first day of school is tomorrow and I am embarking on a new chapter in my life.

For once in my life, I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

[TheSeaCat]

Happy Birthday Jennifer and BirdDancer!

[~Christina]

Happy Mother’s Day

Happy Birthday ladies and to all May babies.

Just laid around today. Had a lovely long chat with my daughter. My Husband said he will take me out for dinner this week. I never go out on holidays to crowded for me.

I have one last Lamictal to take tomorrow and then I am done. It should take about 3 weeks for my brain to work sans Lamictal.

I do feel clearer since I quit Latuda an a few meds for physical problems

My only real problem is I had a new area of psoriasis pop up , my freaking eyebrow of all places. It’s driving me mad, none of the creams are helping, yet.

I see my rheumatologist for a follow up tomorrow. My psoriatic arthritis is such a difficult thing to tolerate on top of my Fibromyalgia.

But I am getting old with bone problems now so had to start a freaking weekly pill for that. I drop a couple meds and one gets added. Go figure.

Despite my physical issues I’m feeling baseline and content.

Hugs and cookies to all

[Victoria'smom]

We went to my Sister's. It was the first time my husband saw her new place. He came home talking about us getting our own place and all the things he can do with it. Everyone is coming over tomorrow to kill all the meat that we all bought. I got sad because my son didn't call me until just recently. He doesn't like talking to me because he misses me. I know sounds ridiculous. He was crying because he likes it there but misses home. It's week 1. He has about 2.5 months left. He's home alone all day. Hopefully when his online school starts next week it's better. His cousin ends school in a month so hopefully that will help.

[TheSeaCat]

Hello all; I hope everyone is doing well. I am doing well still riding that graduation high; still cannot believe the summa cum laude also. I had a pretty busy three days so I thought I would update you.

Friday: was a workday but I did find out my official grades which made me really happy because they were everything I worked hard for and of course dreamed about.

Saturday: was graduation and a graduation party which was really fun it was really nice.

Sunday: was Sunday School and Church plus it was Mother's Day and my grandmother was also in town so we had a big celebration after church for M's mother and my mother which was really nice my mother and M's mother really loved what I got them.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mother's and hugs to everyone

[Wander]

Today's update. I have been saying I am doing well except for PTSD. Today I realised I have been downplaying the PTSD to myself. To be honest I am feeling incredibly trapped and overwhelmed. Non stop memories flood me so I dissociate unintentionally to cope. All this makes coping skills difficult as I disappear so fast. It is only getting worse, and I think this is only the beginning. Although stable with Bipolar finally I have now been hit with the effects of a lifetime of constant trauma. I just want it to go away and get on with my life but it is begging for attention and I can't seem to get out anyway. My T is helping me through this so I think I will be ok. It is just very difficult right now. I am hoping to get back to work soon once my hip recovers (I work on my feet moving around), but the anxiety I am experiencing may make returning difficult, especially since I haven't been to work since July last year.

Anyone else relate. Some of my trauma comes from the many times I have been hospitalised while very unwell. The rest is a list too long, and too sensitive, to describe.

[Scooter9]

My son came for a surprise visit for mother's day!

He flew from 1/2 way around the world 22 hours to come see his mother on mother's day!

Of course he's here to see me and the rest of the family too

What a nice surprise!

[bpforever1]

I'm doing well. The pdoc lowered my dose because I was too sedated. I feel fine. I lost about five pounds according to my weight check at the clinic today. I am happy. I ate a hearty breakfast and am relaxing now. The weather is nice!

[Moose72]

Saw pdoc. Added Haldol. She still thinks I'm hypomanic- no psychosis at the moment. Said something about sending me to the hospital to straighten out my meds. She still might if the Haldol doesn't do the trick.

[Sunflower123]

Mother’s Day was nice except my niece and daughter were in major snits all day. Lovely. She has moved all of her stuff from her on campus apartment in for the summer and we are a bit cramped here. Stressing me out a little bit.

She has also decided to give her pets away to good homes. Stressing me out a lot. I’ve grown attached to the pets (particularly the dog who has become a great comfort and support to me). Maybe it’s for the best. I don’t know.

Been on the go the past several days so I’m relaxing on the couch reading a few chapters of the five books I’m reading concurrently. One book builds on the other and so forth and so on.

Wish my mood was a little bit better. Kind of cranky. Working to get out of it. Got to protect those dendrites and that hippocampus!

Warm wishes to all.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Wander

Today's update. I have been saying I am doing well except for PTSD. Today I realised I have been downplaying the PTSD to myself. To be honest I am feeling incredibly trapped and overwhelmed. Non stop memories flood me so I dissociate unintentionally to cope. All this makes coping skills difficult as I disappear so fast. It is only getting worse, and I think this is only the beginning. Although stable with Bipolar finally I have now been hit with the effects of a lifetime of constant trauma. I just want it to go away and get on with my life but it is begging for attention and I can't seem to get out anyway. My T is helping me through this so I think I will be ok. It is just very difficult right now. I am hoping to get back to work soon once my hip recovers (I work on my feet moving around), but the anxiety I am experiencing may make returning difficult, especially since I haven't been to work since July last year.

Anyone else relate. Some of my trauma comes from the many times I have been hospitalised while very unwell. The rest is a list too long, and too sensitive, to describe.

Hi Wander, I definitely relate. Some of my trauma comes from the times I have been hospitalized, and then I have my childhood, poor choices in relationships, hostility at work.

I made very poor choices in my relationships and for the wrong reasons. This was before I became ill with bipolar. I picked people who were abusers and ended up alone, except I have my son, who is doing well in life now. He likes his new job and has a new girlfriend. He had given up on dating for a long time.

My mains symptom of this trauma is that I isolate and just want to be alone and my energy is very low and all I want to do is smoke weed and type on my laptop. Even eating is a chore, just something to endure. My life is flat and pretty boring. Every day is the same and I don't see i have much to look forward to except an inevitable decline into not being able to take care of myself.

But I have made a few positive decisions. One was to get involved with a 12 step program called Emotions Anonymous. Another is to stop going on a lung cancer forum. I am a survivor now for more than 3 years post-op, and there is no reason to keep dwelling on all the bad things that might happen if it were to return, and what I might have to endure. My long term side effects from chemo are pretty devastating. it is also isolating to have such hearing loss and to have all my extremities painfully tingling and numb all the time.

I decided it is better to be bored than to focus on lung cancer right now. So it is a step in the right direction.

[wildflowerchild25]

RS and I were approved for the house!!! We start moving in in June! So excited.

Originally Posted by Scooter9

My son came for a surprise visit for mother's day!

He flew from 1/2 way around the world 22 hours to come see his mother on mother's day!

Of course he's here to see me and the rest of the family too

What a nice surprise!

Thanks so much for sharing this! This is such a lovely thing!

I already created a thread sort of complaining about my psychiatrist and the medication Latuda. But to add on, he seemed to be picking on me at one point. When I called him on it, he said it was just part of his humor. He can often have the most obnoxious kind of humor.

At first he said "Why did you say "piddly"? What do you mean by "piddly"?

I was like "What the heck are you talking about? You don't know the word "piddly"?"

Then he said "Oh, you were saying "poultry"?

"Poultry?!?!" I yelled. "I wasn't talking about chickens! What are you talking about!?!? Are you picking on me?"

"No", he answered.

"Wellllll, I guess you just don't understand people from [my town], do you? Maybe learn a little local vocabulary!"

At this moment I'm upstairs listening to birds chirp outside. I need that. I've been revved up all day.

[Wild Coyote]

A warm hello to all!

I have wanted to participate more here. Life is very hectic and very difficult right now and for awhile now. We all know the drill!

I am having luck with Mirapex lifting my mood, sometimes a bit too much.
I have been very depressed, only recently moving into some mania -- both pleasant and quite unpleasant. Euphoria and very irritable. Constantly changing med dosages. Have had to go back onto Seroquel for mania, for now.

I read here often and think of you all daily.
My own computer has "blown up" and I look in here when I have access to the internet. I have a new computer sitting here; I need to find the time/energy to set it up. Need to get more focused when I do have the time and energy.

You are each/all very courageous and have my love and my admiration.

I will be reading daily and will participate more as soon as I can do so.

LOVE TO ALL!

Wow, did I have a lot of catching up to do(!)
Great to see you, WildCoyote!!
And quite belated Happy Birthdays to Nammu and BirdDancer!!

I was sick with fever, chills and coughing for a few days (still not great, but dealing). Had to reschedule the job interview and missed a day of work. Did a lot of sleeping and water-drinking. And the conjunctivitus rages on. Good grief. It's now been 1 month, 2 doctor appointments and on the 3 different prescription eyedrops. Which are accomplishing exactly nothing. I want to just crawl under the covers and not come out. I am SO sick of it.

Waaaaahhh!!

[Unrigged64072835]

Whatever thing I had yesterday is gone, thank goodness. Just some residual sinusitis this morning. My poor husband didn’t sleep at all, though. My CPAP mask was making a noise and I was sound asleep so I didn’t hear it. He was bone tired today. Like dark circles under the eyes tired. Hopefully my mask will be fixed tonight.

I got a lot of stuff done today so that’s good.

Sorry I missed the birthdays, and hope you had good ones.

Love to all of you!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Mother’s Day was nice except my niece and daughter were in major snits all day. Lovely. She has moved all of her stuff from her on campus apartment in for the summer and we are a bit cramped here. Stressing me out a little bit.


She has also decided to give her pets away to good homes. Stressing me out a lot. I’ve grown attached to the pets (particularly the dog who has become a great comfort and support to me). Maybe it’s for the best. I don’t know.


Been on the go the past several days so I’m relaxing on the couch reading a few chapters of the five books I’m reading concurrently. One book builds on the other and so forth and so on.


Wish my mood was a little bit better. Kind of cranky. Working to get out of it. Got to protect those dendrites and that hippocampus!


Warm wishes to all.

If the dog has helped you maybe you could keep him ??? I can’t imagine my life without my spoiled dog.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Wow, did I have a lot of catching up to do(!)

Great to see you, WildCoyote!!

And quite belated Happy Birthdays to Nammu and BirdDancer!!


I was sick with fever, chills and coughing for a few days (still not great, but dealing). Had to reschedule the job interview and missed a day of work. Did a lot of sleeping and water-drinking. And the conjunctivitus rages on. Good grief. It's now been 1 month, 2 doctor appointments and on the 3 different prescription eyedrops. Which are accomplishing exactly nothing. I want to just crawl under the covers and not come out. I am SO sick of it.


Waaaaahhh!!

Ok walking Petri dish it’s time for this mess to clear up pronto !!!!

A month of conjunctivitis is 3 weeks and 6 days too long ! I know how awful that mess is.... had it last year second drops did the trick. 3 different ones and still no luck ???? Mutant type you must have going on.

Do something , anything kind for yourself !

[yellow_fleurs]

Today was a bit of a rough day getting to work and not even wanting to go in while near panicking, but I did and made it through the day. Then went to therapy. My therapist wants me to try EMDR and I said okay, hoping it will help with my anxiety.

So I have mentioned my Lyme disease history a couple of times, not sure if I mentioned it took 4 years to get diagnosed while it was implied it was just anxiety or not taken seriously (honestly, I probably did mention this as it is on my mind lately). I have been diagnosed in the past with reactive arthritis and have had a lot of joint issues, but now when my recent blood tests came back negative I think my therapist thinks (and likely my rheumatologist) that is psychological in origin. Not denying that things like depression affect pain and fatigue, but for a number of reasons I think I still have legitimate joint issues. It makes me feel a bit like showing up to court without a lawyer or evidence trying to make your case. Good luck with that! So, just makes me feel like I have no voice. I know my therapist validates my experience, but with my history of not being believed when sick it kind of matters to me that she actually believes me. Yet, it makes total logical sense why she and others wouldn't especially with the psych diagnoses. Just a difficult and emotional situation for me. Anyways, end rant.

Sending well wishes to everyone!