Daonnachd: i think it's so cool that you've sculpted, drawn and painted! What sorts of subjects are they? I treasure the few pieces that i've held onto from my high school art class days, mostly sketched portraits. Please don't throw your creations out! You'll feel differently about them once you feel better -- which i hope is soon.

My first day at 100mg of Lamictal was not a revelation. I had a wave of nausea last night after i took it and went to bed but that could have been because i ate like an idiot yesterday. I managed to last it out with out barfing tho and slept well. The second half of this day things improved tho so maybe there is faint hope that the Lamictal is starting to work?


Seems that a lot here on Psych Central are struggling this weekend. Hugs to all!

[gina_re]

Well the past couple of days have been ok. Today in particular was awesome because I was once again at my sister's house and being with my nephews and niece makes me feel good. I don't think about any of my problems when I'm around them. Yesterday was difficult because I had to go to dinner with my family for my aunt's bday. I wasn't dying to go, but I can't pass up free food lol. It was just hard being around family while I'm going through this depressive phase. The only family I can deal with is my sister and her kids. When I'm home and alone, I'd rather just sleep the entire day so that I don't have to be awake and face the day.
I got a call for an interview on Monday, so I hope that goes well.

I fell asleep on the backseat of the car, but my neighbor's garage door woke me up. My husband discovered me and apologized so I went back into the house. Plus, it was hot in the car for some reason.

I don't know why I am awake. It's 3:45 am. I did take my evening meds. I took 650 mg Seroquel yesterday between iR and XR. The window is open. The air coming in is now cool and smells nice. There is no sound at all other than my husband's breathing in his sleep.

My dad's situation has definitely not helped mine. Another few things didn't either.

I'm hungry. I wish I could eat a pancake, but I'm not sure if I am up to making any now.

[Victoria'smom]

I want to make myself sick. Not hospital level but close enough that they realize they love me and don't want me to die. Problem is most likely even if it's not "hospital level" he'd probably make me go. He doesn't have time to take me to the hospital. I don't want to be there feeling ill. I don't want medication. I just want him to KNOW that it's not what he wants. He can say that's not what he wants all day. He can even rush me to the hospital but that doesn't mean he truly doesn't feel that way. I'm so torn. I'm trying to take his words at face value but they sting because they're all lies. I know if I die it would ruin their lives and I would like to think they would miss me.

I'm going to try to do pleasant type things to hopefully lift my mood. Luckily the weather is gorgeous. Tonight we plan to celebrate my birthday early. Tomorrow will be crowded.

[Gabyunbound]

Oh please don't throw away your beautiful art!! I think you'll regret it one day. In fact, perhaps some painting will help you get out of this...

I'm so sorry you're feeling so bad. I've seen you survive this and you will again, just try and keep that in mind.

Many many hugs,
Gaby

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Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Hey, all. I haven't been keeping up. Sorry.

I went for a walk this morning, so I should be feeling good, right? Well, I'm not. I don't even feel it's worth your time to read this.


I'm two weeks from my next ECT and not doing well. In fact, I want to purge all of my hobby stuff. It's as if throwing it all out would cure me of how I'm feeling. Any wisdom regarding this? I have stuff I've sculpted, drawn, painted. How do I drag myself out of this?

Put them away but don’t throw them out. I tend to run in cycles as far as hobbies go. I may be into something one year, then it’ll be another two years before I restart. Besides, purging things when you’re depressed is like driving drunk: you’re not in the best frame of mind to do those things.

[pirilin]

Doing just fine.
Sleeping well.
Eating too well.
All I need is more sex.
Hell, life ain't complete, is it.

Cheers.

[Daonnachd]

Gaby, Fharraige, I want to report partial success. I wasn't going to go down to the basement where most of my stuff is kept, but it's also where I keep my Spanish and Scottish music. Thinking only about the music last night I went down to grab a CD by a Valencian group. (I lived in Valencia for two years.) While there I couldn't help but throw away some of the stuff. Fortunately, a little went a long way. I didn't throw it all out. I actually got distracted trying to recall the name of a portrait I sculpted. After numerous searches related to champions of human rights I found Eleanor Roosevelt. That was the portrait, but I only have a couple fragments of her face now as I took a hammer to it a while back when in a similar state. Anyway, minor success last night with limited damage to the collection.

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Still having problems with sleep. I only had maybe three hours last night—this morning. I’m going to stop the Lunesta because it’s not helping. Not doing anything too bad so far. I keep having visions of somebody close dying, like my husband. I mean, it’s more of a possibility with him going sooner because of the MS, but nothing to be obsessed about. My brain has to process all the steps following that, even though it has done so bunch of times already. I seem to be more prepared mentally for everyone’s death but not my own!

Otherwise it’s still quiet. Husband and I are both tired so still taking things easy. I do some sewing but not as much as I like to. I seems I spend more time in preparation than anything.

Love, hugs, and all the good stuff to everyone, especially if you’re struggling.

[Nammu]

Existing. Threading water. Taking up space nothing special, just existing

[Miss Laura]

I'm rather manic and everything is irritating me well people are. I mean like not answering my text's, messages on WhatsApp, messages on fb messenger. Ignoring me completely. I don't get it. I'm a nice person but hey ho. I'm itching to talk to people I'm seeking out the guys to talk to. I'm horny as. I'm speed typing as I'm having racing thoughts. No-one in my life knows om manic im very good at hiding it as I've had years of experience lol. I'm getting 4-6 if that hours sleep. Im waking up at 6am have done for the week. Everything is great though I'm so happy considering last week I was in a 4 ish months depression

[Moose72]

Got my headlight changed- now I wont be pulled over for a dead light.

Ive been posting on my blog about once a day. Latest post is about bipolar and migraines. (Ive had migraines for years.) Interestingly, bipolar 2 has a greater tendency to have comorbid migraines than bipolar 1. However, it goes the other way too: if you suffer from migraines, you're more likely to suffer from a mood disorder.

Still not great and in the hospital. My dad brought the invega so hopefully that helps more than geodon did.

@Moose72 , interesting stats in your blog! I'm glad you've been writing there daily. I used to, but have slowed down significantly over the last year.

I, too, wrote a couple blog articles about the links between migraines and bipolar. I wrote them quite a while ago. Migraines are something I suffered with for a period, but they haven't plagued me that much of my life. Since I would have max four migraines per month, sometimes fewer, my then neurologist prescribed "as needed" sumatriptan injections rather than a daily medication, or other. The sumatriptan injections worked great for me. Really great! But I had to get used to self administering them. In the beginning, my husband gave them to me. It only took like 10 to 20 minutes after the injection for a cool feeling to travel to my brain. With that, the migraine suddenly disappeared. In my case, nausea/vomiting was worse than my actual head pain. The nausea disappeared equally quickly.

I also experienced "silent migraines" for a period. They were odd and disconcerting.

I have not had a major migraine in a few years (knock on wood). I'm not sure why they stopped.

[Victoria'smom]

So tears on both sides, hours of talking, and an ultimatum. He doesn't trust me when he is sleeping. I didn't even do anything. I take Zyprexa tonight and tomorrow. Monday first thing he is calling my pdoc. So after that blow out I go to take a shower and black out. I took the curtain rod down and hit my head on the toilet. It's not that bad but it's going to leave a mark. I guess the water was too hot?

[wildflowerchild25]

RS is coming back tonight! I really missed him. This is the longest I’ve gone without seeing him since we first started dating. I’m so excited that he will be back.

We should know about whether we are approved for the house we want to rent by Monday. The landlord said the only thing he was worried about was that we’ve only been together for six months and now we’re moving in together. I assured him that we’re very committed to each other but if anything did happen then RS would stay in the house so we wouldn’t break our lease. I don’t foresee anything happening though. I think it will be a tough adjustment as I haven’t lived with a man in four years and he’s never lived with a woman but I think we should be ok. I hope I convinced the landlord of that.

They’re still looking for a place for me at work. I’m hoping I’ll still have a job next year. If not I’m in big trouble. But there’s some aides retiring and some that are not following their students from the elementary school so I’m hoping they’ll have something for me.

Otherwise all is well. I’m almost finished my first week of master’s classes. I don’t think having two classes is going to be as big a deal as I thought it would be so that’s good. I might change my tune once I get more in depth into the classes but it should be fine.

Hugs to all who need them!

[Sunflower123]

I had a nice day yesterday with my daughter for my birthday. We planned a few adventures and by the end of the day we dragged ourselves to bed exhausted but what fun! I really needed that.

We went out with the family today to celebrate three birthdays and Mother’s Day formally. I had a good time and the food was good. Tomorrow we’ll go out for ice cream informally.

Things are going ok for me in the month of May. It’s a nice change of pace as just last month I got the emotional roller coaster award on my mood log. I hope things continue as they are for awhile. I need the break.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Nammu]

Well, Happy belated Birthday Jennifer.

[Wander]

Mothers Day today. Seeing my Mum this afternoon. It’s a beautiful day already. Should be a good day.

I went for a swim yesterday. The current was so strong I struggled to get back to shore. Got extra exercise but have to be more careful. While I love fighting the ocean this scared me a bit.

PTSD still plaguing me. So far the coping techniques are helping keel me relatively calm. I still feel lost at times, overwhelmed and unable to stop it. Hopefully more T and use of skills will get me back to stable. At least the Bipolar is relatively stable.

[Blue_Bird]

I'm struggling with taking my night meds. I don't ever want to go to sleep, I see no reason for it and I'm always afraid I'll die once I fall asleep. I have a lot of things I want to do. I need to stay active, and keep walking since I've gained some weight

Wow! Lots of birthdays. I have mine this weekend, too. I somehow managed to go out with hubby to a restaurant and two other people there also had birthdays. Today was a good day to celebrate since tomorrow is Mother's day in the US. Neither my husband nor I have our mothers anymore, and I am not a mother. Tomorrow we'll stay home and celebrate them.

The restaurant was so-so despite being a French restaurant. I am a very harsh food critic. Very harsh! I generally like all foods, but only well prepared ones.

[Nammu]

Happy Birthday Birddancer

[Moose72]

My mouth and eyes are so dry from Seroquel!

H@pPy BiRtHd@y Jennifer and BirdDancer!

I had a good day. I ate healthy, did laundry and groceries and even went to church!