Bipolar check in #45

OMG, I am feeling volcanic!

I tried to submit my weekly claim for unemployment, and it won't let me, unless I re-start it! They showed me claiming, then said last week's was on hold for "expected income"!!!!! WTF??!! So I have the choice of re-starting (where does that leave my previous weeks??) or trying to get ahold of them on phone. Called. Oh, they only work M-F. Of course! ****ing avalanche of claims and they can't be arsed to put staff on weekends. One of my housemates LITERALLY called 400 times (yes, 400) and still landed on hold for 2 1/2 hours. So, what is it I'm supposed to do if I can't get through to them within the 5 days they give to accomplish this before they drop my claim?? I STILL haven't heard back if they have my correct address. Nor have they given me the claim number that I would need to be able to check that online!

WHAT A ******* cluster****!!!!!!!!!

I mean, I *get* that they're snowed under and things will take extra time. But when they require special numbers to access basic information (why??) and stop you in your tracks with wrong info to boot, WTF am I supposed to do?! I'm NOT expecting income! Where the hell did they get that from????!!!!!




TG I'd saved a bit of money up or I'd be 100% screwed.

Sorry for the rant, but I need someplace to vent this. I am absolutely FURIOUS!!

sorry to hear that.

the irony is that there would be more jobs (and thus less people filing for unemployment) if they hired people to work on the weekends.

I hope you're able to get help soon. I guess the only thing you can do is put them on speed dial and call @ 9am (or whenever they open). I did that with an electronics company I was trying to get help with. their estimated wait times were 3 hours when I called @ like 10am, so I put them on speed dial and called them @ 9am the next day until they picked up the phone (because I kept getting a message of "please call us during our normal business hours between 9am until 5pm" at like 9:02am).

@beauflow: Congratulations on your puppy! Puppies are actually quite difficult. It's lucky that they are so cute. I'm sure evolution designed it that way so we wouldn't completely lose patience with them. I was at my wit's end with my dog when she was a puppy. She chewed EVERYTHING, even my kitchen floor, she chewed the house down. She was also slow to potty-train. But all at once when she turned one-year-old she morphed into a wonderful adult dog. I so enjoy her but we still have our moments but every couple fights. I agree that dogs are very helpful in overwhelming our senses with happy sensory input, such a comfort. I love my dog's silly little face. She makes such good eye-contact! We gaze into each others eyes, pouring love over each other!

@Innerzone: So sorry to hear of your frustration with the financial relief you're applying for. Chaos and waiting seem to accompany implementations of computer systems and these COVID-19 relief measures are created with such haste it seems like fiasco is the rule rather then the exception. I hope you get it sorted out.

@Innerzone That sounds so ... so frustrating is the only word I can come up with but I know it feels more than just frustrating!!

@~Christina Gentle BIG hugs to you! I will say a million prayers for you today and tonight in case its a non-sleep night too! UGH!

I've been home all day- what's new? I didn't get gas, go to the bank, or take N3 to work. Just been sitting here listening to music and writing a million emails - with references- to my pen pal. He said he found them fascinating! He hasn't replied to my latest set, but it may be a few days. I am researching the history of audio recording and sent him a Youtube video of a 1924 recording. I wanted to know what medium it was likely recorded on so I researched things - one was wikipedia, but another was this awesome article on the history of audio recording/playback. I hope he likes the recording and I hope I haven't sent it to him in the past- there aren't too many old recordings of the Sistine Chapel choir in the world. They just did a professional recording 5 years ago! In the chapel that is. Other recordings are of the choir- including the "last castrato" in 1902/1904 (which were on wax cylinders)- were not done in the chapel, but in the salon or other rooms. It seems that the 1924 recording was JUST before the Electrical Era of recording (started in 1925) so it was likely recorded on a 78 record!

Yeah, it's fascinating to look back in history about random things like this. I remember reading about the invention of headphones in 1910 for use by the Navy, etc.. You might find that interesting to read about as well. Most people are surprised to learn how early on we actually had headphones, recordings, etc..

I had thee happiest Easter moment: i saw my first bunny of the season! It made my day. My neighbor came into our dog-park and i did much better with her today, not initiating any topics of conversation and volunteering very little. She hurt my feelings the other day so i was glad to see that i can relate to her in a way that protects myself.

I fixed my home up more again today and my place gets more and more spacious as i work on it. There is a slight echo, it's getting so empty! I also put my winky-face memoji on my TV screen using a USB drive. I've never done that before and it only took a few tries. So happy when i use my ingenuity!

I slept very well and my mood is good today even tho it is overcast. Tomorrow it's going to pour tho so i'll have to see how i do then.

Spent an hour or more pulling weeds this morning. Made cinnamon rolls with my son around mid day. Finally went for a ride and got home shortly before the rain started. Now I've even got my head freshly shaved. I feel accomplished.

Thanks yes Xeljanz is starting to help I am on my 6th week, as you know being a Doctor that biologics do need time to truly show the full benefit. Even once biologics are helping there is still Flares that will just happen

But when you have severe Fibromyalgia like mine, no remissions , just flare after flare along with PsA its honestly a dangerous mix for many like me. The Brick walls get harder and harder..

Today is no better unfortunately .. Maybe tomorrow.

I literally would starve to death, I can not imagine driving in areas of this country that deal with winter storm and os much snow .. If my town gets 4 inches it literally shuts the town down, Schools are closed . We do not get enough snow to warrant having lots of snow equipment and stuff to pretreat roads with...

Im glad you had an enjoyable Easter Meal

Oh IZ I am so sorry. Unemployment needs to bring in workers around the clock to keep those enrolled still going and the explosions of people opening a claim.. Surly than can bring in workers to process people already receiving and its probably a need for someone to Click "enter or whatever" something freaking simple..

I hope that your able to get this info in everyones needs to just be extended with out need to keep updated while this crisis is going on..

Im so sorry my friend

Thanks everyone who has offered support and kind words. It really means so much.

Id like to report today is better but no can do. More tears

We once again have had a day of bad storms and still going on, so that's not helping any. We have lost power for hours at a time this junk internet is more off than on, Tv too. There was tornado(s) in Mississippi, again... they had some a couple weeks ago

My husband is still headed in the right direction thankfully , but this will be another 3-4 weeks until he is really feeling better

Hope everyone has enjoyed Easter

We lost TV reception for awhile. I’d love to go to bed but there are severe storm and tornado warnings out so I’ll stay up for awhile. It’s disconcerting. Hard to keep up with when the TV keeps going out.

I'm sorry your dealing with it also Stay safe

Ended up not making my Easter dinner because the ribs weren't thawed in time to cook them. So I'll make it tomorrow instead. I ended up just having some frozen pizza. I had a nice day though. Felt good. Lots of anxiety though as usual but I'm getting better at managing it. I enjoyed watching the Easter vigil mass at St. Peter's basilica on YouTube. My faith is helping me a lot during this time. I'd be totally in despair without it.

Have a phone appointment with my psychiatrist Thursday morning. Not much to report other than extreme anxiety and some instances of paranoia. I'd say overall I'm doing pretty well though.

Nothing else going on during the week, have some packages coming, food, clothes I needed and a bedding set my sister got me. The foldable grocery cart came yesterday, that will be very convenient in the future for when I have to shop (I don't have a car, have to walk everywhere and/or take the bus)

Oh yeah, I will have to walk over to the clinic this week to pick up another months worth of vraylar. And to the pharmacy to pick up my klonopin since that's a controlled substance and can't be sent in the mail like my other meds.

Hope everyone had a nice Easter

Well, I fell asleep before I could even take my meds. I must've been exhausted.

Now I feel weird from missing them, but... I'm hoping that the weird feeling goes away when I take my meds tonight. Just gotta give it time...

Anyway, got a busy day ahead of me today. Nooooooooot looking forward to it.

I'm literally starting every week thinking, "I can't wait until it's the weekend!" Then when Friday rolls around, "Damn, just one more day... One more day until freedom!" Once the weekend hits, I do nothing all day and complain that I'm bored and have nothing to do. lol. Then wash, rinse, and repeat.

My community got battered with severe storms and a tornado last night. Widespread damage and power outages. It was the scariest storm I’ve been through. The lightening kept flickering like it was a strobe light and the wind was wild. The tornado was 3/10ths of a mile from my house. We have no power, Walmart just cancelled my order because of operational issues (they were impacted) and I likely won’t be able to get my medicine either.

It’s eerie here this morning and there is debris everywhere. My prayers are for the community and for those that lost property and who are hospitalized.

The last thing we needed.

I forgot all my meds last night so I woke up very early. I hope we get thunderstorms later today, they're predicting some. I'm tired but I did my half hour of exercise and took a walk anyways, makes me feel better about myself. I still feel like turd, but better than before. Tonight I'm going to do this yoga session before bed: I love yoga with adriene and her dog just makes the videos so much better.

She's my favorite!

Yum!! That's something I have never made before. I need to try it!

How terrifying, Jennifer!! As I have said, other than a couple bad storms in the Caribbean, the two tornadoes in Nashville we rode out are the scariest weather incidents of my life, for sure.

So grateful you still have a home!! Hope your power comes back today!!

Hugs and prayers!!!!

Terrible sleep last night that was the kind of sleep that actually would have been imporved upon had I just been up all night. It was anti-rest. Half-nightmares about needing an aortic valve replacement. Crazy stuff. Quite tired now. Maybe tea will help.


Forgot my Wellbutrin last night. I forget meds sometimes.


I would like to adopt that yoga lady's doggie. If someone could help me with that, that would be terrific. Binge-watching all 8 seasons of Homeland and editing my boo today. Need to exercise but, truthfully, I have had some kind of upper respiratory illness with maybe a chronic ear infection plus headaches plus sore throat and dry cough for almost 6 weeks now. It just won't go away. I really just don't feel very good, physically.

Love and hugs to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you get better sleep tonight Is it possible missing your Wellbutrin had something to do with the nightmares?
By "that yoga lady's doggie" do you mean Adriene's Benji? He's adorable!

Yeah, the dog is as chill as she is. They are simpatico.

I'm sorry you're noy feeling well. Hopefully some rest will do you good.

I didn't sleep last night either. Hoping for a solid nap today. Sending healing and restful vibes your way!

Hubby and I got up early to get to Lowe's at 6:30 am. We had breakfast at 5:30 am. Trader Joe's wasn't open so we went to a huge ShopRite we're not familiar with. Both of us were sweating with anxiety. No OJ whatsoever, so we went to another grocery store.

I made the dinner I planned to make last night this afternoon. A lot of work, but delicious. I feel done for the day and it's only 1:20 pm.