Bipolar check in #45

You cut your hair into a pixie cut - do I understand this right?

You cut your hair into a pixie cut - do I understand this right? Right now it's "layered" and have some cuts close to my head but most is to my chin. I have to get a pixie cut when the shops open again.

Oh so youre getting a pixie cut when you can go to a hair place.

I started Wellbutrin a couple of days ago. It's only 150mg and I know that's too low.

When it was working in the past I was on 450mg. At the rate my pdoc goes, it'll take 3 months to get there. At least I'm on it again.

I'm still depressed, feeling low, withdrawn, the usual.

My dreams have been really strange for weeks now. I solve problems in my dreams. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I wake up before I solve the problem.

In last night's dream I solved the problem (it was about moving furniture) and spent the rest of the dream at a party with friends that I made in the dream. Really odd.

At least you are making friends!
Not all of us are that lucky, especially right now.

Great to hear from you!

Our lights just came back on as I was typing this message. Hallelujah!

Had a lovely day sitting in the sun with my family as the house was too cold.

I got a present from my daughter in the mail today. It was a huge Easter basket with an adorable coral colored bunny. It was greatly appreciated as I still thought the power would be out until Tuesday and I was down. Haven’t tried the chocolates yet.

I have something nasty brewing in my lungs. I hope it’s pollen related as I have a history of things heading into pneumonia quickly. I have some current antibiotics from something else that I’m thinking of taking to head this off at the pass.

Feeling great and grateful with the lights back on.

Warm regards to all and hugs to those that are struggling.

Our usual cough and shortness of breath are worse right now... We had a regular follow up with our primary care doctor this afternoon and decided to bring it up... He listened to us breathe then the breathe in deep and breathe out as fast as you can... Gods, the wheezing was so loud!!! The doctor decided to run a covid19 test on us, to be safe, since we are high risk. We should hear back in a day or two... That's what he said.

We hope your lung issue is just allergies and stays just allergies! Being sick at all, even with a plain old cold, during all of this, would be awful.

What great timing from your Daughter..

I am so happy your Power is back on Yes it was beautiful out today. I am enjoying the sun too

Hope that you are negative and feeling better soon Did your Doctor start you on any meds???

My allergies are awful right now Im living on Claritin D ...

He said something about steroids but didn't send them in yet.

Let that doc know, Scooter. Why can't you just bum up to 300 right now? It's not like it's Lamictal...

I hope your test is negative and that you feel better soon.

Yeah I'll try.

She's concerned about my sleep but it wasn't a problem the last time I was in it.

I meet with her soon and will bring it up then.

I hope you don't have the covid-19, childofchaos. Please take care. I'm glad you consulted with a doctor.

I have some "homework" to do today and/or this weekend. At my suggestion, my sister found a lawyer that specializes in elderly issues. I think someone here at PC even brought that up a long time ago. It's definitely long overdue. My sister obtained an appointment on Monday for a phone consultation between that lawyer and my siblings and me. I have to read the email and three attachments the lawyer sent her. My sister also asked me to draft an updated letter, somewhat like what I wrote about a year ago to give to doctors, which they found useful. It's the very least I can do considering how many responsibilities my sister has taken on, in regards to our father.

My dad wants to yet again extend his stay at the assisted living facility through May. It was a hard decision, worrying about the issue of covid 19 being prevalent in eldercare facilities. Ultimately, it was my father's decision. Once all this dies down a bit, we will get him to a neurologist, psychiatrist, and therapist. A lot needs to be done. This is still a very difficult time for our family, in regards to our dad. There are issues relating to my brother that are hard, too, since he lives in our father's house. Life for my dad will likely never be what it used to be. It's yet another new phase in his life. We don't want him to be scared. We want to make things easier for him, but he will have to accept a new normal.

Anyone interested in (or has a parent interested in) long-term care insurance, must read the fine print carefully. My father has been paying towards this for decades, but when it came to the point where he really needed such financial support, they deemed him "not qualified". So they have paid $0 towards his assisted living. It's very expensive. Very!

Last night was likely the last frost we'll have. Hopefully! We covered many delicate plants with blankets to be sure they survive it. It's been a crazy spring so far with very warm temps then sudden cold ones. Generally nothing is completely safe until May.

I start the Trilafon (perphenazine) tonight, hopefully it helps the psychotic symptoms and I don't have any bad side effects. I'm always so nervous about starting new meds, I fear I'll have some horrible side effect that will kill me or something. I know that's not likely though.

anyway, I've had such low motivation lately, I'm trying to clean my apartment and it's really become difficult. I was able to get myself to wipe down/disinfect all the counters today though, so that's a small bit of progress. Next I need to clean out the fridge, take the trash out, and vacuum. Trying to do it all in small pieces so I don't get overwhelmed.

Just drinking some decaf coffee right now and browsing online, waiting for my meds to be delivered. Trying to stop eating out of boredom. lol

Hope you feel better soon and it's not Covid19

Glad your lights are back on! That's nice of your daughter to send you an Easter basket, the bunny sounds cute and I'm sure the chocolates will be great

Hope you feel better soon

Had another teletherapy session today. My therapist reminded me that I have NOT gone bike riding in a long time. I think I will finally pick up my bike from my parents' house this weekend so that I can ride it around. I just do not know how I feel about riding it on my complex's trails. Most people walk, not bike, and the trail is narrow and paved.

I could go elsewhere, but nah, I'd rather not.

I hope the bobcats and bears are gone, as that was my main concern before about going out for walks. I wanted to avoid those mean beasts at all costs. But I also want to avoid other people for obvious reasons.

My therapist suggested that I consider getting my bike tuned up at a local shop, and I think I will do that. It is a nice bike and could use a little love. I hope it does not have rust on it or anything. *yikes*

Now that I have a garage, I think I will be all set to put my bike there. I am glad I will have a place for it now. So all I need is the tuneup and a new helmet.

I didn't know there were bears near you blue

If I had a therapist they would probably suggest I went for walks, it's quiet around here. It would take a lot of grooming for me to pass for human though, it takes a very long time

I have been staying in my cave for over 3 weeks (probably longer).. I have not been out at all.
(everyone knows the reason )

I have a good friend with a mental health issue (severe depression and anxiety) who does not post in this section of the board. My friend says they have not been eating right

Papa bear (my husband) organises our meals. I could feel ''useless'' and ''less than'' but he actually enjoys taking care of us both in those ways. I do not even have a credit card. I am not ''proud'' of that, again I could berate myself and say how ....... I am, but it is how our life has evolved. There was a time when there was very little income coming in and having been severely neglected in childhood by very affluent parents (and no other family who cared at all, no siblings) I am used to living with the bare minimum, or less. So i went around in rags, literally, when he had been laid off through no fault of his own. He was a senior director at a large technical company. I had been taught how to ''exist'' on my own, and he needs a LOT of quiet and alone time.....so I left him alone to recover from the assault by the sharks who took over the company and then completely bankrupted it, everyone was laid off eventually,

respect to all

Awesome news about the power!!!!

If you really think you need antibiotics, you might want to get an opinion first. Just a thought.

Really, really hope this turns the corner soon and that the test is negative.

Hugs and clear breaths!!!!

Thanks everyone for the well wishes. Still waiting to hear from the doctor.

The situation with your dad sounds very complicated and I must confess, I don't fully understand it all. But sending you all strength. I hope everything works out for him.

Cold where yo are and almost 80 degrees here today. Weird.

I really hope that Trilafon helps you, Blue_Bird. It's one I have not tried and I wonder if I should, since my psychosis has been such a problem.

Small steps. Little goals. I think that's the way to do it for folks like us. Make small goals and do our best to pull it off.

Hang in there!! Hugs!!!