Bipolar check in #45

Hi Scooter!

I am sorry you are still in pain and depressed.
There's my ortho dr with a drug called meloxicam. you might know of it?
It's an alternative to many others.
I am so sorry you've had continued depression.
Let us know if you need help!
Love and Prayers

The online link still didn’t work today so my pdoc called me. He gave me the information that medical professionals have on the situation in my country. Most I knew but having him confirm the information I have been receiving helped calm me. The new government rules were explained and im still free to travel to my partner and parents houses as they are classed as immediate family. We all just need to be careful we all barely see anyone else. Minimising the risk while staying sane.

Until Wednesday I’m at home alone. I’m still unwell so I’m just resting, or doing a little study. I’m happy to be alone. We’re allowed out for a short time of exercise once a day so I walked to the beach this morning. My first walk after two weeks. Just 10 minutes, but I got to see the awesome beauty of nature in the ocean. Little things help.

Hi WC....I looked up the Meloxicam but I can't take it because I have an allergy to that class of drugs.

At least I think I do. I'm waiting for an appointment at a drug safety clinic where they test for drug allergies.

The last time I took an aspirin my eyes got swollen almost completely shut so I was told to avoid all drugs in that class to be safe.

I'm so glad you've looked it up!
I was quite sure you would check it out before swallowing any!
I am hopeful your docs will be able to help you more with your pain.

Depending upon the type of pain, sometimes a low dose tricyclic med or a different med used "off label" may help. As with any of our meds, we need to watch the interactions and any increase in the QT prolongation potential.

I hope you will achieve relief on all levels quickly.
I do know at least some of what it is like to suffer treatment-resistant depression (and pain) and my heart goes out to you.

Much Love to You and to Your Family

Some guy at my workplace has coronavirus. Apparently he was somehow working from the building even though I thought it was closed like a month ago...? Damn. Now the building is infected!!

I hope he is okay. He was on our video call earlier this morning though, so he seems alright so far? But someone else on my team (who was new) said he went into the office too and met people including him. Yikes... I hope they did not shake hands!

My office should have CLOSED. I do not know if they forgot to shutdown the badge scanners or what, but this is exactly why they should have turned everything off and locked all doors. Even our offices in Canada had coronavirus people in them, and they closed the doors immediately after that. Not sure why they do not shutdown their Massachusetts offices.

Anyways, doing okay. Slept from 12am until 7am with a couple of awakenings. Nothing new really.

Not sure if my mood is elevated or not. It's tough to tell nowadays. I kind of wonder if I was hypomanic or even manic when on this higher dose of rexulti. I was rarely hearing or seeing things on 3mg and lower. Now it is much more frequent on this 4mg dose. In fact, when we reduced my dose from 4mg to 3mg recently (before bringing it back up), I was not hearing or seeing things. Now sometimes I hear voices and my alarm clock is giving me messages instead of showing the time. I had to talk it out with my therapist to ground me.

I am so ****ing agitated right now and have been all morning. Nothing I do works

Have you tried taking a (brisk) walk? Maybe half an hour? That might relax you.

I slept well last night. No bad dreams, no suffocation dreams! I woke up at approximately 10:30. I had to take N3 to work by 6 so that's not bad. Way better than 5 ****in o'clock in the evening!

I'm going to go get a shower now in case N3 calls. Be back later!

Evenings have been very rough for me lately, I seem to get very agitated every night and stress causes me to breakdown in tears. I think it's because of the current situation in the world and fear. The days usually start out good though. I've been meditating a lot and reading which are both helpful to me.

Have an appointment with my therapist over the phone Wednesday. Looking forward to it, have a lot to talk about.

April 2nd marks 1 year of my eating disorder recovery, so I'm proud of that. Not sure how I'll celebrate, maybe buy myself a new video game and some chocolate.

Oh yeah, I watched mass live streamed yesterday since churches are closed. It was really nice

Anyway, not much going on, just the usual, doing my hobbies like always

Crying. I just got violent (again) and I hate this person I've become. A walk didn't help, yoga didn't help, music isn't helping, journaling didn't help, breathing exercises didn't help... I'm gonna take another PRN even though Ativan is like a ****ing sugar pill to me right now.

Have you tried watching funny YouTube videos? Maybe watch a funny movie or TV show? I find that comedy relaxes me. "Comedic relief"!

I'm a South Park kinda person, but some people like Family Guy and Simpsons and they find it helps them.

Also, can you contact your therapist?

I feel much better today since I showered- I should start doing that every day- and "only" slept until 10-something. I had to take N3 to work at 6, but I came back and went back to sleep. I should use that time to do something productive. Even when I do go back home and get back into bed, it doesn't feel as good as when I just woke up and am all snuggly in my bed. And it seems that N3 is going to work his full shift today! Yay!

@Blue_Bird CONGRATULATIONS on your year in recovery!

Thanks Moose!

I'll try that. I see my T tomorrow and I'll let her know what's going on

That's good.

Are you allowed to talk to your therapist outside of appts? If not, can you work with her to come up with a safety plan of action you can take advantage of? I think you mentioned making a safety plan before, but I do not remember if you found it. Whether or not you found it though, it may need updating if coronavirus is stressing you out.

How beautiful!!! You are so incredibly talented!

So glad that Tylenol is helping. You know, unless there is some sort of underlying liver situation, it is quite safe to take it. Probably quite a bit safer than NSAIDs like ibuprofen and Alleve and so on.

Hang in there!!

I sincerely hope that patient assistance program works out for you, Jennifer.


Breakthroughs are good!! I could use one, myself!

So glad you can go to the beach, at least. Has the weather begun to change yet?

Sending you strength!!!

Maybe one of these silly things will help for a few minutes:

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Hi bluebicycle. My husband's workplace initially allowed people into the building, despite a "work from home" quasi order. However, about five days ago they stopped people's access. It would be a good idea for your office to do the same, especially since the coronavirus could be present there. I've heard that it can only live on things for usually 9 days max. Assuming this is true, I imagine the building would be safe if completely unoccupied for at least that amount of time.

I'm not sure if my husband's workplace is ONLY now closed due to coronavirus concerns. Everyone at his company has been informed that more lay offs are on the horizon. I think that they fear that employees who suspect they'll be laid off may go to the building with less than positive intentions, if you know what I mean. Given the status of the virus in my state, it's possible that some may be laid off even before returning to the office.

Yeah, I'm not sure why my office is not doing the same thing as your husband's. I think if they went through the trouble of shutting down the Canadian offices (because of confirmed cases entering the building), they should have shutdown the ones in the northeastern U.S., at the very least.

My company has always allowed for remote work -- they're pretty lax about it -- so for my company at least, I don't expect any layoffs. I hope your husband does not get laid off though.

My sister may get laid off. I'm not sure. She works in the corporate office of a big retailer, and they've shutdown a lot of their warehouses and are minimizing what people can buy online. So, they're basically not making any money and probably won't for a while. That may lead to layoffs.

My Mazanec (Easter bread) tasted yummy. That was the treat of the morning.

I needed to go to the pharmacy and grocery store, briefly. I have been wearing vinyl gloves for quite a while now, when in stores, but hubby convinced me to wear a surgical mask. We only have a few. I was far from the only person wearing both. I looked at those that had neither, and sadly most with neither were elderly folks. It's hard to know how many of them just had no access to either, and how many think the coronavirus pandemic is overblown or "a hoax". One older man with neither was at the baguette section as I first entered. I wanted a baguette, so I stood afar. For some reason he decided to handle about five of them, clearly indecisive which one to take. During his "decision-making" I saw him cough towards them, obviously not covering his mouth. I was like "Gee whiz!" and moved on.

I recall a couple members here on PC discussing cleaning groceries when they got home, for safety-sake. My husband has done that the last few times we bought stuff. At first I thought it was a little OCD"ish", but now I think it rather wise.

Today at the grocery store, I noticed that they installed see-through Plexiglass shields between the cashiers and where customers stand when their orders are being scanned. This is just within the last few days. I think it is a good idea, frankly. I had been a bit worried for the cashiers. Also, customers with canvas or other reusable bags must bag into them, themselves. The cashiers will only help bag groceries if store-provided plastic or brown bags are used. That also makes sense. No one where I live likely minds much, since we usually bag most (or all) of our own groceries, anyway. The only grocery store that always bags for customers is Trader Joes. That may change. Actually, some stores have opened more self-checkout stations in recent weeks.

The grocery store I went to had mostly normally stocked shelves EXCEPT the toilet paper and paper towels. None and almost none, respectively. Some types of yogurt are still hard to find. I have a couple jokes in my head about the toilet paper frenzy, but I'll leave them to myself.

I called my dad. He's OK.

I hope your sister is spared being laid off.

It's hard to know what will happen to my husband. His company's business depends not only on domestic "customers" but international ones, with a large percentage from China P.R.C. The "customers" must gather together for what my husband's company offers. That obviously hasn't happened for a while, especially in China, though life in China is just starting to get back to normal again. Also, part of my husband's department's work comes from a "product" that will be fully taken over by another organization in NYC vs. where we are.

Ouch. I hope this gets resolved soon for you. I think I read somewhere that China is blocking Americans from entering their country to prevent them from reintroducing the virus. Not sure if that's true or not, but that definitely complicates things if true.

I hope that your husband's company can figure out the logistics with respect to the product being taken over by another organization. I know it's hard when your company relies on something and then that something no longer exists or is no longer an option for you. Had that happen at my first job. Sucked. And the worst part is that before I even started my job, I had to transfer to a different office that was 1.5 hours away with traffic (or 30 mins without). So it was kind of like a bait and switch...