Bipolar check-in #61

LOL yeah I just read your update !! So happy that things got sorted out.

When I lived in Florida the pharmacy there was so incompetent it wasn’t funny ! I opened each bottle while I stood there and at least 7 medications were counted out wrong. In those 8 months. The tech was a guy at least 80 years old so after the second time I asked the pharmacist to come out and recount in front of me .. which he kind of blew it off if he found I was missing pills.

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Wow, that gives pharmacology a bad name. I can’t believe that happed more than once to you at the same pharmacy!!! Wow. That’s just really bad.

Well I need 2 crowns one can wait awhile but the other needs done. The tooth is cracked so that explains the pain of course and I have a cavity than needs filled. But overall with my degree of dry mouth isn’t causing lots of decay.

Thanks for asking Beth !

I picked up my medical record for both screening and diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound. The results …I have a 6.9cm. Category 3 probably benign. Repeat 6 months advised by Radiologist. So I hope it’s nothing to worry about. I’ll feel better once the specialist takes a look.

I’m having horrible tactile hallucinations since I restarted Geodon. Ugh! I hate it. Hopefully it goes away sooner rather than later.

Hugs a hot fudge sundaes for all

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Soupe ??? I hope your feeling better and things improve. I’m here if you need a shoulder. I’m the past I have felt horribly alone despite people around.

Please remember feelings are not facts

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I don't know what to do. All my regular activities annoy me. I'm dying of boredom. I'm not optimistic enough to start a new activity. I'm inert most of the day. This is not living.

I’m sorry your feeling this way. I’ve been in same state of mind at times so I don’t really have any advice. Hopefully this will just improve in some way sooner rather than later

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Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25 I don’t know what they tested for, but he might not have been given the fact that he is young. I’m 95% sure he wouldn’t have been tested for hyperthyroidism either since it’s so rare in young cats. I really do need to call again and find out, I’m just afraid of getting dismissed. I’m not trying to sound like I know better but I think the vet might take it like that. I really am tempted to go to another, the one we used to take my pets to when I was a child. I’m sure that particular practitioner is retired by now, he was probably in his mid fifties 25 years ago. But they have good reviews still.

With what you've described I'd take him somewhere else. You should be able to communicate with the vet without stress about his/her attitude. And even though Cheeto is young he should be tested for diabetes and thyroid issues.

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Originally Posted by whatever2013 I don't know what to do. All my regular activities annoy me. I'm dying of boredom. I'm not optimistic enough to start a new activity. I'm inert most of the day. This is not living.

I fully understand, as I have many days like this

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Originally Posted by ~Christina Well I need 2 crowns one can wait awhile but the other needs done. The tooth is cracked so that explains the pain of course and I have a cavity than needs filled. But overall with my degree of dry mouth isn’t causing lots of decay. Thanks for asking Beth ! I picked up my medical record for both screening and diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound. The results …I have a 6.9cm. Category 3 probably benign. Repeat 6 months advised by Radiologist. So I hope it’s nothing to worry about. I’ll feel better once the specialist takes a look. I’m having horrible tactile hallucinations since I restarted Geodon. Ugh! I hate it. Hopefully it goes away sooner rather than later. Hugs a hot fudge sundaes for all Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

Thank the universe that it's almost surely benign!

I agree with this. You should be able to communicate with your vet. Granted my guy is old but when they tested him they gave me papers that listed everything he was tested for and showed me the range. His papers showed his bloodwork was in the middle for everything. Not only did they give me the papers the tech went over them with me. Vets may prefer animals to people but they are still running a business and need to communicate clearly.

Agree. My vet's office not only does this (which I think is a minimum) they've even called to check on a sick cat the next day. I've had to leave a vet a few times for different reasons but eventually landed on one I trust and hope it stick with forever. You paid for the tests, you definitely deserve to know what they were and what the results were.

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Originally Posted by Nammu I agree with this. You should be able to communicate with your vet. Granted my guy is old but when they tested him they gave me papers that listed everything he was tested for and showed me the range. His papers showed his bloodwork was in the middle for everything. Not only did they give me the papers the tech went over them with me. Vets may prefer animals to people but they are still running a business and need to communicate clearly.

Absolutely! The paperwork is essential, as is an explanation for all tests done. And ALL questions asked should be appropriately addressed.

Soupe, I think it’s nighttime again for you but know we are thinking of you.

Soupe, please take care of yourself and reach out. We're when you want to talk. We miss you.

You’re right everyone. I called his vet back and described what was happening to the tech who answered. I found out his original vet isn’t there that week so the tech passed my info on to the other vet, who I have talked to before (she was the one who read Cheeto’s ultrasound to me). She explained everything on the ultrasound to me thoroughly and ordered a test (that did come back negative) that she said the original vet really should have ordered originally. So I already know that maybe the original vet is not as thorough as he should be.

The female vet was in surgery all day so she’s going to call me back tomorrow.

Today was interesting. I woke up and felt ok enough to go to therapy. I was tired and not hungry and nervous about my doctors appointment but I didn't feel sick the way I did last night. Therapy went well. I voiced my concerns about my apointment. She acknowleded my feelings and said it was good that I went to the dentist and was ruling stuff out and yeah peeing neon yellow is not good. Then she said quietly and a bit nervously "have you been tested for covid?" And I said yeah like a week ago. Then we made a food plan the rest of the session.

My mom and I went out afterwards to a few stores a couple hours away. Things were going ok. She asked if I wanted to go out to eat but I had no appeite so I just got a smoothie and a jerky stick from Smoothie King. Then right after Smoothie King I really had to use the bathroom. And it was making me feel pretty sick. I wanted to continue and I didnt want to deal with public restrooms. So I just held it. That was around 11 and by the time we were just about done with our shopping at 2 I was in full blown distress. And 2 hours from home. Luckily I made it though I did finally tell my mom what was going on about half an hour back and asked if my sisters house was any closer then ours. My mom asked if I wanted to stop at a shady rest stop which is why I didn't tell her I had to go 4 hours ago. But she knew something was not right with me and she kept asking if I was ok throughout the trip.

But anyways now I just have another headache and I'm very cold and there probably is something legit going on. I'll find out more tommorow.

I have the hood to my red hoodie up and I'm giving off major Elliot from ET vibes. I'm just so frigging cold.

Sending you love and hugs Soupe

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Nothing major going on today other than these bloody tactile hallucinations. Like how many showers can I take in one day?

I’m considering a Fitbit. Asking my Daughter a ton of questions. I’m just stuck with zero motivation to get up and actually push for physical exercise. I think maybe seeing what I’m doing as far as steps could be what I need and monitor heart rate. I have tachycardia and not sure my current medication is still working. Like it shouldn’t be this hard ! But I also don’t want to invest a lot of money into something I won’t really use … but that could be motivation also ?

I’ve also decided I’m going to do Keto for a short while. I do need to get some stuff from the store to be able to start that. I know following my diabetic choices has kept me from getting even bigger but still I simply have to lose some of this weight I haven’t been this heavy since I was pregnant with my daughter 30 years ago.

Hope everyone is having a peaceful Wednesday

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My daughter did keto and said food choices are excellent. She would send me photos of her meals and they looked delicious She lost about 20lbs right off the bat but has been stuck since then. Doesn’t help that she has a desk job now. She loves it and her coworkers but it is sedentary

So, the vet called back. Turns out they did do a thyroid test and diabetes. Negative. She told me at this point I’m going to have to take him to a specialist.

We’re getting into financially impossible areas here. A consult is $250. I’m kind of steeling myself at this point for the inevitable; that there really is nothing to be done. I’m going to take him for a consult, and I’m going to tell them to give it to me straight. Is it worth spending thousands in testing to find out it’s too late anyway? Even if they can find something, is it so rare that it’s untreatable or financially impossible to treat in the long term? I just need to hear someone say what I believe now is true. Only then can I make my peace with letting him go.

There’s a vet hospital near where I work. I’m going to call tomorrow and see if I can get an early morning appointment so I can drop him off and go to work. I don’t know if they’ll hold on to him all day but I’ll pay extra, I can’t miss work or leave early again.

I haven’t taken vraylar in two days and my stomach pain and nausea are much better, which is a blessing and a curse because I’m physically better so it’s likely the med that cause the issues, but my mood is out of control already. However I am close to that time of the month and I have a lot of stress with my cat so it’s hard to say. I was rocketing around from elevation to depression to intense anger back to depression and who knows what else. I got stuck in a loop in my head focused on my last hospitalization and what I feel I should have done differently(nothing good, by the way). I had to shake my head because I was driving totally spaced out. I got myself back when I realized I was about to turn onto the on ramp for the highway. Took some deep breaths and tried not to grip the steering wheel so hard and drive like a jerk.

Sigh. Tomorrow is another day. Boring as all hell again. I’m glad the students are definitely coming back Tuesday, I can’t take it anymore.

Well, yesterday's appointment went well; dropped the trazadone as I'm doing well with my sleep hygiene exercise. Doc wasn't too concerned with the little up episode as it went away quickly enough and I didn't do anything more interesting than drink some wine. (didn't drive on wine, no worries). I usually avoid alcohol entirely. So now its just the Abilify with a benztropine chaser to keep the shakes under control. Next appointment in three months so that's a good sign of stable. Really should post here more often I just don't seem to get in the frame of mind to write very often.

Thanks again for the touch of encouragement earlier, really does help.

I’m glad it helped her. I fully expect to lose some then just be at a standstill. But anything lost I’ll be happy about.

This morning I make like a egg quiche ( was eggs a bit of sausage and cheese. ) in a muffin pan so good and loads of protein. They were so cute and easy to do lol they tasted really good. I’ll be making them again.

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I’m glad you got the info on what testing they did on Cheeto. Maybe you will hear good news at the consult. It’s so hard to watch a beloved fur baby go through something like this. Sending you loads of hugs

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Thanks, Friends, for the inquiries and well-wishes. I've needed a little shift, in thinking and actions. I'm not in any really concerning state of mind, but one that threatens to become one. Frustration, impatience, stir craziness, etc. In any case, I'm sorry for my post a couple days ago. It was written at a bad moment.

I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to catch up on past posts, but am hoping these recent days have brought some pleasant moments and/or a bit of relief from stressors.

My husband and I got our 3rd covid boosters yesterday. I felt just fine after the first two, but woke up this morning a bit tired with mild malaise. I do feel better now. My sister-in-law and her new beau visited us today. The lunch I prepared was mostly cooked on the gas grill. That was nice, despite it being January.

Good to hear from you Soupe. I’m glad things aren’t so dire as they last sounded but still you’re struggling. I hope the threatening storm passes you by.