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#961
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#962
I feel a ton better after starting my new pain med antacid thing. I can eat but it doesnt make me ravenous. I can just go back to my normal dieting. I went out to the grocery store this morning. I got the last 2 chicken dunk lunchables they had and a few other things. I also managed to go into the library by myself to pickup 2 Stephen King books I put on hold for my mom that I know she hasn't read. She was just reading the same ones and claiming she hadn't read them. But I knew of 2 she hadn't read which she also said she hadn't read. Then we also stopped at the gas station and I got the new flamin hot Mountain Dew. I am not totally sure drinking spicy Mountain Dew is a good idea so thats why I'm not getting any cases. Just two 20oz bottles. There was some big guy in there. Like 6'3 230 pounds or something. He wasn't paying me any attention really but man did I feel puny with my 5'5 157 pound self. He just glanced at me because I looked at him first but that was all that happened. The encounter actually made me feel good because I could tell I was passing. In a bit we have to take the cats to the vet but now I'm just relaxing.
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#963
Present. Don't worry about me, just been "busy"
I suppose I should give a legitimate update. I've been struggling with using again. I don't really want to quit. Call me stupid, weak, whatever, I don't care. I'm doing what I know to survive. Everything is set up for me to get into ACT except being approved for Medicaid. Waiting on gov't of course. I was supposed to have an appointment with my NP 10 days ago but I didn't know so I was informed of that when I called today asking when I'm supposed to talk to her again. Would've been nice to be told I was supposed to call on the 4th... Telehell appointment on Tuesday. __________________ [Insert thought-provoking and comedic quote here] Last edited by MuddyBoots; Apr 21, 2022 at 11:59 AM.. |
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Silver Swan
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#964
I need to take a shower tonight but I might wait until tomorrow morning just so my hair is tidy.
It's 60 and sunny out right now. I hope it's nice tomorrow but I think it will rain for the recital. We'll have to see what the hourly weather is for tomorrow, tomorrow. I've lost the CD I had made of N3 singing when he was 9 for an assembly at school. I lost it when I moved a year and a half ago. It's like the box it and a bunch of other CDs were in just disappeared. I do have these recordings on YouTube but I can't "keep" those- they are inside YouTube, know what I mean? I have looked everywhere for those CDs and I even had decided at one point that the movers stole that box. Would've been easy to do: keep one box while all the rest were piled up on one another in my apartment. How could I tell that one was missing. But now it's been a year and a half and I don't think anybody remembers the name of the moving company we used nevermind the movers themselves. It's just one of those things that comes up and bothers me every so often again. I got up and changed the CD in my CD player and had a look through those CDs which I THOUGHT the one of N3 were with. Tomorrow Caleb shows up. I hope the smoking isn't a big issue but I just know it will be. I'm starting to wonder why I invited him in the first place. I know why- he likes music and I thought he'd enjoy N1's folk music. She's even playing something by Bach on the guitar which I think is difficult. They've been practicing for months and months for this! Anyway, I've been thinking I just want to uninvite Caleb. I can't deal with the attitude he has about smoking. __________________ Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 1.5 mg, Gabapentin 100 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#965
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As I wrote yesterday, I almost wish we could go straight home on Saturday instead of another week near NYC. But that's not gonna happen, so I'd better get my ssht in order. I'll take a little extra Seroquel if necessary, but I don't have much extra to spare. Just Ativan. I am sleeping just fine, so that's not an issue. Only daytime stuff. It is stressful and also depressing. Boy how I sometimes wish I could take a vacation all by myself and leave him home. No, I don't want to leave him, just have a break from him to do 100% of what I want, how I want, when and where I want. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#966
Oh I hear you soup. Last night I lost it with mum. Just want a little break.
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Crone
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#967
Had my fitness evaluation today. Surprisingly I could do more than I thought I could. It was a good time to be there too, very few people around. Really when he showed me what he wanted I didn’t think I could do it, but to my amazement I did. Not well and certainly trembling but I did it. Then he showed me which machines to use to strengthen my weak leg. I can fit the machine s in after fitness class and add just 30 minutes more. If I can strengthen my weak leg I can start walking again. Right now I can barely walk a block.
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#968
That's great Nammu!
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#969
Nammu, that's wonderful!
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Location: NJ
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#970
Great job nammu!
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Location: NJ
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#971
Boy have I run the gamut of emotions today. Mostly bc of the group yesterday still messing with my mind. Flipping from agitated depression to fury and back again. But I finally talked in group and it was a huge weight off my shoulders. I couldn’t be specific as I didn’t want to trigger anyone but just admitting out loud that my relationship with my first husband was ****** really helped.
Now I’m back to hypomanic. I cleaned the living room and started clearing off the kitchen table. I’m sitting in the backyard listening to punk music super loud, well as loud as my phone can go. It’s ok out, mid sixties but no sun and breezy so I have my heavier hoodie on plus a hoodie to cover my legs lol. I have leggings on bc I was gonna go to the gym this morning but my stomach was upset. Yesterday was the second time I’ve taken the gabapentin for sleep and also the second time I’ve been nauseous after taking it and into the morning :-/ I’m not gonna take it tonight to see if it’s the gaba or my GI issues acting up. I hope it’s not the gabapentin or at least that the side effect will lessen bc it’s working really well, I have to take much less seroquel. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Crone
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#972
I just ordered barefoot gym shoes for my classes at the Y. They are finally down from 100$ in price. I’ve always wanted a pair of those. They’ll be especially good for the Tai Chi which starts in a couple weeks. I really hope I don’t lose my momentum. I’ve bought 4 gym leggings and a pair of shorts, the shoes and one top. The tops are mostly too revealing I think I’ll stick to t shirts. The only new clothes I’ve bought in years are these gym clothes. I sure hope I use them. I’ve a habit of starting things then quitting
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#973
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Hey...no worries...please don't not check in because you're using. I was concerned that you were IP or worse. You're not weak, sweetie! And you are NOT stupid. You're dealing with pain in the best way you can right now. I think it's great that you're following through with the various services. Having Medicaid will be so good. I'm really glad you've checked in __________________ |
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#974
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Hmm...I haven't seen you as a quitter..... __________________ |
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#975
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I hope it's not the Gaba, too. If it is I've found that taking 1/2 a tablet of Less-Drowsy Dramamine stops the nausea side-effect until it eases up on its own. Also, sipping on ginger tea is amazingly helpful - IF the problem is med related. __________________ |
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Crone
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#976
Wow that’s helpful info. I don’t eat breakfast or lunch until I’ve been up 5-6 hours because of nausea. I wonder if I should replace my morning chai with ginger tea? It sounds delicious
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#977
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Of course I'm counting down with you. Ohhh...I'm exactly the same with Klonopin. Right about 22 years, every time I attempt a taper something happens and I have to go back up, etc., etc. The whole benzo thing is really, really difficult. __________________ |
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#978
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Working on it with your clinician is a great idea, I think. I haven't told my husband many things for years and years. (((((HUG))))) __________________ |
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Yay, it's terrific that your new med is helping. A few years ago I was having trouble swallowing, it was painful, and I was scared I had something seriously wrong. I finally got so scared I went to my GP. She prescribed a stomach medication and I was better after just 1 dose. After the 2-week course I was normal. It must have felt really good to pass. At some point I believe that you'll feel so comfortable that you won't even think twice about it. But, no rush. __________________ |
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#980
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Okay, the sleep is such a good thing. I love NYC, it's where my family comes from. But a week of being there, but not wanting to is...daunting. The good part I think is that it being NYC the time will go by quickly. Which ballet are you seeing? Seeing a ballet does sound divine. I a vacation by yourself possible? The 2 of you are together almost constantly...after about the first year of marriage I think being together so much would try anyone's nerves. If you were to go alone, where would you like to go? __________________ |
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