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Legendary Wise Elder
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#521
Today’s IFS work was very interesting !!!! It’s exhausting but I can see this helping many things especially the PTSD parts.
Good grief it was hot today 90 and humid. Come on Tennessee get it together its May NOT July ! I’ve been posting an animal pic a day on Facebook. I’ve enjoyed looking for pictures. Many of my friends just love it and a few have started tagging me with animal pictures they post. Maybe random but I just want to give someone a reason to smile. Speaking of Facebook I can scroll for hours on reels so much funny stuff and uplifting people I now follow. If you haven’t checked out reels give it a try. Gotta share a picture I snapped of Gus. I swear he’s a puppy but this pic with his fangs I think Bat LOL Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ Helping others gets me out of my own head ~ |
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#523
Awwwww he looks like a little monkey! Soooo cute. Thanks for that Christina!
__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#524
Hi, hey there you, beautiful mama ....It is tough when they leave. Harder than giving birth to them is letting them go. The physical pain has nothing on the emotional pain. I've been there twice and I won't lie- a part of me is still not over it (and most likely never will be).
I don't know any great words of wisdom to ease your pain and fear, sweetie. But I am reaching allll the way across the miles to give you a HUGE hug, hug, hug - and to tell you that: you - are - not - alone. I've noticed that not every mom feels it when her child leaves home, but may the Universe bless those of us who do, because we really know what love is, and I am serious about that. And I am sending you sooo much love tonight! Please Mm, beautiful you, take care of yourself. Believe me...he will need you all of your life. Many times more so than he ever did before. It's weird that way. __________________ |
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He's so fuzzy! I can just feel his fur under my hands __________________ |
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#526
Thank you Beth and Christina. I'm trying to breathe but I want to self destruct. Unfortunately or fortunately our house guests haven't gone to bed so I can't self destruct.
__________________ Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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Yes, I have. Unfortunately, another med that caused me to be hungry but didn't help in any way. My fear is that there isn't anything that will help me fall asleep, short of a large dose of an antipsychotic __________________ |
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Sometimes...I think to myself that it sucks having kids and having pets, because as long as I have them I have to stay alive. And I think how am I supposed to do that when I am so effing tired. But then I just make myself keep going because I have to be here for them. It sounds simple. Maybe it is simple. __________________ |
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#529
@*Beth*
I’m so sorry you’re still struggling. Sometimes we can accept our dx of bipolar and even years later struggle to accept it again. I have ideas in my head that I might be able to go off meds if I can settle my trauma as well, but in my heart I know that’s not true. The best thing that can happen is I can go back to being on just depakote and lamictal. That would be wonderful. Even without the vraylar I’m still on six others. Vraylar might work for you but it is also expensive. I just happen to have excellent prescription coverage so after the annual deductible they’re basically free. Sometimes they are free. Also, I tend to have the worst, rarest side effects lol, to the point where doctors will tell me my side effect is not even a side effect of that medication (a quick internet search always says otherwise). But in terms of weight gain, that is a known and common vraylar side effect, so if you don’t want that stay away. I hope you do start the lamictal at least until you can get further in your trauma work. And I hope your therapist comes back soon, and that you can get some good sleep! Sending healing vibes your way Ps - and I agree with Christina __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#530
@~Christina, it has become quite clear to me, from seeing photos, that your sweet furry little dude is totally in love with you. Is he also a mamma's boy?
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#531
Today's been quiet in my household, but pleasant. Hubby made me a homemade rhubarb strudel apparently at 2 am last night, then bragged about it to his sister in a text. S-i-l told me on the phone this morning. It's one of only two desserts he's ever made. I'm usually the sole cook/baker.
The sun is shining, but we're inside being lazy. Wish it would rain already. It never rains here. All of the yellow pollen is everywhere. We had to hose down our white car. This weekend we're going into Prague for a classical music concert. Today is the start of the "Prague Spring" music festival that is held each year, and is a famous one in Europe. I sort of wish we didn't have it, because I'd rather putz around home before our second big trip in June. A couple weeks from now there's yet another concert in Prague we're supposed to see. Luckily both times we can stay at a friend's apartment. The concert we see this weekend starts at 9 pm. Ugh! I'm usually already tired by that time. Unless I'm hypomanic or manic, I am not a night owl. Seroquel XR also makes late nights rare. And yet, if I take the Seroquel XR too late at night, it makes getting going in the morning harder. 7 pm is my usual evening meds time that works best. __________________ Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 600 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; May 12, 2022 at 07:38 AM.. |
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#532
Really nervous to try Depakote. I think that I’m going to try it tonight. If I had known that my therapist was going to call off I would have already taken it.
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#533
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Do keep up on the bloodwork as you taper up though, you don’t want your liver enzymes or blood levels to get too high. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#535
Haven't been around for a while, just popping in.
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__________________ Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#537
My anxiety level is so high that I had a panic attack that incapacitated me. I was not able to make my 10:15 about the chest pain and shortness of breath. I rescheduled it for 2:30. I am currently on the deck in the sunshine with some honey lavender stress relief tea trying to calm down. Anxiety is the pits.
I took an inventory of my life on my birthday and I have made great progress over the last year. Currently, I feel a bit of a hot mess. I can’t seem to keep all the balls in the air. It’s overwhelming to me. Where do I start building a more stress free life? I hope everyone has a peaceful day today. Hugs to all. |
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#538
Was so nice to be back home. My sister and bil are casual and good hosts but I’m always glad to be home sleep in my own bed. I’m down to 15 mg and doing ok. I don’t fall asleep as quickly and as always I wake up far too early. But today I was determined to stay in bed a while. I did eventually fall asleep and have a short little dream. 😃 so altogether I’d say about 6 hours, for me that’s pretty good.
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#539
I think its just that day before my shot time for me today. My sleep was a mess last night and my anxiety and moods werent great either. I was pretty heavy on the caffeine and really low on food though which didn't help. Finally I just said F it and I got my shot a couple hours ago which is a day early but not a big deal. I then went to the grocery store because I needed bottled water and I almost had a panic attack just because my agoraphobia has been so bad and its warm outside so I couldnt wear a hoodie and I felt vulnerable in my t shirt and shorts despite looking fine, and no one paid me any attention. I almost passed out but I think it was more from the lack of food I had and the large amount of caffeine I consumed. The heat wasn't helping either. Once I got home I ate a Lunchable that came with a bottle of water and a little KooI Aid packet and I felt a lot better both physically and mentally. I have a message into my doctor since this throat thing is still obnoxious. Hopefully he gets back before the weekend. So this morning was rough but things are starting to calm down after getting my shot and eating something.
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Thank you, wfc. How true it is that we have to re-accept our diagnosis on repeat. And every time feels like starting all over again, at least initially. And thank you for the healing vibes __________________ |
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