Bipolar check-in #69

I’m so sorry about your back problems. I hope you get that straightened out. Great news about the sleep.

Glad you had a good time.

Summer season is well and truly over as far as floating down at the pool goes. The water has been lowered and the chairs and tables put away. It was heavenly while it lasted. I fondly look forward to next summer but have several goals I want to achieve before then. Until then, I have the YMCA pool to float at. I always wander though what that lifeguard thinks of the middle aged woman just floating and pondering in the deep end.

I start with a new therapist tomorrow who specializes in DBT therapy. Researching the history and reason for creation, it’s excellent for SI and the like. Between that, group skills sessions and lithium, I hope to knock a lot of those episodes out. I feel cautiously optimistic. It’s my best shot to date.

I hope everybody has a peaceful evening. Much love

Thank you sunflower, I hope you sleep well tonight too.

I slept like ****last night with restless legs

I could not get comfortable I finally was asleep

at some point in the night as I woke up then the

alarm went off at 830am and I kept hitting

snooze. got up at 915. I had to start getting ready for work.
I am tired,my back hurts in 2 different places,

middle back is all tense and painful then my
SI joint is flaring up too I just tried a pigion pose
but my knee still hurts so that was a no go.
I will take some advil but that means eating

something ans I don't want to

eat after 7 pm and not drink any thing as well
Just a small amount to take my meds.

The cogentin almost always gets stuck in my mouth and it is so bitter yuck. This I have learned how to take it quickly.
and avoid getting stuck!
YAY!
bizi

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Originally Posted by Nammu Does anybody have info on how not to get ripped off by car dealers? I will have a support with me in the form of my daughter’s father in law and I bought consumer reports so I can look up any car I look at. I already looked up the trade in value of my car. Any good tips? I’m so nervous I usually don’t make a good bargain, I tend to ignore my inner voice and get sweet talked into a car my gut says no to

I so wish I could help you. The only time I've dealt with a car dealership was 20 years ago and my father-in-law was buying the car for us. And even though it was a Ford it turned out to be a terrific little car

I do remember having to decide between a sedan and the cute Ford and being very nervous because David and his dad wanted to choose the sedan. And the dealership guy was right there...it wasn't an easy experience, but it worked out well.

Maybe while you're at the dealership envision yourself as a tree-person with roots that extend deep into the ground and hold you solid, firm, and sure.

I think it's excellent to have a support person with you (if that person is truly supportive).

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Originally Posted by Sunflower123 ...Listening to disco (that I’ll only admit to the folks here).

Which musicians do you listen to? Disco was huge when I was in high school. Hated most of it then, but I've come to love it It is GREAT to skate to!

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Originally Posted by Sunflower123 Summer season is well and truly over as far as floating down at the pool goes. The water has been lowered and the chairs and tables put away. It was heavenly while it lasted. I fondly look forward to next summer but have several goals I want to achieve before then. Until then, I have the YMCA pool to float at. I always wander though what that lifeguard thinks of the middle aged woman just floating and pondering in the deep end. I start with a new therapist tomorrow who specializes in DBT therapy. Researching the history and reason for creation, it’s excellent for SI and the like. Between that, group skills sessions and lithium, I hope to knock a lot of those episodes out. I feel cautiously optimistic. It’s my best shot to date. I hope everybody has a peaceful evening. Much love

Oh, how I would love to float. Do you ever just decide to roll over into the water? The lifeguard probably thinks you're really cool.

I hope and pray your session goes wonderfully well tomorrow. I'll be waiting to find out (if my internet is working as well as it has today).

Have you heard about topical magnesium for restless leg syndrome
@bizi? Apparently, many people are deficient in magnesium, which is best absorbed through the skin. Magnesium
is supposedly a remedy for RLS. I've been amazed by products I've used from the woman who runs this business.

This: Magnesium Cream
– SkinFoodFix

I keep telling myself no is a powerful word. I have a budget and if they can’t offer a good car at that budget then NO

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Originally Posted by Nammu I keep telling myself no is a powerful word. I have a budget and if they can’t offer a good car at that budget then NO

YEP! You can do this, Nammu!

Nammu, have you read articles on Edmunds.com ? I found it really helpful when I bought my car. That was a long time ago and unfortunately I don't remember much of what I learned but it did help me.

I know when my sister was 9 months pregnant and buying a minivan (therefore they could see she needed the car or would need it soon compared to the compact car my sister was driving) she looked at the car and test-drove it and then we made a list of things she wanted like all-weather floor mats and new tires and sh e used those things are bargaining chips. It worked well for her.

I’ve been reading all kinds of stuff but not Edmund s, now I will.

I like most of them (I’ve rarely met a disco song that I didn’t like). We would go on these disco dance cruises here and I would dress up and enter the dance contests. Either my sister or I won each time. It was a blast.

My favorite band from the disco era (I have current ones as well) is Earth, Wind and Fire. The song September is great. I was lucky enough to sit on the stage throwing distance from them when they played a festival here years ago. The CEO was dancing as well so I didn’t feel so bad in front of a huge crowd. Good times.

I bet skating to disco is incredible!

It is nice. When I float at the Y, I use one of their noodles. I go to aqua fitness first. Didn’t want you to think I go only for that, the hot tub, sauna and steam room.

Thank you for rooting for me with this appointment. I am nervous and have been up since 2:00 am over it.

You’ve been very kind and supportive to me. I thank you.

Fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow last night! I fell asleep so fast I didn't take my evening meds! Well, if there's ever a good reason for me to miss taking my meds, getting a good night's rest is as good a one as any.

Work was very good. Sold a fair share of phones. I did have the feeling I was cleaning up other people's messes though. Had a customer who was signed up, at another store, for a two year commitment to a phone company that had no service where they lived. Not only that, the store managed to sign the customer up with an address that didn't exist! (Half was right, other half was completely different city.) The person they dealt with then tried to shrug their proverbial shoulders and go "Oh, well," like they didn't just try to commit their customer to two years with a useless service! I got them taken care of, but that is third time I've seen customers with issues with the same store (Two with the same person)! I did say I enjoyed problem solving when I interviewed for the job!

I do have medication to get rid of though. My PsychNP's switching around of doses has left me with pill bottles of meds I don't really need. The pharmacy in my Wally World workplace does have a surrender site. I think I'll just hand them off there and get them out of my hair!

My dad finally dropped his demand for money, instead telling me to save that money as a rainy day fund. He's constitutionally incapable of offering a suggestion or making a request, but reopening a savings account is not a bad idea, so I went ahead and did it. I'll start small ($20 week, spare change) and go up from there!

All in all, yesterday was pretty good!

I can picture Sir's internal monologue: "Grumble, grumble. Leaving me out there all night... Grumble, grumble. Jerk! ...But you keep me warm human, and you're gonna do that ALL MORNING!"

One of the big things I looked at with cars was MSRP (Manufacturers Suggested Retail Price). That was always my staring point, so if they were charging significantly more or less, I can ask why and go from there.

Kelley Blue Book is good for estimating average value as well. They've got a free website to that effect .

Good luck!

Oh that’s good info, thanks.

I don't believe I've ever read that book before

I'm really glad you're feeling better

Here's pictures of the cats from this morning. Maybelle on my bedside table at the crack of dawn staring me down to demand breakfast and Mustachio laying on a load of warm laundry that just came out of the dryer lol

Went to bed at 8 last night and woke up at 5:30. I dozed off and on until 7:30. So a great night!

Had an in-person check up with my pdoc (nurse practitioner). She was working with a student NP who did my appointment. Then my regular NP came in and we discussed how I've been feeling. I was very fidgety they said. It's true- I was not sitting still at all constantly shifting in my seat sitting up then sitting back then immediately up again, grabbing the chair arms then releasing, shuffling my feet. They both declared that I had "classic akathesia"! And I thought I wasn't doing anything out of the ordinary- well I knew I was moving around a lot. They decided that it's from the Haldol and Rexulti. That's why she wanted to add Ativan morning and night. I took my first pill at Starbucks and I do feel calmer in terms of the restlessness. I just have to only take it as prescribed and not stop it suddenly because last time I took it I went cold turkey off- completely- and had horrible withdrawals.

That’s funny about Maybelle staring you down. Great pics!

I hope your back and knee start feeling better

My allergy test came back but its kinda confusing. I'm hoping my doctor calls to explain things. My at home one was a lot easier to do.

I started working out this morning. Lifting weights and stuff. If you google image trans men you'll find some pretty buff guys. I don't have any weight to lose, people are giving me the worst time that I need to be gaining weight. But I want to put on muscle. You can bulk up like crazy on testosterone. My endocronolgist told me he has had to deal with some cis guys who use testosterone illegally for body building. But today I used my weights and my dumbell and my ab rolling thing. I felt it in my arms and my stomach and my legs. It made me feel good. My therapist said the other day she didn't really want me to gain muscle either. Which sounds dumb.

Anyways I've just been dealing with that and the test results today. Theres not much else going on. Theres still no baby yet. Maybe he or she will actually make it to the 27th due date.

I just feel super full even though I haven't eaten much today. Maybe it is just my meds. I wish people would understand that though. That this is not on purpose. The not eating much.

I have been distracting myself from the royal coverage (or trying too), by watching new episodes of shows that I like

these include the adventures of paddington bear and peppa pig

it's been difficult because of tv skedule changes, but in the times where nothing's on, I've been making up a song about how much I hate the english health service

it really amuses me to give my true opinion

Adding:. One of the first things we talked about is that I'm dealing with this time of year is hardest for me- that I am dealing with the trauma of my attempt last year. This is sometime that is up front in my mind and weighs on me.