Bipolar Check-in #75

Having stomach trouble since eating some vegan Jamaican patties yesterday - I love them but they are very spicy and have beans, and my stomach can't handle them.

Still managed to get my mammogram done and go to writing group, even though I had to leave the group for a while and walk around the library to settle my tummy.

@Samicat:

Delighted to be on this quest together! We are about the same age, you are a few years younger, i think. I'll be 57 in August. I find it just about impossible to lose weight in menopause. I put the same amount of effort in that i would in my pre-menopause life to lose a full pound and i lose a fraction of a pound. Patience!

Today is my Friday. Looking forward to the next few days off! Got a footrest for my recliner. Several months of being laid up on it has did a number to the recliner's own footrest. Couple that with the fact my cat has adopted the nerve-wracking habit of lounging underneath that precarious footrest while I'm lounging above, and, well, it's time. Should be in on Monday.

On the plus side, I surprised some people with my language skills. I'm by no means fluent, but I have the ability to carry on a tech related conversation in Spanish. Getting information on phones, networks, security questions and more mundane retail related matters to name a few.

Apart from that, I just have to make a store run and my errands are done for the day!

I’m doing better. Floating in the pool everyday helps tremendously. We’ve had beautiful weather.

I’m going to a women’s fire ritual and sunset picnic Wednesday that I’m looking forward to. I’ve never tried honey mead so that will be interesting. I’m taking fresh fruit salad to share as a summer snack as we watch the sunset.

Our family reunion is coming up. They’ve listed the options for activities for Saturday and I’ve decided to go rafting with my cousin Paul. This should be a lot of fun!

I received a scholarship to study with Eckhart Tolle, the spiritual guru, again in the fall. Really excited about that.

I have a brand new, very thorough dentist. There are a few things I need fixed - one that includes surgery with sedation. I’ll work on being brave.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

I really don't want to tell anyone this but I just bled all over my boxers and my stomach hurts and I'm nauseated. Idk. I don't think its an emergency but maybe I should tell my mom.

I hope everything is okay.

@Mountaindewed, sounds like something you should definitely mention to a doctor asap.

I told my mom. I know I need to go to my gynecocoglist since it could be related to my hystrectomy. This is the second time this has happened and I just have to get the nerve to go and not cancel the appointment.

Well, it's been weird. Earlier in the week I felt awful, like some of the worst I've felt in a long time, and it's slowly gotten better as the week progressed. I'm doing much better today. I didn't sleep much last night and I spent about two hours singing karaoke naked in my living room (alone of course). haha. I don't take that as a sign of anything serious-- I had just taken a shower and got in a singing mood and was alone. I have somewhat of a headache right now. I hope the good mood continues.

For what it's worth coming from me, I wouldn't delay on contacting the doc. It might not be 911-urgent now, but it could very well turn that.

I hope you start feeling better soon!

Feelin' good and wanted to share the vibe. Made a lipsync video I figured I share -- don't mind me looking awful, it's better than most days LOL.. If you like it, I'll take some requests :P (P.S. the video expires in 2 days, so it will disappear at that point.)



https://streamable.com/mrg35z

I find one of the most important things to be not eating after dinner (I do allow myself a small dessert). This means that usually I don't eat for at least 12 hours before breakfast.

Ugh. Feeling horrible - have the runs badly. I do have Irritable Bowel Syndrome but I can't think what I would have eaten that would cause this - this is worse than I've had for months.


So I didn't work out like I was supposed to today, but I've been getting some chores and tidying done. Also I will do a bit of planning for my novel - today is my one day per week off from writing but I want to have some idea of where to start again tomorrow.

Also feeling a bit depressed but it's probably fatigue. Fatigue and depression go hand in hand for me.

Going to do a face mask for my skin too. My skin is looking awful and I recently realized I need a more hydrating moisturizer.

My weekend has started on a sour note. A while back, I had a tooth break courtesy of an aggressive bite into a deceptively hard cookie. I didn't go to the dentist at the time because it didn't hurt and well, the time and money involved in the visit with no dental insurance. Well, it's hurting now and I can feel an abscess on the gum underneath the surviving tooth fragment.

Since it's Sunday, I can't really see anyone. So, I'm working with pain pills that aren't really working and the baking soda brushing (and sometimes poultice) and hydrogen peroxide swish home remedies that are working surprisingly well.

I'm nervous about my teeth going forward. While I'm not toothless by any means, I have lost more than a few teeth due to a combo of food mishaps and general carelessness. I'm very concerned about two teeth essentially sitting by themselves. Cosmetics aside, I'd rather not lose two more teeth because they're not supported by the teeth around it. Dentures, implants, bridges, something. I'm not above engaging in a bit of medical tourism if the price is too high here. Always wanted to go south of the border.

Tomorrow, I've got to stall the electric company and let them know I can pay the bill I owe them, just not on Monday. My own fault getting this close to the deadline, but I've got the money. Just have to wait for the bank to cash the check after the Juneteenth bank holiday. Gonna be an interesting few days!

Hi hi ! My brother will be here Wednesday ! Very excited

How are you feeling ? Things starting to be less stressful ? How’s your Home coming along ? I’m sure it’s taking a while to really settle in tho. Any thoughts on getting a pet ?

Be kind to yourself

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My brother is coming Wednesday. He’s having a wonderful vacation. Coke museum in Atlanta and the aquarium. Today in Chattanooga and to a giant book store that I so want to go to. I’m 2.5 hours west so not far for a day trip.

I’m so happy for him … he’s taken so few vacations in his adult life. A month or so back He took his 3 grown boys to the Florida Keys for a week of fishing. They all catch fish no matter where they throw a line. Beautiful memories for them.

My psoriasis and PsA is still brutal. Nothing has helped. Second shot of Stelara in a few days then next in 3 months hurry up and wait for who knows how long. I. Just. Need. Relief. Sooner. Rather. Than. Later.

Hope everyone’s week starts out lovely

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I'm sorry that your psoriasis has not eased yet. Are there factors beyond just medication that can help?

Your upcoming visit with your brother sounds fun. Savor that quality time with him. I wish I had more than I did with mine. That's lovely that he fished with his sons in the Florida Keys. So pretty! I was there once several years ago. We drove all the way to Key West from Miami. Hope he ate some Key Lime. I'll miss that. I used to find Key limes at my grocery store in New Jersey, seasonally, but there won't be any in Czech Republic. Only regular ones.

I've been low motivation/spirits and so tired. The latter likely a combo of my mood and med increase. Our house progress is painfully slow.

I'd love a kitty, but will fight with Hubby on that, plus it still doesn't seem the right time. I also wonder who would care for it when we take vacations. My sister-in-law has a great fear of animals and other living things, including butterflies! As a child, they sent her to therapy for it, but it helped little. Our friend living nearby has a dog known for killing other animals. It killed a neighbor's chicken and two of his rabbits just in the last months. I asked him how his dog is around cats. He said she hates them. Perhaps we'll adopt another parrot, but I have reasons why I'd rather get a cat this time.

We'll see.

Right now we're in Prague, again. This time for an eye appointment for Hubby. I wish we were home. On Saturday we were here for a dance/acrobatic performance and dinner. It was okay, but with some stress. Hubby wants me to accompany him in Prague for his friend's mother's funeral. I told him I wish to skip it, despite adoring his friend. It would be too much! I asked that he say that I'm sick. Truth is, I will still be, mood-wise.

Please visit a doctor as soon as possible!

I don't feel well, depression "lite" + feeling indifferent. Took a few Valiums, so may be the indifference can be explained by that (in combination with the heat).

It is almost 6 weeks since I came back from vacation and I haven't been able to make a plan that helps me to come on a course that is pointing forward.

I was depressed when I went on vacation for three weeks and came home tired because of the heat there, but a bit better with regard to my depression.

I think some of the trouble I experience is about my apartment. I want to live in the city and that means a small apartment. Prices are higher in the cities! I am satisfied with that, but not all of my family members. They think I should live in a bigger and more modern aparent. It is as if I have adopted their feelings about this apartment. It is not strange that I get a lot of intrusive thoughts about shifting apartments and use a lot of the time to dream of something else. For whom? For them or for me?

Since nobody else is gong to set their foot down for me, I need to do it myself. No more looking for apartments or other distractions, but concentrate about getting my plan to work one step at the time.

I can set up a reward system for following the path I think is right for me, but I have not been able to set up something.

Gosh, I'm so tired! .... ....

Thank you for caring!

Little on the anxious side. Emotional and just empty at the same time. Waiting for my future to get decided is unbearable, but there is nothing I can do about the outcome. Just learning to count my blessings at this point.

Rosi700, you must be in the place that suits you best. You're an adult, so you have the right and freedom to make those choices.

It gets harder when married. What my husband wants is not necessarily what I want. I chose the relationship, though. If I wasn't married, I'd be elsewhere.

Hello all. I've just been lurking on & off for quite some time, so am aware of the challenges some of you have been having...some for an extended period of time. I've just not had the need or desire to post anymore. Since Maureen retired we do much more around here. I'm trying to stay out of my own head. I've been going to 5-6 AA meetings a week. Once you go to regular meetings at the local Alano Club you develop a posse. Not an exclusive posse, though. I try to be just as inclusive of new members as I am anyone else. It's cool that way. I hear a lot of valuable stuff at meetings.

Anyways, I kind of feel I should address everyone...Nammu, Soupe, Aurelius, mountaindewed and others. I've not always been the easiest guy to get along with, but I continue to work on it. Sunflower, I still feel bad about my horrible reaction to your posts. I really can't think of any reason to have a bone to pick with you. It must have been me. I hope it's water under the bridge.

Leave a light on for me, peeps...

@buddha1too, I'm so happy to see you check in here. You've been missed, but I always understand when people need to step away. It's so nice that you and Maureen are keeping busy with positive activities.