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I was really struggling a lot last night with my stomach pain after eating something I don't normally eat. I went to lay down at 2PM and I was just in so much pain. I sent a couple texts to my mom and one meme, and they weren't really like S texts just more like "whats the reason if this continues." My mom said it sounds like I'm still dealing with post medical procedure depression
Then I fell asleep and I woke up at 8PM with what I thought was a lot of anxiety. I was going to take a valium but I decided on tylenol instead. And thats what I needed. I didn't take my first valium until 9:30 this morning. Today I'm just taking it easy on my stomach and trying not to get it worked up like yesterday. If I eat a few safe foods, I'm fine. Yeah its probably considetred food restriction but its better then being in physical pain and then getting depressed.
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#652
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My husband and I also don't have room for all of our stuff in our new house. Much is in storage. I'd love to get rid of some of it, but it's not so easy in Czech Republic. Garage/yard sales just don't happen here. Last week at the strawberry festival we did see some people with stuff for sale on blankets, but I'm unsure how they found out about that. And it seems more flea market like than typical garage sale. Plus, my husband and I have way way more than would fit on a couple blankets or tables. It's mostly Hubby's stuff, not mine. It's like pulling nails to get him to part with things. The majority of local produce here in CZ comes in paper containers or baskets, or loose at markets. Only imported fruits and veggies (from far) usually come in plastic. Some brush was cleared from our property, recently. Only today I saw that there are three nice blueberry bushes. Question is: How many berries will the birds allow us? We have some blackberry bushes, but they will soon be ripped out. And also four apple trees and a short row of grape vines. Lots of fruit! I remember in Moravia there being plum trees nearly everywhere. Not as many in Bohemia. Here apple trees are more prevalent.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#653
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It has been a hot day. It felt tired making my way to the grocery, bought soup, bread and ice cream. My back is not good. I wasn't able to do much today because of the heat. I try to be optimistic. Plan to get up early tomorrow and try to do work in the house before it becomes to hot.
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#654
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So strange. Last night was my first night without lamictal in16 years as I’ve been slowly tapering off.(with dr advice.)
Strangest thing is I wasn’t anxious but my heart rate was soooo fast all night I couldn’t sleep. I never have issues sleeping but my heart was going nuts all night. My Pdoc said it’s not the lamictal withdrawal. Said to take my klonopin. ????
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#655
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I'm not doing good and I am at a loss right now. I am in so much pain. I had a protein bar a few hours ago and it was the first thing I ate since 3AM and it really really ****ed me over. I called my gastro doctor and the receptionist was just like "I'll put you on a cancellation list and just keep calling." I've been trying every OTC and prescription med I have to ease the pain and no luck. I finally said "maybe I do need to eat?" So I took a couple bites of a granola bar and that didn't help. Idk now. I dry heaved in the toilet a couple times but I didn't throw up besides in my mouth. I'll have to really try to quit soda but thats how I get the calories I haven't been able to eat.
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#656
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Hello all!
I am now engaged, incredible as it seems to me. I thought I would never get married again. My fiancé also has Bipolar I from a brain injury. We have been both concerned about side-effects of anti-psychotics. We are now really worried about this. Still I assured her some of more irritating side effects apart from hand tremor like lip smacking are uncommon. I hope I am right about this. Does anyone know? Anyways, we have known each other for only about four months. Its like a relation that is running at warp speed. We both love each other very much. However, we will not get married for at least another year. We have some problems to work out. I hope all is well with all of you! Please reply. I would like to hear from some of you. |
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#657
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Things are okay I suppose.
My brother is coming next week ! Hope everyone has something positive coming up ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#658
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I hope you feel better soon.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Jun 16, 2023 at 03:39 AM. |
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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#660
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I talked with my boss about the untrue and potentially costly statements our competition is spreading about us and our stuff. Like me, it's not the first time she's heard this. I've heard these exact same lines multiple times from multiple people in multiple locations and from what I understand, so has she.
I'll leave the corporate warfare to the corporate suits, but I hope a resolution comes soon. Things could very well get ugly if we clash on the sales floor and nothing is done. The new Star Trek season looks like it's going to be a lot of fun! Among other things, seeing Spock getting finagled into a drinking contest with some Klingons made me giggle! I don't think I'm going to Wally World anymore for an oil change, especially if I have my own stuff. No difference at all in price to getting full service with them providing everything. Don't get me wrong. They provide good service, but if I want to save money... I'll be visiting the "Mom and Pop Shop" if I can help it. Only real thing to do today, apart from work, is to get a haircut. Like my car, I'm overdue to get something done!
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#661
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I think that nobody here can give you a satisfying answer. You can read about side effects of your medications and discuss your worries with your doctors. Mutual love is a good start, but marriage, the way it usually has been understood, is to stay together in good and bad days. If you are going to marry somebody like yourself (bipolar), it is important that you have decided how to react when the other part is in the process of becoming manic or seem too close to tip into a deep depression. In my opinion you should agree about when the other part shall intervene. May be you can write down where the border goes and sign it? That may perhaps help you if/when a crisis develops. Marriage is a commitment. There will be good days and not so good days. May be it can help you to discuss how to live together in "the not so good days" (I don't mean dealing with MI, but when you disagree about something and one of you have to give up one's wish). Generally I send good wishes for you (both) now and for your future! ![]() ![]() ![]()
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#662
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Not really Feeling amped up but I haven’t slept much the last two days and just last week I was falling asleep At 8pm
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Congratulations @Tucson!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Yay I’m so excited! My ex MIL (first husband’s mother) is taking my son from July 8-11 for a small staycation at her house. She is going to be taking him on a few day trips. But that means that RS and I can also take a child-free vacation! First time since our mini-moon back in Oct 2021. We’re going out to a bed and breakfast in Lancaster PA. I wanted to go to the shore but it was way too expensive. We’ll have fun in Lancaster, there’s lots of flea markets, farms, and pretty trail systems to walk through. I also sprung for the room with the private hot tub
![]() I did forget that ESY would be running so I’ll have to take off those two days. But though I might get reprimanded I’m sure I won’t get fired. It’s just ESY and I’m sure they won’t fire me for the regular school year over missing two days of ESY. They’re too desperate for people and I signed a contract already. My brother finally told me that my nephew’s baptism is TOMORROW. He said he forgot to tell our family but I think he just didn’t want us there. I really don’t care anymore, if he refuses to seek therapy to deal with all his anger and resentment I have no control over that. I know my mom was extremely neglectful and emotionally unstable and she deserves all that anger. Especially considering she also refuses to seek therapy or medication so she’s still emotionally unstable. But I personally didn’t do anything wrong so idk why he doesn’t want to talk to me. But like I said it’s really not in my control so there’s no reason to be upset about it anymore. It is what it is. So I will be attending the baptism tomorrow. I offered to transport my grandma but she’s still a little shaky from the minor stroke, plus she’s now dealing with arthritis in her knees plus the neuropathy in her leg and foot from her back surgery. So I’m not sure she’ll be up for it. She’s gonna let me know later today. Mentally I honestly can’t believe how stable I am. It’s been so long since I’ve felt so…normal. I think the exercise is helping as well as the maintenance ECT. I didn’t get to exercise yesterday, we were running about all evening so I ran out of time. Today I’m going to attempt to go for a walk but there’s storms moving through so I’ll have to wait. I can’t leave CR home alone during a storm (he’s terrified of them) so I can’t go to the gym until RS comes home from work. Only 3 half days left!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#665
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I slept off the pain last night and this morning was ok until 10AM when the pain came back pretty badly. I feel ok now after putting my shorts on, but I haven't eaten in hours and I'm kind of scared to. I've lost 6 pounds in the last couple weeks.
I got my cats an edible wheatgrass plant. Gary likes to chew on things and it can get annoying and I found out these plants can help cats with a lot of issues. He hasn't seen it yet. I need to get motivated to do something. Read or watch TV. Theres so much I can do, I just don't have any motivation right now. At least my room is fixed up.
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#666
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I skipped my afternoon activity to attend an evening one and it was a bust. It was an amateur music event and i found it far too loud. I cancelled my whole afternoon to attend it and then i didn't even stay. I'm so angry!
In good news, it is the second half of June and still no hypomania. It's clear it was the antidepressants that were causing it. Last year at this time i was halfway thru my three-month episode. But i'm not enjoying life. I miss the euphoria and feeling strong and mighty and brave. Now i feel weak and helpless. Life is orderly tho and i'm not shaming myself with outrageous behavior. I know it's for the best. Just was hoping to have some fun tonight and frustrated that it fell thru. |
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@wildflowerchild25, how nice that you and RS will have some quality alone time. I always liked Lancaster, too. As for your stability, please just savor it and nurture it.
@JaneOnceMore, sorry your evening activity didn't fully meet your expectations. I hope future ones do much more. @Mountaindewed, I hope your pain eases soon.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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Tonight Hubby and I join his nephew in the big city for a dance performance. I haven't seen one in a while. More often just musical concerts. I have so few things to wear to such events. With my added Seroquel I have unfortunately gained weight. Everything fits like a sausage casing. It makes me nervous and uncomfortable, which in turn makes me overheat.
My energy and motivation levels have remained too low. My depression has eased in a certain way. It's gone from very sad type to more numb type. Hubby is in a similar situation. As a result, our house remains not quite fully moved into. It lengthens a deprieved feeling. Part of me wants to go to the performance tonight and another really doesn't. I'll be pushing myself to get what must be done to prepare. Pushing to smile and look excited in front of my nephew.
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Dx: Bipolar type 1 Psych Medications: * Tegretol XR (carbamazepine ER) 800 mg * Lamictal (lamotrigine) 150 mg * Seroquel XR (quetiapine ER) 500 mg I also take meds for blood pressure, cholesterol, and tachycardia. |
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Please don't worry about that your house is not fully moved into. I am in some sort of similar situation with my house cleaning. Too little energy makes it hard for me to keep my home the way I want it to look. It became a little better when I decided to do it one step at the time and accept to live in the mess for some time (accepting that I do as best as I can). I have gained weight as well. Found out yesterday when I tried to fit into a top. I hope you find something to wear for the dancing performance. It may do you good to come out of the house. You and your husband has been through so much in the last months, that it is no wonder that you feel numb. I send my best wishes for both of you! ![]()
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I had a lot of intrusive thoughts yesterday. Was not able to go to bed before after 02:00 am. Felt terrible when I woke up this morning, distracted by many thoughts from "here and there". I have been able to instruct myself to use my tools. Am starting to feel a bit more calm now. Hope to be able to continue to use coping mechanisms for the rest of the day ...
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Only a few hours have past since my last post. I want to cry out. I feel depressed and full of anxiety. I need to not give in, to find something other then myself to think about.
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Today I feel decent. I switched back to my OTC pepcid and it works much better then the stuff I was prescribed. My pain is still there but its much more managable today. I'm getting really motivated with my weight loss and I've lost 7 pounds recently. I get that I have an eating disorder so I may not be eating that healthy or all that much, but I'm working on things in therapy. Also my therapist doesn't care what I eat right now as long as I just eat. Having a restricting eating disorder is a lot different then being a binger. You get treated better by everyone for one thing.
Anyways I'm trying to read a book but I get too tired once I start. So I'm watching CNN the way my old man used to do. Its been the same news since Wednesday. Man carafate, bentyl, tylenol, and valium combined.... My mom called me a male chauvinist today because I thought a guy should have gotten a job a woman got. Idk. It was just my opinion I wasn't trying to be a jerk.
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I decided to diet today. I'm very overweight. I ate well and am below my calorie limit, but the first day of a diet is usually easy. I did the elliptical. I don't know if i will be successful after having failed so many times in the past. I'm trying just to think of this one day. One day at a time, as they say. Happily, i weighed-in and i've lost 1.5 pounds without trying since i last checked a few months ago. Well, the only way to be sure to fail is not to try, so try i must!
@Soupe du jour: Hope you enjoyed your dance performance. Do you know the Canadian dance company La La La Human Steps? They're my favorite. Sort of a blend of ballet and modern dance. Last edited by JaneOnceMore; Jun 17, 2023 at 08:29 PM. |
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I'm on a weight loss endeavor as well, and have lost 8 pounds so far (since February so this is slooooww) Let's support each other on this journey. ![]() |
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