Bipolar Check-in #86

@LadyShadow are you ok? I've not seen you post recently.

I got some new painting supplies I ordered which arrive this week! Super excited. I’m doing pretty good. Had a therapy appointment today with the backup therapist. My actual therapist just came back today so she scheduled our appointment with me today for March 13th. I’m glad she’s back.

I didn’t sleep well last night. I got 2 hours total of sleep. Hoping for a better night of sleep tonight.

Between therapy and not sleeping I’m worn out.

I might paint tonight. Idk we’ll see. I’m really tired though so I’ll probably just take my night meds around 9 and go to bed early. Hopefully by 10 or 11pm at the latest. Then let myself sleep in tomorrow.

About to make some fish sticks for dinner.

Surprisingly I didn’t dissociate today even though I had to walk to my appointment, which being out in the afternoons typically overstimulates me.

@Blue_Bird I hope you sleep better tonight We're having fish for dinner tonight too I've got tilapia filets in the oven.

i wish i liked fish. i feel like im missing out. lol but i just cant stand it! im gonna ask my dr if i should be taking fish oil supplements for my liver since iheard it helps

I just did my nails. It feels so good to have tips on again! My natural nails are quite short so it helps. Only problem when I do them myself at home they have a tendency to fall off. I keep emergency glue in my handbag in case I’m out and one falls off lol

This parent thing at school is blowing up into something big. I'm going to have to meet with the parent even though what started this whole thing wasn't even my fault/happened when the student was with other teachers. So is life sometimes-it will be what it will be. I just hope she is willing to see her kid is partly to blame here because he isn't fully telling the truth or completing his responsibilities as a student.

I had another productive day at work-I was able to push through when my brain was telling me to stop. I crashed when I got home, but that's because I have another cold. For the sake of my health, I think I need to leave teaching. Now that I have a chronic illness that gets angry any time I get sick, it's hard to be around so many germs all the time, especially since my roommate is a teacher too. I'd miss working with kids, but I think it is the direction my life will end up going. Working for a nonprofit instead might be nice.

Hey there @BeyondtheRainbow - thanks for checking in on me. I haven't been doing well at all; I am very depressed. I am having trouble getting up in the morning and getting moving. I am a shell of the person I used to be. I am drowning, more and more every day. Now my parents want to move and take me to Florida, and I don't want to go, my life is here. I want to be able to go to Raleigh and see my friends, when I am feeling better.

There is a massive snowstorm here that dumped about 8 inches of snow here. I think this is the most NC has seen in a while. I really wanted to get outside this week because I have been feeling so bad.

Just counting down the days until my life changes for better or worse. Spending the day in bed. Talk to t tomorrow. I have nothing to say.

Did I fo something wrong? I looked after my last posts and nobody responded back.

@iloveanimals There was a bit of drama on the board yesterday; it may have pushed your post back a couple pages and your post may have gotten lost in that? I'll look for it later today though I probably won't be on again until the afternoon. You could also copy it and repost it so it's closer to the current posts.

Thank you! I hope things improve with your son, are there any groups or anything he can go to to help with socializing? I know it’s hard but maybe if he gets into a group of something he’s interested in it might help. My clinic has an art group and I’m into art so I go to that which helps because I struggle to socialize otherwise

Hello all, I slept alright. About 6 hours. Not ideal but a lot better than the 2 I got the previous night. I was gonna try to sleep in today but Mustachio woke me up

Anyway, I feel pretty good. Getting on the treadmill soon. Gonna paint today and practice violin. That’s about it for today, maybe try to read some later too

Tomorrow there’s a nutrition class in my building I plan on going to

Saturday I’m going to the pharmacy to pick up my meds.

This weekend I plan on painting a lot cause the other paint supplies I ordered will be delivered by then.

Currently listening to Tale of the Gaels by Adrian Von Ziegler, it’s a good song

Hope you all have a great day 😃

@iloveanimals Have you decided with your pdoc when you might start tapering clonazepam? It is a difficult not fun process, but once you come out the other side, it's very worth it.

@LadyShadow It's good to hear from you. I'm so sorry things are so tough for you right now. I feel so badly for all that you are going through. Bipolar is such a rotten disease!

I'm having a pretty good day so far. It got cold outside, I feel chilly even inside, can't wait for warmer weather again. I did a pilates video and a couple of 1 minute planks and even a couple of pushups Showered, ate breakfast, read with the SAD lamp and drew 3 pics and the outline of a rose to color tomorrow. I tried my hand at drawing a cabbage! I don't think it turned out too terribly! Pics all in the creative corner.


Chrome is showing me stupid ads at the bottom of the screen blocking screen content, OMG, I can't get it to stop!!! I close one ad, another pops right up.

I fell in the parking lot on my way into the gym, it was icy. I fell on my knee and ended up on my back. I was able to get up on my own and continued on to do my workout.

I did the workout because I had a lot of adrenaline and wanted to work it off. But I was still 'up' 2 hours after I got home.

I'm sore now and it turns out that my knee opened so I'm tending to that.

The good news out of this is that I can fall and it's not a major event, and that I can help myself.

I'm still feeling really low. I thought years ago that I was low, when I couldn't get out of bed for 3 days, but this is way beyond that. I'm hanging on though, no idea how or why but grateful that I am.

My pdoc was going to increase Lamictal to 200 but I guess she forgot to call in the prescription and now she's away for a while. So I'm on hold at 100 until she returns.

its obscenely cold outside and i hate it.

I guess I'm in a depressive episode with some psychosis sprinkled in. I pretty much was silent most of my session.

Getting a drawing prepared to paint. It’s of eevee which is a Pokemon I just added a witch hat to it

Having a good day so far. I got on the treadmill for 30 minutes and took a nice nap

That's a good drawing @Blue_Bird! I can't wait to see it painted!

Are other people experiencing ads today? They are on the top of the screen and one on the bottom.

Yeah! Top middle and bottom on my phone, now that you mention it. I was just like, "not a post!"

Also system seems mych slower.

I had therapy today. I told her I felt really down about yesterday and that all I'm trying to do is seek support. She said my current problems are my GI issues so thats what I would be talking mostly about. She says I'm not seeking attention and that my issues are real. She gets how tough my stomach problems can get and that I eat what I feel like I can handle at the moment . It was a good session.

Yes! Now that you mention it I am

Me too. Dr John says in the community support forum that they are trying something.

I’m glad it’s Friday. I see my gp today for a repeat script of my antidepressant. And I’m going to ask her for a repeat script of a Wegovy even though it costs a fortune I’m seeing results after one week. I.have faith in this medicine that it will get me to my goal weight by December for my wedding dress. It’s a far fetched goal but one can only dream right? It’s 5:30am and I already have a load of washing on. Thought I’d get it on early so I don’t spend the day doing laundry. Go me. 2 cups of coffee later and I’m still feeling tired. Yawn. I need to inject myself with Wegovy today but thought I’d do it after I drop my son at school so he doesn’t have to see me giving myself an injection. Not that I think he would mind too much but still.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Are other people experiencing ads today? They are on the top of the screen and one on the bottom.

Yep. They are annoying me so much and I think slowing down the page loading for me too