Bipolar Check-in #86

@MuddyBoots:

Oh, you are too funny, about the frying pan, and unconsciousness not counting as sleep! I sure appreciate any and all laughs, at this point.

I wonder that myself. The only time I start my period is in the hospital haha (it's okay, I'm 28 and have had like 20 periods in my life).

The late (as opposed to early) mr luna threatened to get himself a motel room for one week every month.

Is that really a threat though?

Eh - i prolly woulda had to pay for it! And who was gonna wash the dishes while he was gone?

It is noon and I have yet to shower. My stupid Non-P PANDAS or OCD or whatever it is (Idk, my CM called it "[my] OCD thing" yesterday) is the thing ruling today. I practically ran out of the building getting my meds this morning. I did do this same ridiculous thing back in high school though and it sucked but I thought the thing meant I was meant to be some big math professor. No. Just someone who had to rotate the space heater so she can sit down at the mental health center without sitting on the midangle bisector of it and therefore thinking she irreparably fkked shyt up.

I feel gross but I don't want to get naked and cold and wet and then cold again. Maybe I'll spend half an hour making a 2 hour playlist for a 7 minute shower.

I'm doing good today. The Philips woke me up around 1 and I made it to the bathroom. I went like 5 times this morning and I feel so much better now.

I had a dentist appointment at 9, and despite my vomiting syndrome and my soda habit my teeth are perfectly fine. So I paid the $141 for xrays and a cleaning and I set up a 6 month cleaning and that was that.

So I feel pretty good right now. I didn't get my blood work done. I'll get that done on Friday maybe. Tommorow I get my eyes examined for contacts and I am excited.

So yeah. Things have gone well today. All I did recently was add in 2 vitamins and contiune with my gastro diet.

Ooo I did get some sleep last night. Took me 12 hrs to get about 5 hours. And you know who of the orange face had to invade my dreams. He had me living at his White House that was suddenly covered in gold everywhere. He was gonna win me over. I had to read books of his choosing and attend these ornate events. He was determined to win me to his side! That devolved to a cousin of mine and me doing a covert thing to remove him to an underground bunker! We were dressed up in wet suits! No idea if we succeed as I woke up. I’m exhausted!

Nevertheless I did get some sleep so maybe I can adjust to just 10 mg of ambien. I’ll need to shorten the time it takes me to fall asleep though! 12 hours!

More snow out there, bah humbug. Muddy I know you love the snow, but yuck. I’m in for the whole week. I’m not going outside for anything.

@Nammu - How awful to dream of the orange one! What a nightmare!! HUGS for sure!!!

MD you inspired me. I just finally scheduled my dental cleaning, it’s on March 7th. I also scheduled my eye exam which is on March 4th since I’m overdue for both of them and I’ll be getting a new pair of glasses. Great job being proactive in your health

I practiced violin today. Glad to be back at it. Have my next lesson on Sunday

Nammu, i usually call those pizza dreams!

I'm having a good today so far today. I feel so much better after a good night's sleep. Good sleep is the best medicine out there for bipolar. When I don't sleep well, I start getting hypomanic and then full-blown manic and then psychotic, just a downward spiral in no time flat for me.

I did a pilates video this morning with a pretty challenging bridge and plank sequence, but I must be improving a bit at beginner level pilates because I made it through without collapsing or stopping the video because it was too hard. Reading with the lamp was so much better today. Either my book has gotten better (and I think the plot may finally be starting to move along), or I just could concentrate better overall. I drew for a good while and am pretty psyched because while my squirrel monkey picture is not that great, it FINALLY looks like a monkey! I tried that thing 4 or 5 times before getting it; it's the head that gave me so many problems. Anyway, all pics in the Creative Corner as always.

After lunch, I paid off the credit card bill, always nice to have that done for the month then I made morning glory muffins which have carrots, apples, raisins, walnuts, and shredded coconut. A bit of work, shredding carrot and chopping apple, and they are not very pretty to look at but taste awesome! I've started to like baking muffins or something like banana bread to have for breakfast in the morning. Since I exercise a lot I do need the calories even though the tiny ED voice claims I don't but I do my best to not listen and lately haven't felt too guilty in that regard.

I might experiment a bit with oil pastels, doing some of the basic processes blending and drawing in a book I got for beginner oil pastel art pictures. We'll see. I need to get more familiar with using them, the blending stumps and see I how like it. I'll probably also read some as my fiction book has seemed to improved greatly overnight.

HUGS to everyone having a hard time right now. I hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Thanks. I haven't gone to the dentist for xrays and a cleaning since summer 2023 so I was overdue too, and I feel like being able to see without squinting will really help with my GI issues.

I’m trying to get myself to go downstairs and socialize a bit. I haven’t even put my hearing aids in yet! I guess 5 hours isn’t enough to restore me. I’m dragging. I did get dressed, put earrings on but the actual getting up and going….nope. At 6 there’s 500 but I’m not sure about that either. Really need to get out and clear my car off of snow. It’s snowed twice now and there’s more coming tomorrow. But brrr. I hate winter. ❄️ guess I’ll have to go out when my prescription is ready. But that will be Friday or whatever. Not looking forward to that. Guess I’m still low. Everything is such a chore. But I’m out of bed and dressed surely that’s a win?

Peek-a-boo!!!

Well howdee there fellow check-in-ologists. Fantastic to read all the updates and shares. Love and hugs to everyone navigating the ongoing challenges our bodies throw at us. Sleep and Stomach health, they are the ones that seem to take me out the most, and it's very interesting to read that so many here seem to have similar issues. 105c here today, so up early for our morning walk, gave Treacle a quick clip and currently warming the 6am cuppa I made. Does anyone else seem to have drinks that last for hours, and get reheated more times than - hmm - what gets reheated a lot? - this side of the earth at the moment -LOL

Stay Awesome!!

I got my PlayStation 5 today and it seems promising. The little character did all these fun dance moves according to which key i pressed on the controller. It was charming. So i feel some hope for a second hobby to enjoy here at home, now that i have concluded it's too dangerous for me in public.

Have a friend in the hospital with lung cancer and COVID. She hopes to be coming home soon, so i'll have meals ready for her, to ease her suffering. I have a rice + bean + veg creation all made up in the freezer ready to go. I bought groceries for a quinoa creation.

Never worked with quinoa before so it'll be an adventure. I'll make a small batch at first to test. I have groceries for a big pot, if it goes well. I have tofu, but i am not a fan as it seems very unnatural, and gave me diarrhea last time.

But i want to have a variety of at least three entrees for my friend. She's doing remarkably well for someone with lung cancer. She's a fighter, like me, so if anyone can lick lung cancer, she can!

Found out benzo deprivation was also a factor in my misbehavior yesterday. I'm on such a small amount, five milligrams of valium, which is like almost a homeopathic amount it's so small, i didn't think it would matter if i went without it for one night, as i had run out.

But i learned my lesson. I turn into a ranting, raving lunatic if i don't have my five milligrams of valium. Who would have thought such a tiny amount of benzos could wreak such havoc in my life, and the lives of those around me?

Tired now. Going to bed.

Hope you enjoy your new PlayStation @JaneOnceMore

I have an Xbox One and a Nintendo Switch. Gaming is so much fun

I took my advice and went down for 500 and had a good time. My partner and I had horrible luck but it was still a good time. Good music and a good time. I bowed out a bit early as my neck was killing me. I really think it’s time for more injections.

I couldn't figure out dinner so I had some rice crackers and chicken in a biskit crackers. My mind seems a bit muddled and I am crazy thirsty. I think I'll get my bloodwork done tommorow

What was that lasrmt mash episode called good night and goodbye or somethinng

I'm proud of how today went. I was able to get some things done despite my mental stamina being low. I scheduled an appointment to take my car in, thought of some ways I can change my lesson plans for the week so the kids will enjoy them more, and got some tidying up done that I was unable to do this weekend since I wasn't feeling well. There is still more tidying up to do, but a little each night will do the trick.

Despite teaching junior high, today's big ah ha moment for the students was learning what a book jacket is. A few kids were impressed with themselves for already knowing what one is. Technology sure has changed things.

Nammu thought you would enjoy this, hope you can see it!

Structuring Sentences for Dummies

@Blue_Bird and @MuddyBoots I'm not sure how you feel about birth control, or if your body would tolerate it, but one of the best things I did for my bipolar management was start taking it. Every month, I would become hypomanic a week or two before my period and then have a bad depressive crash once it started. I'd get 1-2 weeks of stability and then the whole process would start again. Since I started birth control this summer, I've only had one depressive episode (which was actually triggered by the first birth control med I tried) and one mixed episode. I haven't had this kind of stability since before I started having symptoms in 2019.

lol 😂

I was able to see that before fb told me to sign on! Ha!

@Blue_Bird:

Yeah, i sure like the little bit of the PlayStation 5 i've seen so far. My character was such a delightful little dancer! I really only unpacked and set it up. Then it was 11:00pm Quiet Hours, so i couldn't go any further. I don't know how to adjust the volume yet and it's super loud.

Also, it thinks i'm Quebequois, and the language is in French. I have studied French enough to be able to infer-from-context what they are saying, but at some point i'll have to correct the language setting.

Hahaha, the joys of technology!

What are your favorite games? What TYPES of games are they?

My friend plays Diablo, and recommended it, that's why i got the PlayStation 5. Hoping my friend and i can play it online together eventually. Just waiting for the game to arrive from an online shopping service, and they won't deliver until tomorrow, so i'll explore the shareware that comes with the console today once Quiet Hours are up at 7:00am.