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Dec 01, 2015, 10:50 PM
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#627
Dec 02, 2015, 12:43 AM
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I don't feel like going to group tomorrow night. I've beeń sick for a week; all I feel like doing is lying curled up in bed. Now I've developed a cough. Gah!!
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| Anonymous37831, Seraphine
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#628
Dec 03, 2015, 05:57 AM
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I dreamt of her
She hugged me from behind Her face leaning against my back It was a solemn and yet emotional moment No conversations, just stark silence My favourite music began to fade in " No, it is just a dream " *Keeps calm and attempts to wake up" *Goes back to sleep* " I won't abandon you, I will take you under my wings" The hug continues forever, and ever. Our surroundings were brightly white Symbol of purity and virtue My alarm rang me to wake up from this dream Suddenly, my mood collapsed I could not get up for school to face her I wanted to sleep longer and miss school on purpose Then, my mother woke me up Her voice struck a realization in me " My mother paid for my school fees, I still have to go for lecture " My study buddy warned me: She does not "know" me in depth She will not give a damn about me Everyone in college is fake, including her It's not complicated, take things simple Do people really relate to how hard it was for me to get out of my bed this early morning? I don't want people to just say "keep it simple" instead of being able to understand random struggle with emotions everyday.
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| Anonymous37831
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#629
Dec 03, 2015, 07:50 PM
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Blew over $300 in 3 days. I needed new work shoes, did a little Christmas shopping and some charity stuff. But the rest I honestly can't justify.
Despite all this, I still feel empty inside.
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 Be uniquely you, because you are a beautiful person regardless of whatever diagnosis you have. Bipolar Type II with Psychotic Features PTSD with Dissociative Features Borderline Personality Disorder ADD Social Phobia Creative Writer and Artist Genderfluid |
| Anonymous37831, BadWolfC, Seraphine
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#630
Dec 04, 2015, 02:46 PM
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"They say we are what we are, but we don't have to be,
I'm bad behavior but I do it in the best way. I'll be the watcher of the eternal flame, I'll be the guard dog of all your fever dreams. I am the sand in the bottom half of the hour glass, I try to picture me without you but I can't. Cause we could be immortals, Just not for long. And live with me forever now, You pull the blackout curtains down, Just not for long. Sometimes the only pay off for having any faith Is when it's tested again and again every day. I'm still comparing your past to my future, It might be your wound, but they're my sutures." Can't stop thinking about this... |
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#631
Dec 04, 2015, 02:47 PM
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I am feeling pretty ok.
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#632
Dec 05, 2015, 09:45 AM
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Tired, in pain and empty. Everyday is painful for me though.
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Be uniquely you, because you are a beautiful person regardless of whatever diagnosis you have. Bipolar Type II with Psychotic Features PTSD with Dissociative Features Borderline Personality Disorder ADD Social Phobia Creative Writer and Artist Genderfluid |
| avlady, BadWolfC, Seraphine
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#633
Dec 05, 2015, 02:17 PM
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I just cleaned the bathroom sink. It was covered in soap scum, toothpaste and who knows what else. The sink was all I had the energy for but maybe later I will try for the tub.
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| avlady, Seraphine
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#634
Dec 05, 2015, 04:54 PM
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I'm OK, i think. I'm pretty sure my bf is a narcissist. He has dodged all housework, down to even making himself a coffee for weeks. Even with an impending inspection, which i needed to get put off. So he decided to go fishing today. Woke me at 5 expecting me to jump up and make him coffee. Like hell! Though I didn't make a scene because the girls were also, i told him no, and rolled over. So he made his own. Very very loudly. Do you think this makes me manipulative, or him? Because I know he will twist it to me being a typical manipulative borderline.
So... Yeah, OK, but not fantastic either. A little anxious. |
| avlady, BadWolfC, Unrigged64072835
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#635
Dec 07, 2015, 03:35 AM
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Coping. Kind of lol
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| Anonymous37831
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#636
Dec 07, 2015, 10:54 AM
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Letting go.....the hardest thing about BPD for me.
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| Anonymous37831
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#637
Dec 10, 2015, 07:52 PM
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Actually didn't feel like crap today. Got some housework done.
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| Angelique67, marmaduke
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#638
Dec 11, 2015, 08:26 PM
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Was basically told yesterday to not expect to keep my job at the end of the season, so I'm looking for a new one. I was planning on leaving anyway because I dislike my boss so much, and this just proved my point to myself. I hope I can find something better soon.
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| Anonymous37831, avlady
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#639
Dec 13, 2015, 09:51 PM
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Doing pretty well today so far, apart from anxiety over the rental place not calling back regarding an inspection. But almost caught up with housework so not a huge drama. Just want it over and done with!
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| Anonymous37831, avlady
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#640
Dec 14, 2015, 10:39 AM
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Been doing really well
Last night felt pretty anxious and feeling paranoid. I do pediatric home care...some families are a bit OCD I was feeling like everything I did was going to be picked apart last night to the extreme and that anxiety led me to feeling like everyone hates me and that I don't have my proper social guage going. I just felt...well..discombobulated I really think I had too much coffee and it made me nervous. I need to not have anything mood altering I am learning. NOTHING |
| avlady, BadWolfC
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#641
Dec 14, 2015, 11:58 AM
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I seem to have punched the anger button this morning. Everything is annoying me and i feel like just standing in the yard and screaming. I think i need to get out of the house, which i will probably get since i have a new sore on my foot and the podiatrist will want to check it out.
I'm afraid he'll think I'm not taking care of my feet and he'll want to put me in the hospital. There's that all or nothing thing again. I'm going to go hug my cat and listen to him purr for a while. Sent from my SM-G900P using Tapatalk
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| Anonymous37831, BadWolfC
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#642
Dec 14, 2015, 12:07 PM
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I didn't go to work when I was supposed to on Saturday. I was upset all morning at the thought of having to go and deal with more of their crap, so I just... didn't. They called me and left a message but I didn't even listen to it. I talked to my fiance about everything and he says it isn't worth it for me to have tried to keep the job if it upsets me that much. I only made $100 last paycheck anyway. Now that that's over I can look for something better, so at least there's that. I'm just glad I have my fiance, once again, to help me through this crap. I feel like a failure for giving up but I know I couldn't handle anymore. I would have snapped at someone if I'd gone in and probably would have been fired anyway. I hate living here. I hate the people, I hate the environment, I hate everything about this city. I can't wait to move in May. I'm so tired of ending up in jobs that treat me like ****. People are just mean here, I don't know why... I wish I could just not work until I get to move, but I know I need to at least try to help my fiance with money. I've applied to a few other jobs already in the hopes that they won't end like this one, but we'll see...
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| Anonymous37831
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#643
Dec 14, 2015, 01:54 PM
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Stressed and depressed.
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 Just keep swimming I have BPD or Autism or both, we may never know, the focus is always the symptoms, not the diagnosis  |
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#644
Dec 14, 2015, 04:29 PM
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Dealt with childhood abuse in therapy today. I feel lost and sad.
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#645
Dec 15, 2015, 03:23 PM
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The last few days have been good but i feel like i shouldn't be here anymore...Scared
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 Hold it all together Everybody needs you strong But life hits you out of nowhere And barely leaves you holding on And when youre tired of fighting Chained by your control Theres freedom in surrender Lay it down and let it go |
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#646
Dec 15, 2015, 03:56 PM
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I remain jittery but not as anxious today. I wish all my BPD people calmness and the ability to take it one day at a time.
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| Angelique67
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#647
Dec 15, 2015, 04:24 PM
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Talked about my family in therapy today, now I'm pissed and want to yell at someone. My foot is all right but I'm back in my boot and not supposed to walk. Grrr.
Sent from my SM-G900P using Tapatalk
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#648
Dec 15, 2015, 06:20 PM
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Having a rough time with the holidays...
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Mags Depression diagnosed March 1996 PTSD diagnosed January 2000 BPD diagnosed September 2013 |
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#649
Dec 16, 2015, 02:38 PM
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My Check In: Feeling exceptionally well on these meds again, went 2 years without them because I had 2 babies and couldn't take them... Hope this "feeling well" is not a sign of mania setting in, been so long since I felt happy like this though and it's really quite nice...
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Bi Polar... Borderline... PTSD... Pretty stable for the last four years... Completed lots of therapy... Zoloft for last 15 yrs... Olanzepine and Lamictal most recently... "Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And if you gaze long enough into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you"... Friedrich Nietzsche |
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#650
Dec 16, 2015, 08:12 PM
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I hate my life. Can it be over yet?
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Be uniquely you, because you are a beautiful person regardless of whatever diagnosis you have. Bipolar Type II with Psychotic Features PTSD with Dissociative Features Borderline Personality Disorder ADD Social Phobia Creative Writer and Artist Genderfluid |
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