[color14u]

I have been trying so hard to be positive and encouraging. I can't do it anymore. I have no friends, even on this site. I have no more courage and even less hope. Monday I have to tell my GP I need to see a professional for help. I was finally told today they officially couldn't do anything more for me at physical therapy. My only hope of walking again is with further surgeries and even with those there are no guarantees. I must have been a serious SOB in a past life. The karma is not in my favor and hasn't been for years. My best hope is for the next life. Maybe it will be something simpler... a hummingbird would be nice..

[Turtlesoup]

Good day-mood is stable, was able to talk with my T today about some really difficult things which was hard but it made feel stronger being able to get them out in the open. Going to be kind to myself this weekend & do some things for me. Feels good to be in a positive space-take care all.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by color14u

I have been trying so hard to be positive and encouraging. I can't do it anymore. I have no friends, even on this site. I have no more courage and even less hope. Monday I have to tell my GP I need to see a professional for help. I was finally told today they officially couldn't do anything more for me at physical therapy. My only hope of walking again is with further surgeries and even with those there are no guarantees. I must have been a serious SOB in a past life. The karma is not in my favor and hasn't been for years. My best hope is for the next life. Maybe it will be something simpler... a hummingbird would be nice..

I've had a major headache/migraine for the last 3 days... at least my stomach seems to be ok now.

For some reason I don't feel like jogging this morning even though it's on my agenda and I know I will. Never felt like this so much before and wonder why. I know once I get going I'll be glad and feel good. It's just that this has been an endeavor/accomplishment of mine during this depression and I don't want to give up on it.

Spending time with my husband today, so that'll be nice. Spending time with him tomorrow too. Not sure why he's so into spending time with me when normally he busies himself with projects on the weekends.

Anyway, holding my own emotionally. Wish I felt better but could be worse . . .

as soon as my mother saw me today: "you look down."

i don't even feel down today, i feel fine ffs.

[herethennow]

[Smileonmyface]

doing ok. made it to storytime kids ate a lot of junk for Easter spending some time with hubby in a while. thinking lately how long it's been since i thought, wow, that was a great day! everything feels so mediocre could definitely be worse i think it's the medicine but at the same time i'm grateful for the stability.

[aprillynn197]

Feeling depressed from my past

Got up early this morning and went to have my car serviced. It runs better now, but it seemed like it cost me most of my income tax refund that I got. I hope for some more money to come in to cover the service, but I doubt if there's going to be any surprise money coming in.

Feeling depressed and lonely today. I'm feeling like I want to make some changes in my life, but I don't know how to go about it. I only have one friend and it seems like we rarely get together. He can't drive anymore, so I feel like I'm the one who has to tote him around all of the time. I wish I had at least another friend.

[TheOriginalMe]

Got my 6 hours last night, 8 in fact, but it took a G&T before bed to do it. Tonight I'm hoping that sleep will find me naturally.

Today I have been busy but miserable. Every time I took a break from my jobs, depression was waiting for me. I am so tired of being like this, I am so fed up with knowing there is nothing much on offer to lift me out of this. I just have to hope to get better. If I got worse then my pdoc might be a bit more proactive in looking for suitable meds or in offering other treatments. But where I am now, I am stuck, not bad enough or good enough, just horribly depressed.

[hope2010]

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

Got my 6 hours last night, 8 in fact, but it took a G&T before bed to do it. Tonight I'm hoping that sleep will find me naturally.

Today I have been busy but miserable. Every time I took a break from my jobs, depression was waiting for me. I am so tired of being like this, I am so fed up with knowing there is nothing much on offer to lift me out of this. I just have to hope to get better. If I got worse then my pdoc might be a bit more proactive in looking for suitable meds or in offering other treatments. But where I am now, I am stuck, not bad enough or good enough, just horribly depressed.

I feel the same, worse because I don't have a job. I can't work. Hold on, we are stuck now, but as you said, we don't know yet if there is a better treatment for us. Depression hurts

[Nammu]

Other than avoiding all the crap news that blames everything wrong in the world on people with mental illness doing fine. So far I've not given in to the strange cravings for Fritos corn chips. Havnt had them in years, but yesterday started craving them? Odd.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by color14u

I have been trying so hard to be positive and encouraging. I can't do it anymore. I have no friends, even on this site. I have no more courage and even less hope. Monday I have to tell my GP I need to see a professional for help. I was finally told today they officially couldn't do anything more for me at physical therapy. My only hope of walking again is with further surgeries and even with those there are no guarantees. I must have been a serious SOB in a past life. The karma is not in my favor and hasn't been for years. My best hope is for the next life. Maybe it will be something simpler... a hummingbird would be nice..

(((((((Color14u))))))

[eggplantlife]

Prefer to be alone now. Now, need to make the money to live alone.

had a horrible night last night, feeling better today.

Really don't feel like getting out of bed today. Tired of feeling depressed. Just want to be my old self again. Not much to look forward to today, other than breakfast with my husband and step-daughter, and going to a pet expo.

[herethennow]

been a sad week here in my country. blah some people's opinions... but if it's a leader that took the nation to progress in a short while, then we have all the right to grieve and be sad. because he is a man who once cried for his country...

ok im ranting. (i guess i'm just annoyed that some people are judging us )

anyway not too good. sui thoughts are relentless...

[Smileonmyface]

doing okay today again. going to take my older daughter to church in a bit. hoping to just sit in the back with her and not attract attention. had a nice date with hubby yesterday, was anxious about kids being with babysitter but they were fine hope to get the house vacuumed later, bathe the 1 year old, make a nice dinner, do hubby's laundry and take the dog for a walk solo. we'll see how much of it gets done in reality. i always am more ambitious in the morning.

[Symbolic]

Frustrated today. I know when I'm productive and get things done, I feel good. When I avoid things I need to do, I feel miserable. The past few days have been the latter. Now I'm behind on a bunch of things, and that last-minute desperation stress is kicking in.

Deep breath. I did it, it's done, no sense dwelling on it, or beating myself up about it. Just need to get started. Even if I don't get it all done today, anything I accomplish is one less thing to worry about tomorrow. Time to get started.

I'm feeling much better lately than I have been. I think that I feel better because there is more light during the day. I get depressed when the days are shorter. I always feel better in spring and summer.

[Yogurtz]

I wish I had died in the accident in December

[divine1966]

Originally Posted by Yogurtz

I wish I had died in the accident in December

Oh my are you ok? That's sad you wish you died.

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Originally Posted by Yogurtz

I wish I had died in the accident in December

[Rose76]

Feeling kind of dragged down.