My headache has finally lifted! I hope it doesn't come back. Otherwise my mood seems to be okay today. Tomorrow might be eventful for me, whether it's going to turn out positive or not - time will tell.

For anyone having a bad day, wishing you a better day tomorrow.

[tigerlily84]

Yesterday I went to get my hair cut. It's an indulgence, but I had been meaning to do it for a long time now, so I feel that it was money well spent. I just never had the energy to do it. I ended up cutting my hair short. So I feel pretty good about that. Now that I got my hair cut, my next goal for the week is to call my pdoc to schedule an appointment, and also to go to the optometrist to get new glasses.

I slept in very late today.. until 1pm, which I haven't done in a long time. I also woke with a headache and with the now usual back pain. My muscles feel very stiff when waking up these days. Some days are worse than others.

Today is my grandmother's birthday, but I don't feel like going. I always feel judged when going over to see my dad's side of the family. They don't know anything about depression and make me feel like I have to pretend to be happy the entire time I'm there. It's exhausting.

[hope2010]

Feeling a little better, less sad, doing laundry, cleaning, try to see if I can get ready tonight for an appointment I have tomorrow. Implay taking a picture, I am so not ready for that kind of thing, at least my husband will take me there, I should be thinking more about what I have in my life, like few but good friends online and in real life. The love of my husband that turned out still in love with me, always by my side, the love of my sons, a place to call home. Anyway, when I am very depress it is hard to see any good all is sad, most of you know what I mean ... big hugs

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by hope2010

Feeling a little better, less sad, doing laundry, cleaning, try to see if I can get ready tonight for an appointment I have tomorrow. Implay taking a picture, I am so not ready for that kind of thing, at least my husband will take me there, I should be thinking more about what I have in my life, like few but good friends online and in real life. The love of my husband that turned out still in love with me, always by my side, the love of my sons, a place to call home. Anyway, when I am very depress it is hard to see any good all is sad, most of you know what I mean ... big hugs

Best wishes for your appointment

[TheOriginalMe]

I was very busy today, but I found time to bake a cake. I never use recipes, just add things as I find them, this one looks to have turned out well.

I am quite anxious about next week, I should hear something, probably bad news, about my job. I want the waiting over, but I don't want the bad news.

[Turtlesoup]

Today has been very positive-got some things done around the house, cooked breakfast with my husband & played with my grumpy cat Have been wanting to paint for a while & today I just said I'm going to take time for that & it was awesome to be doing that again-worked on some nice watercolors that have some potential. Going to read for a bit then kick back & watch some movies. Big hugs to everyone here-hope you can find something good & positive in your day-take care

Very depressed. The weather's not helping. Around the middle of the day we had some clouds roll in and it rained. It has been chilly and rainy for much of the past couple weeks. I think, isn't it supposed to be spring? It bums me out because I want so badly to go outside and walk around and breathe in the fresh air. I've been pinned inside all winter, more specifically in one room of the house, my bedroom. I have isolated myself inside this room to the point where I have no one left, not even family. I want out. I need to get out. These lavender walls are smothering me. My parents and their fighting are smothering me. This whole environment is smothering me.

Possible trigger:

I think I get why suicides occur more in spring than in winter.

Another day of not wanting to get out of bed in the morning. Just once I would like to wake up and look forward to the day. Today I'll be jogging, doing laundry, probably running some errands, going to the library because I desperately need a book to read, and having my horse riding lesson in the aft. Oh, and of course job hunting online, which I do every day.

Maybe my mood will improve after jogging. It often does. Editing this later to say my jogging definitely improved my mood. I wish I felt like this all the time, but I know it won't last too long.

[herethennow]

Possible trigger:

i dont see a point in trying anymore.
why don't my plans work. why can't i succeed.
i just cannot handle being in this hole anymore...

on another note, pdoc gave up with meds on me.
yay me.

feeling awful

[bubbles00]

I feel like an internal sadness. I thought i threw my feelings away but maybe I didn't. I don't know how to express it. My chest feels like it's tightening up but my mind is blank. There are no thoughts. There really is nothing for me to say. I can't cry. I can't do anything. Maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe it's nothing. When I think I'm done being depressed it still lingers around even if I don't feel it. It's just really hard to describe. Maybe I'm feeling ok today; maybe I'm feeling depressed today. I can't tell. I feel nothing. Probably just numb.

[Rose76]

Feel like doing nothing.

[Smileonmyface]

I feel numb today and unfocused. a little aggravated because i feel like i have tried to be nice to someone and they are just not getting it. i think it is time to give up and move on. took babies out to doctor appointment where my 1 year old got vaccines and cried. they ganged up on her, like one nurse at each arm giving her a shot. my poor baby. and as usual the pediatrician makes me feel like my parenting is crap. oh well. just feel like laying low today and burying my head in the sand. no one calls me, no one gives a s--t. i'm tired of talking to them anyway especially with my mom trying to act like i am normal and happy. what i do is never enough for my parents they always find things that i should be improving i am so sick of it. i am so sick of caring about it. i wish i could get out of this funk.

[Chummy]

This weekend I'm going on a city trip with a friend. This is suppose to be a fun thing for most people, but I'm really dreading it. 3 days with another person. 3 days of pretending to have fun and like everything is kind of alright.
This will cost so much energy for a depressed and non-social person like me. I should do more things with other people and go out of the house more often, that should be good for me. But it really gives me anxiety.

[TheOriginalMe]

Migraine. It is quite a while since I had one and I know it is my job situation that triggered it. I have 2 days off either side of next weekend, I need that rest.

Tired of being lonely. But I don't know how to change it. I'm not social, and when I am I'm awkward. Nobody wants that.

[Turtlesoup]

I'm so sorry so many of us are struggling hope things turn around soon for all who are having a difficult time. My T & I both think all the rigorous hiking & walking I've been doing is helping keep my depression at bay-I'm also getting out more-today I worked in my plants & repotted some things-made a big mess & got really dirty which was fun OMG & I've had 2 showers today (snoopy dance). I was going to paint this afternoon but I'm kinda pooped out so think maybe I'll read or watch some Clone Wars on Netflix. Sending hugs to all & some positives thoughts

Today's been a so-so day for me. Almost feeling happy at one point. Then of course that subsides. At least I had somewhat of a productive day, work wise.

And the sun'll come out tomorrow? I'm hoping!

[JustTvTroping]

I've been thinking: Maybe I should tell someone my story and how I ended up this way. I feel that I'll have the courage one day, but who do I know that can be a true confidant? Hmm...

[Nammu]

A quiet three days. No ups, no downs...just peace.

[TheOriginalMe]

It is 05:50 and I've been awake 2 hours already, it's gonna be a long, long day.

[Rose76]

Getting out and doing laundry yesterday snapped me put of my funk. I've got to make a point of getting out of the house every day.

Yesterday was a great day for me mood-wise, and what set that day apart from many others (aside from jogging early in the day) was that I kept busy and had lots to do out of the house. In other words, I wasn't just sitting at home spending time on the computer.

Today I'm feeling pretty good so far and will be heading out: volunteering at museum, AA meeting, lunch with my husband, and then possibly the library to pick up a book to read. Hopefully keeping busy again will keep my mood good.

[herethennow]

Possible trigger:

is down. triggered. and sui.
best thing of all?
pdoc doesn't understand this.

[Smileonmyface]

today has been ok. feeling kind of lonely and isolated. 3 yo had to bring in eggs filled with candy to preschool and yesterday i got them ready. i just bought the little eggs and filled each with one Hersheys kiss. well when we got home with the eggs she got they were huge and had all this stuff in each one. sometimes i feel like i can't compete with the other parents and don't want to try. all i think is wow, what did they spend on that? when i was in high school people said oh, in college you'll make friends. then when i was in my 20s people said when you have kids, you'll make friends with other moms. i'm still waiting. i don't think it's in the cards for me.