[eskielover]

Originally Posted by CarmenFit

Today I did good... I've eaten when I felt hungry and stopped when I felt full. But yesterday I ate too much and if I had found sweets in my house I would've eaten them all My depression isn't helping my eating disorder

Your depression might be at the root of your eating disorder, not that it's just not helping it. Sometimes resolving the issues that are causing the depression actually help with the eating disorder though disordered eating is still a habit that can hang around & be triggered when something depressing hits.

Your mindfulness about eating when hungry & stopping when full is the KET TO CONTROLLING your eating habits...awesome job....keep up the good work.

[lonesomenobody]

I feel really lonely today. I have no one to talk to at all.
I don't know hoe it comes to this. I crave human conversation.
I seek pleasure from gaming, food, youtubes but none of them really helps.
So I eat and eat.

[Blue_Bird]

2 really good things I did today.

1. When I was grocery shopping, like always I'm tempted to buy pastries and cakes and eat them in one sitting. I resisted the temptation and did not buy any.

2. I wanted to eat because I was just bored and craving food like an hour and a half ago but I stopped myself and made myself wait till dinner time in about an hour from now and am chewing sugar free gum for now.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by lonesomenobody

I feel really lonely today. I have no one to talk to at all.
I don't know hoe it comes to this. I crave human conversation.
I seek pleasure from gaming, food, youtubes but none of them really helps.
So I eat and eat.

Sorry to hear that.
You're not alone. We're here for you.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

2 really good things I did today.

1. When I was grocery shopping, like always I'm tempted to buy pastries and cakes and eat them in one sitting. I resisted the temptation and did not buy any.

2. I wanted to eat because I was just bored and craving food like an hour and a half ago but I stopped myself and made myself wait till dinner time in about an hour from now and am chewing sugar free gum for now.

Yay, that's great to hear.

[Blue_Bird]

And I just ruined it all,.....

[Blue_Bird]

Doing good today

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

I feel for you, Blue Bird. It's a rollercoaster. I'm here to listen anytime.

[ShaggyChic_1201]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

Sorry to hear that, Shaggy.

It's just an illusion. Don't fall for it. You managed an amazing thing, escaping from that prison... don't go back.

It won. Feel like a total failure. 'm in total free-fall. Losing weight and pretending I'm not happy about it. In horrific physical pain from a chronic disorder and just want to stay home and eat bon-bons till I puke. Oh wait, that's nothing new.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

You're not in freefall. It's just a temporary setback.

Remember, Shaggy, you will never be thin enough. It's like trying to find the bottom of a bottomless pit.

At the moment, you still seem to be seeing yourself with non-disordered eyes. But you know that if you stay in this mindset for too long, your vision will become distorted.

Can we tackle it at its heart? Can you say why you want to be thin?

[LucyD]

[lonesomenobody]

Today, I feel like I'm about to binge. I'm not sure how to describe the feeling now. It's a mix of boredom, anxiety and self-hatred. I feel like I'm no good in whatever I do. I fail a lot. I live with my family and I really want some alone time. I'm tired of seeing myself fail.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

I'm really sorry to hear that.

Can you say more about the urge to binge?

[eskielover]

Originally Posted by lonesomenobody

Today, I feel like I'm about to binge. I'm not sure how to describe the feeling now. It's a mix of boredom, anxiety and self-hatred. I feel like I'm no good in whatever I do. I fail a lot. I live with my family and I really want some alone time. I'm tired of seeing myself fail.

do you have a T thatvyou can discuss these FEELINGS with that are causing you to want to binge tp relueve the pain & replace it with a different pain (the pain caused by binging)?

[ShaggyChic_1201]

I left the nutritionist "Sally" office today with something that is unconventional but useful to me. Long story short, I'm dealing with a chronic health issue, lots of outside stress and the death of my father 10 days ago. I'd been restricting for a while but relapsed / reverted to pretty hard-core bulimia.

Sally said that it's the purging that is causing me the self hatred and SI. The purging is causing the weight shifting and mental pain. Would I be able to stop purging if I backed off eating so much ... went back to half of my normal food intake but not full on restriction. In worst case scenario, could I do 2-3 supplemental drinks day?

Today is first day not binging in 2 weeks. Plus I ate a meal & drank one. Wish me luck.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Your father died? I'm so sorry.

[Spaceystacy1]

I take Vyvanse for my binge eating. It really helps.

[Grizabella]

I reached my minimum calories goal today and even went a little over. Reached my protein goal and fiber goal, but was (as usual) low on fats goal.

[LucyD]

Decided to try to take it one day at a time. I fail many many days but I start over again and again. Maybe one day I won't fail.

Originally Posted by LucyD

Decided to try to take it one day at a time. I fail many many days but I start over again and again. Maybe one day I won't fail.

welcome back to the site.

not seen you post in a very long time

[eskielover]

Lucy sometimes that is the best thing we can do....not just with eating issues but with everything in life. That is the best philosophy

making my way through a 2 KG bag of candy

I actually have no excuse, because I've been eating proper meals also- and what with my thread I posted earlier this week about my stomach, I shouldn't be doing it

but.

well.

I am

[LucyD]

Up late, having a glass of wine, I have a mini pizza that I'm gonna have soon. I figure it's better than an extra large pizza...hahaha. Thanks eskielover for your support, you're a dear!

on a massive binge.

candy candy candy candy and more candy!

[Grizabella]

Managed a bit over minimum calorie input, hit protein goal and fiber goal; too low on fats goal and went way over the maximum allowed exercise so overall I suppose it counts as a failed attempt since I ended up with a negative net calories. Maybe tomorrow will be better.