Couch 65...Where all the fun is!

My T did the same thing...so I would just babble about whatever and next thing you know I was spilling my guts. Maybe she is just trying to "open" that door to see if you will just start spilling it all. I found it easier to talk with a pillow in front of me, like a barrier between us and I also loked at the floor and fiddled with something in my hands to keep me away and ditracted from over thinking the talking.

Good morning couch.

(((((granite))) I find writing helps. Also sometimes when I'm done I rip it into small pieces.

Hello everyone.

RTS: good luck tonight and best wishes. You ending with T2 is a self care move. You like YT. So kudos for you for coming to some decisions regarding T

I slept like a rock last nigh. Woke up with a pounder of a headache and starving. Ate, felt better and now I don't go to work until 1.

T is attached. Oh, wait I said that already. Carry on, then.

Isnt etiquette caring about another person's comfort? So do unto others...

Personally, I would never order food before the other person arrives. A drink, yes, food, no.

Hey y'all!
Day 6 - if it wasn't for the back pain, I'd be feeling good. Really not hungry, which is bizarre being on steroids. I lowered my pred dosage Monday, and no bad side effects. I have dropped 11.5lbs too...hasn't even been a week. I am sure most of that weight was poop though! Lol

I don't think I would be bothered if h ordered before I got there, I would just assume he was hungry. I would order right away if I were hungry too.

Waiting for X-rays....

Wiki...great to hear the juicing is working... inspirational

I hope they get the results of the xrays quickly so that they can find a way to ease the back pain.

Someone please motivate me to get things done that I have to get done today. Because right now, the couch is too appealing. Tomorrow isn't an option. My oldest is getting a Student of the Month award in the morning and from there I go to my ED t appt and my dietician appt right after. My mom will be hanging around for the rest of the day afterwards. Yay me.

I'm supposed to be ordering family pictures of a fall photo shoot I did of the kids for our families. I need to pick out the 3 best pics of each runner from the cross country team (I'm the photographer for the team). Another mom is making the slideshow for the banquet-thank goodness. Plus shopping and making food for the weekend trip to my moms house for the hunting trip I don't want to be going on. Except that I can't stay home when my entire family is going.

Now the bed is calling my name instead of the couch. Sorry, I'll quit whining now.

Photostotake.... lists with rewards for small goals... ie... do pictures of 5 kids..time to check out couch... do rest of pictures.... get a snack...etc etc...

Thats the only thing that works for me other than sheer panic from waiting for last minute.

Thanks Ready. You're right, that's the only way I'll get any of it done. I'm crying looking at the list. Setting a timer might be a plan too.

The other problem I have with the computer work is that I dissociate. I've deleted, moved and have started to work on random photos while working on photo assignments. It's why I quit my photo business almost 2 years ago. I'm really anxious about starting it at all. So, your idea about a couple of runners at a time, will be a good one. Or maybe a race at time. Finding the best of the best and and keep going.

Thanks again.

How is it going, photostotake?

Finally home, drinking lunch and snuggling my dogs.
I need a hair trim, I should get my D to do it this week.
I skipped the clinic today, just want to take it easy on my back.

I have a pot of stew started for the fam tonight. H loves my beef stew.

Did you get your results, Wikid? Or is that a separate appointment?

Seeking feedback please.

Filed for divorce in March - he moved out. Went out of country in Sept. and husband took in the 2 dogs since I'd be gone 8 weeks. Divorce finalized while I was away. Only contact from him was an email verifying that he received the settlement money. I'm due to return to US in 5 days.

- Do I contact him to get the dogs back? I do love them very much but the thought of asking him for anything makes me sick.
- Do I leave the dogs with him, since they're such a tie to him/the past? [important note, he has a history of being violent towards the dogs, but hasn't been within the last year that I know of...although he did get one intentionally stoned a few times b/c he thought it was funny]

Bubsmiley...

When you let your H take the dogs, did you discuss what would happen upon your return? Did you ever discuss the pets in your divorce agreement? If so can you have your attorney contact him?

Only you can answer the question about whether they are too much of a tie to the past? Only you know the level of sadness that you would experience?

My advice is to not let having to deal with your exH affect your decision. Make your decision first than decide how to handle it with your ex... perhaps having someone else go retrieve them for you. Make arrangements for boarding and grooming for the day of your return and have him deliver them there and then you pick them up from boarder/groomer the next day after you settle in.. (with him leaving any of their prized possessions with the boarder...)

just some of my thoughts....

Bubs....what was the agreement with the dogs when you left them with him? I would take the dogs back....but that's just me.

I wanted to write a longer reply but have to run to work now.

Bubs, I think the first thing is that you need to look at what the decree says and talk to your attorney. What you need to do is going to depend almost entirely upon what the paperwork says and what agreement you had with your ex when he took possession. If the paperwork gives you possession, the groomer thing is a good idea. Ask the ex to drop them off at a groomer on X date at X time because you have arranged and will pay for them to be groomed. Then YOU pick them up.

Great ideas! Divorce decree doesn't mention dogs at all, and we did agree that they loved me more and thus should stay with me, but I couldn't get over the hurdle of seeing him. Now I have a new way of handling it, so thanks!!

I've taken my shower and gotten ready for the day. Ordered my family photos- may even go out tonight and pick then up if I have time. Started dissociating a bit while at the computer, so I stepped away and took a break. Ate lunch even though I really didn't want to. That in itself is a victory for me today.

Time to start working on the CC pics now. I have 30 minutes before I have to pick up my kids from school, so it'll be a good start. After I get back home, I hope to get more of them done while kids are working on homework. That will be my 'homework'.

Thanks for asking MKAC.

Hey couch. Quiet day off for me today, doing some laundry and just puttering around the house. Found out yesterday at work I'm getting a bonus on my next paycheck. Go me! We find out Friday what our new shifts are going to be. We do a shift bid about every 6 months - complete with changing teams, desks and supervisors. I didn't really care for that at first but that's something I worked on in therapy, being more open to change because it can be good. The one 6 months ago was good, I made some new friends on the team I've been on for 6 months, so expect I'll make some friends on my new team as well. Am sorta even actually looking forward to the change. their thinking behind the change every 6 months is that every single person there has their own strengths and we can learn from each other. I do like that idea, actually. I'm not really all that particular about what shift I get as long as I have weekends off!! Ah I think my drier just shut off so I better go fold me some clothes.... hope everyone is having a good day....

I ran out of the choir rehearsal tonight, I had a panic attack and had to leave the room. I think I'll have to leave the choir altogether. I told H I left the rehearsal early and he told me it was because my voice is scratchy at the moment. I said to him that I might have to take a break from singing and he filled out the blanks and said it was because my voice is acting up. At least I don't have to worry about his reaction.

Apt, I'm sorry that happened. A part of me want to urge you to go back (if you enjoy it), but I know that I would have the same reaction, and I would think that I could not go back.

(((((Mast)))) if you feel as though taking a break from choir is what you need right now, then that's totally acceptable.

Mastodon...

You dont have to quit just because of one panic attack... Just tell everyone you felt a coughing fit coming on and u didnt want to distract everyone...

YT...warned me that avoiding situations now just makes the panic attacks feel like something to fear and the fear of he panic attacks can lead to more.... He says to just accept them... I didnt ask him how