Couch 79: Spend some time on Couch 79 (snap, snap)

stopdog I was thinking about you today and my not being able to talk to my T. do you do all the talking in T.

With the first one - yes mostly - she does sometimes ask questions. I have to keep her from trying to give her opinion or interpretation or insight or intervention or whatever those people call it when they talk.

With the second one - she does talk a bit more or ask more questions.

So angry, irritable and depressed at the same time. Really tired and wiped out. Cannot seem to shake this mood.

I am thinking about showing a picture of something to the therapist and asking if she can explain what it is that is upsetting about it. I am serious but she will probably think I am not.

You could send it to someone on the couch in PM or does it need to be a professional opinion?

Worth a crack.

It is not so much that it needs to be the opinion of a therapist. They are just the ones who should not be personally bothered by it. I am afraid it would be upsetting to others here (I know it does seem to upset people, I am just trying to figure out which part - to me it is normal)

Unless she mocked me. That is what I am weighing - the likelihood of mockery versus the potential for useful information.

On a different note, I just watched a fascinating pbs thing on chariots.

Trigger............



You wanna try me? I acknowledge i am relatively cold-hearted. But i dont usually mock people. Unless they work at that dallas ebola hospital and DONT COMMUNICATE. Plus with catholic grade school we sat thru a lot of torture descriptions and pictures and i think it twisted us. Same old story - violence was okay, sex was not.

Ha. Thanks. We must have had the same order of nuns running our schools. They were into some creepy gory stuff.

What is "Its a wonderful life...of brian"?

Was the question to a jeopardy movie before and after answer tonight

And i thought of you guys.

Also DeeeeeeTroit was the final question - they actually said something nice about detroit, and it totally confused the incoming champion!! boy those guys are tricky!

I have been to detroit. I even went to a baseball game.

Tiger stadium (old) or Comerica Park (New)?

It was around 2005 or 2006. I don't remember the name of it.

That would have been new.

I just came to the realization that I am a very well-trained therapy client. I last talked to t 2 weeks ago, and purposely scheduled my next appointment for next week instead of THIS week to give myself a little break. So what did I do today? Gave myself homework and have started working on it already.

I think I have a problem. Ha!

Is she a mocker?

I think she would be so amazed that you actually want her opinion that she would fall off her chair.

Yes. She has mocked before.

I doubt she would be able to contain her opinion to this one narrow question. She would want to spout off her opinion on a wider area.

Ta ra ra bumdiay
My knickers flew away
They went on holiday
They came back yesterday.

Just cheering myself up after stressful session... Sorry....

just found out I have been restructured out of a scrapbooking group that I use to hang out with and scrapbook with atleast once a month because the woman who organizes the monthly events for some reason does not like me . I have never done anything to this woman except exist. and then people wonder why I just don't want to exist any more. I really don't.i cant stop crying and I just hate me again. I hate this fing world so so much. everything is a mess

Granite, I am so sorry! One person is not the whole world hating you, though. Big hugs, Chickie Baby.

Sorry to hear about the group Granite.

i really do wish i didn't exist at all .i know i am way to intence here for people but so much is going on here . so much i don't even say here because i don't want people here to hate me also .but it feels like i just have nothing good left . at least it took a year for this person to realize how expendable i am. i went to a concert with my BFF and the new friend she is trying to impress. and she treated me like i was vermin all night so screw her also . my son seems to be messed up. failed at that ,go figure. and i hate my husband because i cant off myself as long as he is in my life and that makes me so bitter .

Granite, sweetie, you know I love you, right? I say this with great love -- your thinking right now is really ****ed up from spending time with your mother. You need to give yourself some time and space to decompress, and maybe get some extra help right now. Can you call your T? Email her what you wrote just now? I know she doesn't like emails, but you seem to be in serious pain and in need of help quickly.