Home Menu

Menu


Closed Thread
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #301  
Old May 17, 2016, 04:01 PM
LonesomeTonight's Avatar
LonesomeTonight LonesomeTonight is online now
Always in This Twilight
 
Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 22,043
Dear T,
Good session today. It was all kind of related, but I feel like we covered a lot of ground, like past and present. Wish we could have talked for longer because I think we were coming to some good realizations about the stuff with MC and how it's connected to stuff in my past. Sorry for already sending you a novel of an e-mail, but wanted to share those thoughts. (Hope you won't "accidentally" delete this one! )

And I'm glad you started touching me on the arm again when I'm leaving. It's nice. I've wanted to ask for a hug the past few times, but didn't. Maybe next week?
Hugs from:
Chummy2, Out There, precaryous

advertisement
  #302  
Old May 17, 2016, 06:32 PM
Waterbear Waterbear is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Feb 2016
Location: England
Posts: 2,431
I don't want to go to sleep because that will bring tomorrow closer even quicker. I really appreciate you saying not to think about it as the end and that I can touch base if I want to in the future but there is no denying that, in reality, this is the end of something that has meant so much to me and that has truly helped. For the first time in my entire life I felt understood. I had all but given up hope of that ever happening and, right now, I don't have any hope that it will ever happen again but I can now trust that you will hold that hope for me, and that means the world to me. I will miss you so much.
Hugs from:
Anonymous37827, Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, Out There
  #303  
Old May 17, 2016, 06:55 PM
velcro003's Avatar
velcro003 velcro003 is offline
Elder
 
Member Since: Oct 2008
Posts: 7,383
Uhh, T...I know you said if I hang in there, this talking about sex stuff will get less weird...but....i don't know. I guess i have to trust you?
Hugs from:
LonesomeTonight, Out There
  #304  
Old May 17, 2016, 08:15 PM
Ellahmae's Avatar
Ellahmae Ellahmae is offline
Aranel
 
Member Since: Dec 2014
Location: my dark reality
Posts: 4,148
You said you were my mom today.
I wish I knew you weren't that way with other clients.
I want to be special.
This sucks.
I hate all of these feelings right now and don't know what to do about it.
You're leaving me.

Sent from my SM-N920T using Tapatalk
__________________
**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**

Hugs from:
atisketatasket, Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, ilikecats, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, Waterbear
  #305  
Old May 17, 2016, 08:28 PM
ilikecats's Avatar
ilikecats ilikecats is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: United States
Posts: 669
Dear T,
I just want to hug you so badly! Please hug me. I still don't understand why you won't. But I also wouldn't want you to hug me just to please me. I want you to want to hug me. And then actually do it too. Gah! Some boundaries are stupid.
__________________
"The illusion of effortlessness requires a great effort indeed."
Hugs from:
captgut, Chummy2, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, Waterbear
  #306  
Old May 17, 2016, 09:39 PM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
Weird session huh?

Me

Sent from my SM-G900V using Tapatalk
__________________
Hugs from:
LonesomeTonight, Out There
  #307  
Old May 17, 2016, 10:03 PM
Anonymous43207
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
It feels good to let myself love you.

Sent from my LG-H345 using Tapatalk
Hugs from:
Out There, precaryous
Thanks for this!
precaryous, ruiner
  #308  
Old May 17, 2016, 10:43 PM
Anonymous37844
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Thank you so very much.
Hugs from:
Out There, precaryous
  #309  
Old May 17, 2016, 10:53 PM
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA junkDNA is offline
Comfy Sedation
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,305
t,

today you said my brain is fried from all the drugs, starving myself, and trauma..

umm yep. yep it is.

DO YOU GET ME NOW???????????????

me

PS......... nevermind
__________________
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, Coco3, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
  #310  
Old May 17, 2016, 11:41 PM
Anonymous45127
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
T,

I know therapy has an eventual end. I'll miss you, but you won't miss me...you'll have other patients.

You have love for friends and they love you too...
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, brillskep, Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, LonesomeTonight, Out There, ruiner
  #311  
Old May 18, 2016, 01:39 AM
Anonymous37827
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Urgh.

I got the feels

It's been weeks since I felt emotion about anything, but now out the blue it feels like the end of the world. I am a failure. And now I've failed you, failed at therapy, and continued my long established pattern of failing at life. I just want to give up on everything.

Last edited by Anonymous37827; May 18, 2016 at 04:43 AM.
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, brillskep, Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
  #312  
Old May 18, 2016, 02:33 AM
Anonymous37925
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
I'm nervous.
Hugs from:
Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, junkDNA, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
  #313  
Old May 18, 2016, 05:25 AM
Waterbear Waterbear is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Feb 2016
Location: England
Posts: 2,431
A part of me just wants to cry and beg you not to leave me. I know you wouldn't if you had a choice but that makes it hard for different reasons. The rules in place to protect are hurting me and that is just illogical. This is ending and I don't think we have fought for it not to. I am not good at giving up without a fight. I am not good at not having a choice. I am not good with ending things that I don't want to. Sad.
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, junkDNA, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
  #314  
Old May 18, 2016, 06:23 AM
brillskep brillskep is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Dec 2013
Location: Europe
Posts: 1,256
My friend told me about what happened last year. I looked it up online after, out of concern for you, and it turns out it was probably even more of a trauma for you. Right before I got really upset with you over a session when you didn't work with me on what I needed and I reacted badly. I'm sorry, I had no idea what was going on in your life. I feel so much compassion for you now but since it's been a while and you weren't the one to tell me, I won't bring it up because I don't want to interfere in your grieving process that I know nothing about. But I'm with you and I care about you and I really hope you're feeling alright now.
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, junkDNA, LonesomeTonight, nth humanbeing, Out There, precaryous
  #315  
Old May 18, 2016, 06:38 AM
Coco3's Avatar
Coco3 Coco3 is offline
Veteran Member
 
Member Since: Mar 2015
Location: Somewhere
Posts: 508
You're email was a short one but with huge impact. It got me really thinking and made me feel better. Thank you!
Thanks for this!
junkDNA, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
  #316  
Old May 18, 2016, 07:17 AM
Anonymous37925
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
You offered me touch if I need it. I can't even begin to explain how that makes me feel. Even if I decide I don't need it, the fact you are willing to make yourself available to me like that is profound and it really has blown me away.
Hugs from:
brillskep, Cinnamon_Stick, Coco3, Ellahmae, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, Waterbear
Thanks for this!
brillskep, Cinnamon_Stick, junkDNA, LonesomeTonight, precaryous
  #317  
Old May 18, 2016, 09:24 AM
Anonymous58205
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
Dear t what planet are you from? Whilst your planet may be far superior, it would be nice if you would visit mine every now and again!

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
Hugs from:
brillskep, Chummy2, junkDNA, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, unaluna, Waterbear
Thanks for this!
brillskep, captgut
  #318  
Old May 18, 2016, 10:14 AM
Waterbear Waterbear is offline
Magnate
 
Member Since: Feb 2016
Location: England
Posts: 2,431
Thank you for everything. I will call you, I just don't know when. I think I need some time without you to help me try and get on with this new T but just knowing you are still there means the world and is hugely helpful. It means I don't need to concentrate on losing you as much and can focus on building a relationship with new T. That doesn't mean I will ever wish it couldn't have been you. Until next time x
Hugs from:
Chummy2, Cinnamon_Stick, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous
Thanks for this!
Cinnamon_Stick
  #319  
Old May 18, 2016, 10:16 AM
Ellahmae's Avatar
Ellahmae Ellahmae is offline
Aranel
 
Member Since: Dec 2014
Location: my dark reality
Posts: 4,148
Can I come to your home and just be with you while you're away?
I'll be quiet.
What if I just went and sat in your office for my appt times just to be there?
I'm going to miss you.
Will you miss me?
__________________
**the curiosity can kill the soul but leave the pain and every ounce of innocence is left inside her brain**

Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, brillskep, Cinnamon_Stick, LonesomeTonight, Out There, precaryous, Waterbear
Thanks for this!
Cinnamon_Stick, precaryous
  #320  
Old May 18, 2016, 10:48 AM
WrkNPrgress WrkNPrgress is offline
Poohbah
 
Member Since: Dec 2014
Location: Here and Now
Posts: 1,158
Dear T,

In context of my own situation you shared something personal from your past. I got quiet and didn't look up but I want you to know that I was listening and I get it and I appreciate the vulnerability and trust in that moment. Thank you.
Hugs from:
brillskep, LonesomeTonight, Out There, SoConfused623
Thanks for this!
brillskep, SoConfused623
  #321  
Old May 18, 2016, 12:30 PM
LonesomeTonight's Avatar
LonesomeTonight LonesomeTonight is online now
Always in This Twilight
 
Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 22,043
Dear MC,
I miss you. Well, really, I miss the connection, since I didn't feel it this week. I felt it a bit on the phone Friday, but it's not the same as in person. I hope you were just having an off day Monday (and not being more reserved due to to what I told you last week) and the connection will be back next Monday... And of course I want you to write back, but I'm also nervous about what you'll say. If you even got the e-mail...
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, Out There, SoConfused623, Waterbear
  #322  
Old May 18, 2016, 12:33 PM
precaryous's Avatar
precaryous precaryous is offline
Inner Space Traveler
 
Member Since: May 2014
Location: on the wing of an eagle
Posts: 3,901
Quote:
Originally Posted by artemis-within View Post
It feels good to let myself love you.

Sent from my LG-H345 using Tapatalk
It does! Isn't that weird? It almost makes me feel selfish.
  #323  
Old May 18, 2016, 03:23 PM
Cinnamon_Stick's Avatar
Cinnamon_Stick Cinnamon_Stick is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 1,677
Thank you so much for keeping in touch even though we ended. I appreciate you keeping your promise. Your email last night made me feel so good and reminded me of how lucky I am to have you in my life. Even though you are in a different role now you still care and the love is still there. I am glad we didn't loose the relationship, just the therapy part. I would still give almost anything to have you as a T again. I hope this longing I feel for you goes away a bit. I miss our space and our sessions. It touched my heart that you said you miss them also.
Hugs from:
brillskep, Chummy2, Out There, ruiner, SoConfused623
Thanks for this!
brillskep, ruiner
  #324  
Old May 18, 2016, 05:08 PM
LonesomeTonight's Avatar
LonesomeTonight LonesomeTonight is online now
Always in This Twilight
 
Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: US
Posts: 22,043
Dear MC,
Thanks for responding today, just when I was starting to get kind of worried. I appreciate what you said and that you wrote more than just a sentence or two. I mean, it was even multiple paragraphs! It sounded like you responding to *me*, and not just generic T responding to generic client, which is how last week's e-mail had sounded. This one made me cry a little, but in a good way (unlike the other one). And you even got my joke and said you were slipping because you wouldn't have thought of that, which, again, is like you and not something from a therapy textbook on dealing with attached clients. So, thanks...I feel much better about the connection now.

Love (I did notice you completely avoided that word, but that's OK!),
LT
Hugs from:
Anonymous37925, Out There, SoConfused623
  #325  
Old May 18, 2016, 05:32 PM
Chummy2 Chummy2 is offline
Member
 
Member Since: May 2016
Location: Europe
Posts: 341
Dear T and also T-on-leave,

Would you want to stay my T if I would chose to not go back to T-on-leave? I can be a bit of a pain in the ***. I'm slow and stuborn and difficult. I don't know what I want. I feel so much anger for T-on-leave. I don't know what would happen if I see her again, what I would feel. I'm angy for leaving me during a difficult time and she knew for over a year that this would happen. She should have given me a choice when she changed work places. Maybe starting with a new T then would have been better for me, instead of now. I feel so lonely. And depressed. Everything is getting worse. Since your news and then your leaving, I'm feeling nothing and everything. I don't see the point in anything. I'm not even really overthinking, it's just a feeling. The whole weekend I stayed in bed. I couldn't get myself to do anything. Everytime I started crying.
I don't know if you still want to see me. I've send you an angry email. It was after midnight, I couldn't sleep. I felt bad. All kind of thought about you in my head. You won't read it until you're back at work.

I just want to be done with therapy, but I can't do it alone.
Hugs from:
Cinnamon_Stick, kecanoe, LonesomeTonight, musial, Out There, Waterbear
Closed Thread
Views: 68886

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 12:58 PM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.