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#551
May 01, 2018, 07:58 AM
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Free hotel breakfast is worth what you pay for it. Ultra processed goop but the coffee is good.
Working with new client so utterly fascinating, stretching my understanding of what things mean and how to picture-puzzle put them together. Slept long and peacefully last night. You know I love what I do, and that continues. I am very lucky to be able to make a living doing this and not having to deal with any rotten or rotting institution pretending to be in the public interest. In this work I have made a good choice, it is right for me and I am right for it. I might even be what I wanted to be when I grew up. Outside work, I'm full of doubt about the choices that may or may not be right for me. Some are without question, the good and deep friendships. Others I may be using in ways that tie me down rather than encourage me to fly. Burning out on some kinds of social connections but that makes me think that I'm just wrong in some fundamental way. That's ouchy. |
 Elio, unaluna
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#552
May 01, 2018, 08:34 AM
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Hi t. I have to say it again. You really stepped up last week, and I appreciate that so much. I feel another one of those shifts happening inside me again, and I marvel at how this therapy stuff WORKS - even when you do something that pisses me off and we have a rupture like when I tried to reschedule the last 2 sessions. I'm thankful and grateful now that it all happened like it did because if I had handled it any other way I wouldn't have learned what I learned. How it continues to work through a rupture is the amazing thing to me.
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| Elio, LabRat27, lucozader, unaluna
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#553
May 01, 2018, 10:22 AM
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I need you T. I wish you could give me advice. I'm not entirely sure about my supervisor' s advice.
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| Elio, LabRat27, LonesomeTonight, lucozader
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#554
May 01, 2018, 10:39 AM
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Now I'm questioning whether I was clear as mud in the message I initially sent. I don't want to talk about the issue in session, but would like to know that you are aware...I'm floundering.
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
| Elio, LonesomeTonight, lucozader
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#558
May 01, 2018, 01:30 PM
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I hate when you're away. I feel guilty for being frustrated and sad when you went to the trouble to write me little notes to read every day. I know things won't be the same between us for weeks after you get back, and I hate that too. I wish I could just be happy for you that you're on vacation, like I used to be. I know being in touch with my feelings and generally leaning into our connection is better than how I used to be, but now I really, really hate when you're not there.
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| atisketatasket, chihirochild, Elio, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, WarmFuzzySocks
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#559
May 01, 2018, 02:28 PM
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trigger for mean/inaccurate description of a diagnosis
Possible trigger:
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| ElectricManatee, Elio, WarmFuzzySocks
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#561
May 01, 2018, 03:48 PM
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I miss you in the morning
I miss you in the night Please just be here every day And make me feel alright. I miss you at the weekend And on the weekdays too I miss you because all my pain Just makes me long for you. I miss you in the city I miss you by the sea I even f***ing miss you when You're sat across from me. I know that when I miss you That feeling can't subside Because the longing really is An emptiness inside. |
| Anonymous43207, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, precaryous
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| lucozader, Oliviab
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#562
May 01, 2018, 05:20 PM
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I feel so damn needy all of a sudden, but it would really help me to know that you have seen the email I sent. No sense in spending a session on something that isn't directly related to the problem we are working through. And this isn't even my problem...but I am a ******* sponge, and being told not to freak out about it...before I knew what 'it' was.
Please, put my mind at 'rest'?
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
| AllHeart, atisketatasket, Elio, LonesomeTonight, lucozader
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#563
May 01, 2018, 05:35 PM
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Dear T,
I'm trying really hard not to think about the fact that the faculty will be meeting tomorrow and will presumably make a decision about whether to accept me. I wish I knew what time they were meeting. I feel like I'm going to be obsessively checking my e-mail all day...and then all day Thursday if I haven't heard anything. I'm trying to just assume I'll get rejected because I don't want to get my hopes up. But I just want to know...So then I can start figuring out what's next. And I miss you, even though I just saw you yesterday. Sigh. Though I do see you Thursday. I think it's kinda bothering me a bit to know you'll be out Friday--I suspect maybe you're going out of town? But you couldn't be going too far, since you scheduled me for Monday...And I've managed not to look to see if one of those events is going on! I almost want to tell you that, but I feel like saying, "Hey, guess what, I didn't snoop!" seems like a weird thing to say. Because...obviously, that would mean I'd thought about it. But still, I guess it's progress if I thought about it but didn't do it. I'll have to see if it feels different this time having a transitional object... Love, LT |
| AllHeart, Anonymous43207, Anonymous55499, atisketatasket, awkwardlyyours, chihirochild, ElectricManatee, Elio, Lemoncake, lucozader
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#564
May 01, 2018, 07:23 PM
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Another night where I desperately wanted to call you and I didn't. I wonder what you'll think of that.
Also I told H that I wouldn't give up therapy. That I needed to take care of myself. He said I was right to feel that way and that he agreed. Dunno why I want you to know that. Just wanted to share. |
| Anonymous43207, atisketatasket, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, WarmFuzzySocks
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#565
May 01, 2018, 07:39 PM
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I know I just saw you yesterday, but next Monday is a really long time away. I didn't feel like we got to talk about how I'm feeling now.
I want to text and ask for another appointment this week. Except... I can't take time off work to see you, and even if you for some reason had an appointment not during my work day... I don't really know what I want from you. I'm sad, hurting, depressed... but it's not new. I visualize myself going into your office for an extra appointment: you start the session with "so what would be helpful today?" and I would just... throw up my hands, feel guilty for wasting your time, and really strongly consider leaving (but still paying). |
| AllHeart, atisketatasket, awkwardlyyours, Elio, LonesomeTonight, WarmFuzzySocks
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#567
May 01, 2018, 08:40 PM
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Okay T, I was just thinking MAYBE i'd e-mail you to tell you i can't get the thought that maybe you just migghhhttt hate me a little? Even though I know it is irrational, and I know you would never respond "Why yes, Velcro, I do!" (whether it was the truth or not)...and to see that you wrote me a few minutes prior letting me know that in fact, i am not an annoying pest.
I am going to try and hold onto that, and hope the week gets better from here. I'm not sure why you are still so nice? I get it, it is your job...but unless you are a sociopath and can act the part that fools everyone, I feel your authenticity. |
| AllHeart, ElectricManatee, Elio, LonesomeTonight, WarmFuzzySocks
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#568
May 01, 2018, 09:00 PM
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Dr C,
I just feel you're sick of me. |
| atisketatasket, Elio, LonesomeTonight, unaluna, WarmFuzzySocks
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#570
May 01, 2018, 11:15 PM
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Dear Info,
I used you today to talk about one of the things that’s bothered me the past couple weeks. I wish I’d used you to discuss the thing I’ve got scheduled for next week. It’s starting to worry me a bit. (Okay, a lot, as in having nightmares.) Well, spilt milk and all that. ATAT (No responses please.) |
| Argonautomobile, ElectricManatee, Elio, LonesomeTonight, unaluna, WarmFuzzySocks
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#571
May 02, 2018, 02:38 AM
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Please tell me nothing catastrophic has happened for you, and that we will meet tomorrow as planned. This experience is ugly and multifaceted, and not mine to talk about, and yet...
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'Somewhere up above the great divide Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few A man can see his way clear to the light 'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin |
| atisketatasket, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, WarmFuzzySocks
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#572
May 02, 2018, 05:01 AM
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You changed. You said you wouldn't, you said you would be the same, but that was a lie. I am so uneasy right now and spent most of my night crying. I can't do this. I need you to be my therapist, not just another clinical, distant figure in my life. I need the real you to come back. Please?
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| atisketatasket, Elio, Lemoncake, LonesomeTonight, lucozader, SalingerEsme
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#575
May 02, 2018, 08:18 AM
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I dreamed about you again last night.
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| Elio
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