Roll Call 24

Oh sorry was on the bus home...I think that you kind of have some anger toward her right now so essentially forcing you to interact with her is a bad idea...I know I would have a hard time not yelling at her and you know she would see that as a threat again...

Your best bet would be to call and cancel..I really don't think it's a good idea to see her ever again...I would just call tonight and leave a message that you're feeling sick and won't be able to make it tomorrow...but yeah just call after hours and leave a message canceling...at that point they need to get in touch with you and you don't need to answer the phone...

Im done with this place I am done with all of this! I can't do this anymore
I miss my freedom I miss my room I miss my cats and my own computer I miss my guitar I miss my bed and I really miss Seeing and being with my Fiance' It's not even been that long And It seems like I have been in here forever because it's moving by so painfully slowly. This is cruel I wish I could change the world so that people actually helped others instead of containing them in buildings where they learn nothing and make their problems worse. Maybe this is my purpose maybe this happened to me so I can make these changes and stop this kind of ill treatment of people who really need help.

Yeah you know I really didn't talk mental health with people after the first day we just did stuff like play games and eat together etc. I kept asking people what they were in for on day 1 then I realized that made it sound like jail. But I will say the place I went they used drugs over restraints and so most people couldn't string more than a few words together so I didn't have to worry about anyone ratting me out...

It is like jail Alot like it in a sense...They do shoot people up in here when they keep acting out but It seems they favor restraining people first to calm them down then if they keep it up they shoot them up. I got shot up on the first time when I was acting out I was so upset screaming that I didn't want to be here and freaking out they shot me up then I was under the suicide watch for a 24 hour period. It sucked so much..And they were not kind with the needle they forcefully Jabbed it in my skin so hard it hurt so much. I still have a bruise from it.

i guess i will not see her. i wont cancel either. im too scared too

now everyone knows what im talking about when i talk about hospitals...

My sister was in jail and that was like the first thing she said...I know exactly how it is...so here I always try to discourage people unless they are actively trying to kill themselves or others....it is not a healing place at all...

ive been restrained a lot of times and given the booty juice. one time they held me down and gave me a shot of haldol thru my pants. they just rammed it into my buttcheek and i was out in 5 minutes and i slept for 2 days. this was when i was a teenager. that happened because i was kicking the wall in the padded room and the nurse told me to stop so i kicked it one more time and then she called in security to hold me down. i spetn so much time in that padded room. one day i began to rip all the padding off the wall. my mom had to pay for the damage. then she sent me to this residential treatment program in backwoods TN. it was severely physically and psychologically abusive. they would walk u around in a straight jacket for days. they restrained me for standing up without permission. everything u did u had to ask for permission, even talk. if u did something without permission u were sure to get ur face rubbed int he carpet with 5 staff sitting on ur back. then they put u in a 5 point restraint bed in the middle of the unit. so everyone could see u. omg it was horrible i have flashbacks from it. i was there for 8 months. i couldnt write my mom about it because they read ur letters and would rip them up if u tlaked about the program. idk. sometimes mental health treatment can really mess u up. it can be traumatic. but just know there are healing places out there that are really good and can treat u like a human. i found one. they are out there. dont give up hope

Wow I am So sorry To hear about that terrible stay I have to deal with a bossy nurse who you can't dare challenge her authority or she gets you forced back into your room But what you had to deal with sounds sooo horrible I couldn't imagine going through all of that! I am So sorry you had to go through it! Don't worry I won't give up hope I just hate this place its soul/heart breaking just about and makes you wanna give up hope though its such a depressing atmosphere..It sucks the happiness right out of you..But I am just going to stay quiet and say hardly a word until this stay is up. That way I won't be in trouble. I have to go again now they only allow me on here a little bit at a time,I guess they set time limits so other people have a chance to get on and so there is less chance of eyestrain and people taking advantage of staying online the entire time? Not sure... But the time limits are another thing that is very annoying. I will be back tomorrow on here possibly Let's hope I make it through the night! lol
Bye for now

ive been restrained many times and strapped to a bed. one time i ran through the security doors almost to the front door of the buildigg and two football sized men tackled me to the ground almost knocking my front teeth out and dragged me to a concrete quiet room. as a teen i would throw chairs and they restrained me.

Wow I think that is the worst I've heard....

Hugs to you Junk. Sorry you had such a rough time there!
and sorry about what happened to you newtus I wish more hospitals
treated patients kinder. I will try to be back on again tomorrow! Probably before
Lunch time or in the evening If they allow me on at that time...Let's hope I don't
get restrained,dragged to my room or stuck under another 24 hour watch in the meantime! I just want some peace and quiet and some privacy but not gonna get any of that here. Have a good night everyone! Talk to you all later!

I never been restrained at the hospital but there's been a few times my mom has while in a fit of rage when I was younger. Not fun at all. I don't remember what I was angry about. I remember one of it was durning my birthday and in front of my friends.

Yes it's awful. I know all about it. I'm actually active in exposing it. I'm so so sorry.

It's an epidemic. Just look up heal online or troubled teen industry. It's HORRIFIC what is being done to teenagers in this country. It's TORTURE is what it is!!!

i am a member of those groups too.

google Peninsula Village. thats where i was at. just google it. youll see all the stuff people went thru

during group therapy which we had 3 times a day they would force u to talk about why u were there. one girl said she was raped and they insinuated that she deserved it because of how she was dressing. i had my first psychotic break there. thats when the voices started. when i told a staff in private that i was hearing voices....the next day in group she told the rest of the group that i was psychotic. i didnt want them to know because i thought it was embarassing. there was no privacy there. u slept with the lights on. everything was timed. if u go over time u had a consequence like doing army style exercises for every second u went over time. u showered together sh_t together slept together ate together. if u were late to the cafeteria u had to eat ont he sidewalk outside on paper napkins. no plates. everything was punishable. i could write for hours about that place. i honestly cant believe i survived 8 months there. honestly. i dont know how i made it.

Peninsula Village

there is a place similar to that called University Behavioral Health. i went there. a former patient made a complaint website about it and it got on the news because some teen died there.

It seems like these residential treatment centers are just awful. I would never send my kids to these if I ever have a child with mental health issues / behavioral issues. Jesus Christ all I hear is bad things about residential.

Holly crap these rules for Peninsula Village... **** that.

Just so u guys know. My son was never in those places. I knew about them before I had him. I know Alllll the history behind those places. That's all I feel comfortable saying.

But yeah kids get put in these places and they are nothing short of tortured. When they get shut down, they just open another one under a new name. They're privately owned, so lax regulations. A lot of them are in Utah they have the least regulations in the country. Parents have no idea what's going on bc the staff controls what u write, what u say. It's UNBELIEVABLE!!!

well i am in a residential program now that is very healing. but the sad part of it is it is not covered by insurance and is very very expenisve. they offer scholarships but its still expensive. my trust pays for it. the only reason i got to come here was because my former psychiatrist paid the first 2 months for me (u have to pay full price 2 months before u get a scholarship) he paid $25,000 for me to come here. i am eternally grateful for him and this program. i never thought i would be where im at now. i didnt have much of a future before. i feel like my old psychiatrist felt guilty because he was my doctor when my mom sent me away. i wrote him letters every day until they told me i couldnt write him anymore. when i got back i told him everything. he was horrified. then right after i got out of there i met my former therapist which u all know about. again my pdoc was stunned. the day i told him ill never forget. he came back the next day and said he didnt sleep that night. he isnt my pdoc anymore because he paid that money for me to come here. but we still text every now and then.

I'm so scared of them I didn't know ANY were healthy and healing. That's good to know. I'm really happy that u found that place.