![]() |
FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
#526
|
||||
|
||||
Im exhausted. Ive been cleaning since i woke up. Thats only 3-4 hours but yea. I drank more coffee and it made my stomach hurt. I cant drink but one cup a day, physically. But i needed the extra cup, mentally.
Resting now. Seems like when i dont work i usually find something to do. Like clean or care for the pets. Its always something. Im glad i been staying busy for the most part since i been here. What a life!
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird
|
#527
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Maybe I need to meditate? Is it worth being on the moodstabilizer I'm on if I don't feel euphoria anymore? That was my happiness, it made me feel like I had a gift, it would come in rushes and I miss it so much. It made me feel amazing and connected to God and wanting to learn about everything. Maybe this is normal and it just feels really bad to me, I'm used to feeling electrically happy, so intense, physically better than getting high on drugs. It's gone though
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Anonymous40796, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
#528
|
||||
|
||||
I used to be so inspired that I had so many things I wanted to learn and do, I hated when the day came to an end and liked staying up because I could do even more, I felt like I would run out of time if I slept.
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty
|
![]() Angelique67, newtus
|
#529
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
|
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
#530
|
||||
|
||||
My heart was 95bpm then I drank coffee and it decreased to 75bpm and I feel sleepy
Obviously someone put benzos in my coffee I'm gonna make another coffee |
![]() Angelique67, Loial
|
#531
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Same Ii hate sleeping now but once im asleep i stay so tired.
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#532
|
|||
|
|||
Long day but everything is set.
We may have to drive out tomorrow and formally ID the body for the ME again. They won’t know for sure until the morning. Apparently Friday’s and Saturday’s are not good days to die if you need the ME. Family is watching Final Destination 2. Yuck! I don’t like movies like this. They give me anxiety. Impending doom.
__________________
Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
|
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
![]() Angelique67
|
#533
|
|||
|
|||
I finished my book today. I'm officially done. Now I just need cover art... which I have no clue how to do. Philosophy books typically have the worst cover art, no lying just fact. But im good with Microsoft Paint so I should be able to do something, I just don't know where to start. Maybe storm clouds with a fancy type will do, I can do that if I catch a stormy night... I wish I could just google images an use those freely.
|
![]() SlumberKitty
|
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, Loial, ofthevalley
|
#534
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
Hugs! ![]() |
![]() SlumberKitty
|
![]() Angelique67
|
#535
|
||||
|
||||
Took benadryl then took a shower
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() SlumberKitty
|
#536
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
I want a copy!!!
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
#537
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
Hugs! ![]() |
![]() Angelique67
|
#538
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
![]() |
![]() Blue_Bird
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#539
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
![]()
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Anonymous40796, Findingreason, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
#540
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
I still get happy at times, usually when I'm talking to/being with my friend. Otherwise I can get pretty down. I could try walking around the halls here I guess. When my emotions are intense it's actually difficult because my sadness is so deep. So I rely on Prozac to dull it all. ![]() |
![]() Anonymous40796, Blue_Bird
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#541
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Now that I'm on an AP again I don't know what to do if it comes back. There are a bunch of people here who have it and I'm really dreading it. Maybe you'd feel better on a different AD? Prozac is the only one I'm on (of ad's). It either makes me numb or the risperdal does. Probably both. But try taking long walks if you can. I used to walk 2-3 miles per day with my music in my ears, singing. All you need is a good pair of shoes. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#542
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
|
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#543
|
||||
|
||||
((((((((Blue_Bird))))))))
![]() ![]() ![]() |
![]() Blue_Bird
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#544
|
||||
|
||||
Thanks Angelique
![]() I'm going to talk to my doctor about switching the antidepressant, I was thinking along those lines as well. How have you been?
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Angelique67, newtus
|
#545
|
||||
|
||||
I'm ok thanks. I wish I were in my own place though. There were at least 2 books I wanted to start on (astrology textbooks). I don't think I can write here. I can't have a computer or tablet here because anything would be taken. And there's way too much noise in my room to be able to concentrate. So I don't know. I don't have my notes and case files here. I guess I could write on my phone. I'll think about it. I don't want to forget my ideas lol.
|
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Blue_Bird
|
#546
|
||||
|
||||
I think that's how Prozac works. Only for severe depressed deep sadness. Which isn't a bad thing. It made me feel too numb so I got severe panic attacks because I was wondering what happened to my emotions...
|
![]() Anonymous40796, Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
|
![]() Angelique67
|
#547
|
||||
|
||||
I just got a call from SNHU!!! I got accepted.
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Loial, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
#548
|
||||
|
||||
Just filled out to send my transcripts and everything!
__________________
"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII |
![]() Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Loial, SlumberKitty
|
#549
|
||||
|
||||
seeing my therapist today
my hair hurts
__________________
![]() |
![]() Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
|
![]() Loial
|
#550
|
||||
|
||||
Watching Ellen videos on Youtube and also Melissa McCarthy when she was on SNL, laughing my *** off
![]()
__________________
“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
![]() Loial, newtus, Sometimes psychotic
|
Closed Thread |
|