[Wild Coyote]

Thanks everyone for your support!
You all mean a lot to me!
Much Love to all!

[tecomsin]

WC, the sense of betrayal would be overwhelming to me. I am so sorry you are going through this.

[MsSunflower]

I'm been feeling pretty down. I guess I keep saying all the wrong things because I feel like everyone is mad at me. I don't mean to upset people but I guess I don't think before I speak and right now I'm having a hard time thinking. I'm just trying to enjoying being alone right now and not worry too much. I finally got an email from the volunteer coordinator today for the job I applied for back in March. They finally have enough people to get started and we're having a meeting to go over the details sometime this week. Hope you all are well.

[Unrigged64072835]

So sorry you were betrayed like that, WC. I do hope you have clear resolution and in time you can put this behind you.

[Moose72]

Today was a total wipe out. Im writing from my partner's bed breathing in the cool air from outside. I feel half relaxed and half blah for being a total slug today. I slept way too much and fet bad from it but I still want to sleep. Reading "the liver diet" but it seems so daunting.

[~Christina]

I would like these weather fronts plowing through to pissss off .... I’m tired of the sinus headaches and the increase in Fibromyalgia pain

[sadveiledbride]

I feel very odd and am sad and angry at the same time. I worry about letting my guard down... I'm tired of being let down, beat down and self-pitying. I've got to change that. Self pitying is the worst feeling. Hope you all are well.

[blueoceaneyes]

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

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Originally Posted by ~Christina

I would like these weather fronts plowing through to pissss off .... I’m tired of the sinus headaches and the increase in Fibromyalgia pain

Same with the sinuses. Don’t have fibromyalgia but arthritis is no cakewalk either with this weather. We’re supposed to have thunderstorms all week and it still looks like a war zone nearby. Can’t repair anything with lightening, hail, and winds. Just do what I can and rest through the rest.

Went for a hike this morning, although I didn't make the summit. I guess it was good to get in the woods for a bit and get some mountain exercise, but I'm not as attracted to hiking as I used to be and that bothers me. That used to be my identity but thanks to these ******* meds I'm fat and out of shape and can't do anything fun anymore. I probably could have made the summit if I felt like it, but I didn't. I don't have any goals anymore because as of today i'm abandoning all my hiking goals and I abandoned any other goal I had. I just feel so flat and like I've been saying all I'm doing all day is sitting on my bed listening to music. I used to force myself to go on walks but I don't get anything out of that other than I might die from a bear attack or getting hit by a car or something. I thought forcing myself to go on this hike would help but it didn't. I actually feel worse because I'm sad I didn't finish the hike.

I'm trying to do something. Anything. But I'm finding out again and again I can't.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by blueoceaneyes

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

Hello and a warm welcome to PC.

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Originally Posted by blueoceaneyes

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

Hi and welcome to PC!

Whoops! I just got a phone call. It was my therapist. She said "Hi! This is Robin."

Me: "Hi, Robin! How are you?"

Robin: "I'm fine. I was wondering if you were OK."

Me: "I'm doing great!"

Robin: "You were supposed to be at my office 15 minutes ago."

Me: "OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I have an appointment with her every Tuesday. This is the first time I've missed it. I told her that I was so immersed in something that I totally didn't think of anything else. Hyper-focus. I was wound up a bit, but I told her I am not hypomanic. I guess. This has been an issue for me throughout my life with things. I told her I would be extra careful from now on.

I should have already started studying my French for this Friday. It seems almost impossible for me to do it. I should just be honest with myself and quit, but I would be losing money. My husband is pressuring me to continue to the end. The teacher was pressuring me. Obviously, only I'm not pressuring me. I know from experience that when I'm 100% on board with something I do put 110% into it.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm doing OK, still very tired. Some aspects of the iron anemia are getting better, not fatigue though. And this, I don't know if it's to blame on forgetfulness caused by being mixed or anemia or meds or some combination of all three: Yesterday, I had to take one of my cats to the vet for her annual exam. Her appointment was in the morning, but not terribly early, around 9 or so. Once I was called back into the exam room with my cat, I realized I had forgotten to put on a bra. OMG, I never go out in public without a bra. Fortunately, I had on a black tank top, and I have very little up there, but my shirt was very fitted. I was so embarrassed. So forgetfulness, no matter what is causing it, is still there, particularly going into a room for some reason and forgetting it the instant I get into the room.

H and I have talked, and we've agreed it makes sense to move closer to his job. His commute is 1.5 hr each way, but it's not stop-and-go traffic; mostly it's open driving, so it's a lot of distance to cover, a lot of wear and tear on the car and him too, especially since he's gotten a promotion, and his old department chair just was made a dean, and H feels the new dean is going to pull for him to get a tenure faculty position. So we're starting to look at homes closer to his job. My daughter surprisingly has gotten on board with the idea of moving. There are a lot of aspects about our current home that I don't like, but the thought of moving and then what to do with this house - rent it, undersell it? - is a bit overwhelming. We've lived here 15 years, and we have accumulated a lot of stuff in that time.

I have an appointment with my T in about half an hour.

Blueberrybook, I'm glad you're starting to feel better! It sounds like a good idea to lessen your husband's commute. There are so few hours in the day for family and yourself when you work full-time.

I wouldn't worry about the bra. I have a couple tight shirts that I don't wear a bra with, and I'm a "C" cup. They look fine, especially if you've still got some perk. My husband is a European. He's told me many times not to bother with a bra, in some cases.

[Sunflower123]

Very emotional today. Today was the day we were going to rehome my daughter’s dog. I mentioned that I’d been taking care of him since she went off to college and have grown quite attached. She made the decision to rehome him and my therapist agrees. I’m having quite a challenge taking care of myself, my mom and my brother and he’s a lovable but rambunctious dog. In the end, I couldn’t bring myself to do it today so we’ve rescheduled with a reputable adoption place for next week.

I thought I made peace with this in Florida but I guess not. All I want to do right now is sleep and cry. Not interested in eating or anything else. Just needed to get it off my chest. Thank you.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[Moose72]

I'm a D cup (Boo! Hiss!) So I wear bras in public.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Blueberrybook, I'm glad you're starting to feel better! It sounds like a good idea to lessen your husband's commute. There are so few hours in the day for family and yourself when you work full-time.

I wouldn't worry about the bra. I have a couple tight shirts that I don't wear a bra with, and I'm a "C" cup. They look fine, especially if you've still got some perk. My husband is a European. He's told me many times not to bother with a bra, in some cases.

Thanks. I'm barely an A cup. I think my 11.5 year old daughter has the same size or more up there! She is going to be tall though whereas I'm 5'4" tall; she's already 5'2". H is tall; her pediatrician predicted around 5'9" tall for her.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm a D cup (Boo! Hiss!) So I wear bras in public.

I am just glad H is not overly into breast size. I was barely a C while breastfeeding, and on birth control pills, I was a B cup (but I found the pill impacts my mood and anxiety very negatively); without the help of the pill, it's an A cup for me. Though I guess I'm pretty small in size for an adult woman, small bone structure, underweight. I'd probably look strange if I were larger than a C.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by blueoceaneyes

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

to the bipolar forum

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Same with the sinuses. Don’t have fibromyalgia but arthritis is no cakewalk either with this weather. We’re supposed to have thunderstorms all week and it still looks like a war zone nearby. Can’t repair anything with lightening, hail, and winds. Just do what I can and rest through the rest.

Yeah these fronts have my arthritis ramped up. My body feels like it’s 103

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by blueoceaneyes

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

Welcome to PC

[MsSunflower]

Had a rough day. I fell asleep last night without taking my bedtime meds. I woke feeling depressed and too overwhelmed to make it to the day hospital for my support groups today. This is the first time in several weeks of going that I've missed a group. Slept half the day and spent the other half eating junk food and watching funny YouTube videos to cheer myself up. Managed to get out for a walk and I'm feeling a bit better now. I'm meeting with the group of people I'll be volunteering with tomorrow about how the new program will run. Have been waiting since March for this and was feeling excited up until now but I can't feel much but sad today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by blueoceaneyes

Hi! I am also new here. Diagnosed 18 years ago. Feeling balanced today. So thankful.

Hello blueoceaneyes. Welcome to PC.

[sadveiledbride]

I feel absolutely terrible. Very sad. I just have to remember that tomorrow is a new day.