[Nammu]

Oh, good going soupe.

Moose congratulations on passing, those things are a pain in the patoototie

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh, good going soupe.

Moose congratulations on passing, those things are a pain in the patoototie

Lots of detailed things to do! But the inspection goes quickly if you pass. Most she asked me was if I have any issues with the apartment but I said no because they always come the same day to fix whatever is broken! (Unlike my old place.)

[*Beth*]

Congrats, Moose! What a good feeling.

I'm sad to find out that some of us aren't having the smoothest time right now. Irritable mania sucks. I've found that as I've become older it's irritability and anger/rage that often shows up, not so much the ecstatic mania. When I'm having any feeling or mood that is stronger than the tools in my self-care toolbox, medication adjustment is all that helps.

[Moose72]

I asked Karen - long-time friend- if she wanted to get dinner- pick up and come over and eat on my balcony. Her response? "Sure! How about 6:30?" I respond "ok" and she texts back "I'm gonna give it a pass. I'm tired.". She does this fairly often and everytime its irritating! Oh well. I have plans tomorrow with Christine who is unlikely to cancel and if she does she warns me that she might but she'll get back to me. I prefer this! In the morning, my mom and I are going to buy a plant for my bedroom. I'm happy about this! It will spiff up the empty corner next to my bed.

After yet another day of annoyance and irritation with my ZOOM social group i have decided to take a break from it. I really enjoyed it for a while there but there are a couple who spoil it and they are there often. I quit halfway thru today.

So now i have no regular event to look forward to in my day. But an unpleasant experience is no solution. To add insult to injury the COVID situation has deteriorated even more here and yet more restrictive measures are planned.

I hardly care. I hardly care about anything right now. What happens, happens.

I'm pretty sure i saw a sign that said "no returns" in the eye-glasses store but if i am dissatisfied with the glasses i will try and negotiate something.

Hugs to all!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Congrats, Moose! What a good feeling.

.

It really is!

[*Beth*]

I'm a nervous mess today. This is a time for me to sit down and practice mindful breathing, which I will be doing. I've always been a natural at driving and I've always enjoyed driving. Nothing felt better to me than driving down a country road with my music turned up high on the radio. Then about a year ago I started feeling anxious about driving. Out of nowhere. But I have to drive to keep my life running smoothly. So there's that. Then, I just had hundreds of dollars of work done on my car with the primary goal of getting it to pass smog on Monday. So I was doing some errands today, came out of the grocery store- and my car wouldn't start. I called my roadside service, feeling pretty defeated. I mean, I just picked the old gal up yesterday from the mechanic. Wouldn't start, wouldn't start - all of a sudden started! It feels like there's something not quite connecting between the key and the ignition. I'm not thrilled. I have no more money; I used my stimulus money to pay for the repairs I've had done. Drove home, thankfully.

Running late. Came here to try to refocus. And did I mention it'll be 90 degrees this week-end? Way too hot for April. Way too hot for me.

Whew. I have to collect myself and put me back together in one piece instead of being scattered all over the place.

@BethRags: Sorry to read about your car trouble and the impending hot hot weather. Have you considered public transit? I know it's not much of an option in small town America. It's saved me tho but i live in a fair-sized city.

[buddha1too]

I'm sorry you're so stressed, @BethRags. Car repair costs can be intimidating, and the fact you haven't driven in a while probably added to your daily stress. I hope you're successful in gathering your emotions. It sounds like you handled things quite well today, though. Thanks, by the way, for reminding me I'm not alone in finding that irritability has somewhat replaced hypo periods as I age. It's comforting to know this isn't an anomaly.

It seems like you had one of the more discouraging days in recent memory, @whatever2013, with the Zoom meeting being unsatisfactory again, & even more strict Covid restrictions coming. You wrote, "What happens, happens." I hope that's a healthy sense of resignation...but I also sense your frustration. I hope you can work things out with your glasses. Hang in there. Our dogs need us!

My partner & I ordered take-out from a corner diner we ate at before the pandemic. I hadn't had Hippie Hash since February of 2020. It's hash browns, broccoli, mushrooms, onions & bacon pieces topped with two fried eggs up, & two slices of sourdough toast. It was a welcome blast from the past. Hopefully sleep will come tonight...

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry Beth.

[Nammu]

Oo car troubles, I always want to knock on wood when I hear of car troubles. They’ve become a necessity in today’s world and they are so expensive. I hope the shop gives it a look for free since you just picked up the car.

Oo that hippy hash sounds delicious 🤤

[Moose72]

Sorry about your car troubles, Beth! You'd think they wouldn't let it out of the shop with something still broken!

Wrll in other news I think I have double pink eye! I think its from sleeping in my contacts for a couple hours. But now I've touched so many things! I don't think I should have Christine over if my apartment is contaminated. I think I'll call the saturday clinic in the morning to see if they can squeeze me in.

[Soupe du jour]

BethRags, Nammu makes a great point about the car shop being a bit responsible for your car working after a big fix. Would you consider asking them to look at it (for free) and let them know you have no more in your budget for additional fixes, at this time? I can't speak for your shop, but we had a couple in NJ that were great in such cases.

I haven't driven one bit since moving to CZ. I know I need to because not doing so makes it harder yet to start. I told my husband that I should at least drive common routes (i.e. to the local grocery stores). I understand the signage getting there (some traffic rules and signage are different here). Please do keep that effort going a bit, once your car issue is addressed again.

[unlived]

Still nothing from mountaindewed?

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[Soupe du jour]

The last couple of nights have been more like ones before the two day reprieve. It's gotten to the point where I just don't give a damn. As for my mood, I still get a bit agitated, loud, and angry. I am taking the extra 50 mg of Seroquel XR. Rather than up it to 100 mg, I'm trying to practice mindfulness about it, and self-correction of behavior, as possible. At points, I feel dull in spirit. It's a back and forth between opposites. If the "mindfulness" and self-correction fails, then I'll accept the extra dose increase. I've found that my base dose of Seroquel XR has risen over the years. Luckily though my weight has also increased, it hasn't been significant. I eventually always settle in to a higher dose, and it becomes more weight neutral...but usually at the slightly higher weight. Occasionally I find the motivation to cut calories, but it's a sporadic thing, and usually only lasts between two and four months. Enough to get down to what seems a genetically stamped "low weight" for me...about 7 to 10 lbs above my normal BMI range.

The weather has been what my Czech husband calls "Poshmoristan", a made up word including the Czech word "pošmourno" that means grayish/gloomy and the addition of "stan" which in Persian (Iranian language) means "place of" (think Uzbekistan or Kazakhstan). Yea, CZ is not known for having sunny weather. Boo!

[Nammu]

Didn’t get any sleep last night. Gave up at 6 and am watching cartoons. The old ones, Popeyes, ToM and Jerry, Bugs Bunny. It’s nice they put cartoons back on Saturday mornings.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

@BethRags: Sorry to read about your car trouble and the impending hot hot weather. Have you considered public transit? I know it's not much of an option in small town America. It's saved me tho but i live in a fair-sized city.

Thank you, whatever. One of the many reasons I love NYC is because of the public transportation system. Here, even in San Francisco public trans stinks - and Los Angeles is the worst I've ever seen. Either you drive a fancy car or you're stuck walking through the terrifying streets of L.A.


I would definitely like to use public transportation to run errands...unfortunately, there is almost none here. Two buses that run only at "peak" times and the cost is absurd. I used to bicycle and loved it! After a couple of pretty bad accidents, then having my bike stolen, I'm scared to bike anymore.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by buddha1too

... I hadn't had Hippie Hash since February of 2020. It's hash browns, broccoli, mushrooms, onions & bacon pieces topped with two fried eggs up, & two slices of sourdough toast. It was a welcome blast from the past. Hopefully sleep will come tonight...

Oooh, Hippie Hash sounds yum!

[*Beth*]

Thank you, Mm and thank you, Nammu.

Moose - that's horrible! Let us know what the clinic says.

Soupe, thank you for your encouragement.

Yes, my husband is po'd about my car. He says they need to check it and repair it at no cost...it shouldn't have been released to us still broken, not after what I paid them!!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

The last couple of nights have been more like ones before the two day reprieve. It's gotten to the point where I just don't give a damn. As for my mood, I still get a bit agitated, loud, and angry. I am taking the extra 50 mg of Seroquel XR. Rather than up it to 100 mg, I'm trying to practice mindfulness about it, and self-correction of behavior, as possible. At points, I feel dull in spirit. It's a back and forth between opposites. If the "mindfulness" and self-correction fails, then I'll accept the extra dose increase. I've found that my base dose of Seroquel XR has risen over the years. Luckily though my weight has also increased, it hasn't been significant. I eventually always settle in to a higher dose, and it becomes more weight neutral...but usually at the slightly higher weight. Occasionally I find the motivation to cut calories, but it's a sporadic thing, and usually only lasts between two and four months. Enough to get down to what seems a genetically stamped "low weight" for me...about 7 to 10 lbs above my normal BMI range.

The weather has been what my Czech husband calls "Poshmoristan", a made up word including the Czech word "pošmourno" that means grayish/gloomy and the addition of "stan" which in Persian (Iranian language) means "place of" (think Uzbekistan or Kazakhstan). Yea, CZ is not known for having sunny weather. Boo!

Good job for practicing mindfulness and self-correction behavior. Just remember that if your brain is mis-firing somehow, taking that extra bit of Seroquel could prevent escalation of symptoms.

[*Beth*]

And really...where is Mountaindewed? It's been days!

[buddha1too]

Originally Posted by BethRags

And really...where is Mountaindewed? It's been days!

I checked his profile page. His account has been suspended.

[Moose72]

Nurse called me back after talking with the doctor on call today. She said it could be allergies so take an antihistamine but most likely its a virus so use hot compresses 5 times a day! I'll be using paper towel because it's disposable. All this because I slept in my contacts! I'm not sure when I can put my contacts in again- a fresh pair of course!- but I'm assuming it's when my eyes have no more redness.

[Moose72]

Oh and my mom bought me a new plant for the corner of my bedroom!

[buddha1too]

I'm so pissed off today I could spit. Angry at nothing in particular...