Bipolar check-in #69

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Originally Posted by Mountaindewed I'm not sure they can tell. I know with my last nephew he was a month early but 8 pounds. She has had issues with all 3 of her pregnancys. I'm just like "take the baby out now" but they are waiting for as long as they can.

Generally, they wait as long as they can so the baby's lungs are fully developed and strong. For some reason lungs and kneecaps are slower to develop than other body parts.


I have my fingers crossed for your sister's baby to be born on Oct. 3rd, my son Noah's birthday Noah is an absolutely terrific human being, so I think 10/3 is a good birthday.

I want to add that October 4th is a great day to be born- N2s birthday . Or September 26th - N3s birthday.

I hope this question doesn’t offend you (because it’s about a dog) but when you’re tapering / withdrawing from gabapentin apart from the sleep do you have any other effects? Any discomfort? I’m just trying to take my dog off it at the moment and because she’s a dog she obviously can’t tell me so I’m trying to judge what’s best for her. I took some of the powder out of the 100mg capsule tonight to make it easier for her to come down off it (they don’t come in lower doses or in tablets here) but I don’t know what effect it’s having on her so don’t know how fast / slow to go and vets are always pretty much telling you to take them off things quickly and don’t take withdrawals into account.

Lucid dreaming to me is I know I’m in bed, I have awareness of where I am and I can control the dreams to some extent. Like this morning I was dreaming I was on a plane and this guy needed to use a dog to test for an illness. The plane hit turbulence and the dog got hurt, I redid that part of the dream and it only appeared as if the dog got hurt, it was fine.

My husband and I are dead tired right now. We ordered pizza and a salad because I can not think of cooking.Again, we've been packing away. This type of work is back breaking. The clock is ticking. We're still waiting to hear back from the real estate lawyer(s) and the realtor for the owner from which we're buying the property. I wish we'd finally get it finalized. We're even still waiting to get the 100% that we can "lease" the property during the four plus weeks that it takes to get the bureaucracy stuff done and finally get the full blown ownership.

I do think that Hubby and I will be ready by the end of the month. I've pushed him, and myself, to really get crackin'.

I went to SS this morning. The line outside wasn't long only a few people were ahead of me. I waited about 5 minutes. I had to wait about 20 minutes to see someone. The lady was kinda confused but then saw that we had the document we needed and the letter from the doctor. So she just typed a few things into her computer and that was it. Now I am legally male. Well technically in about 24 hours. It has to process through their system. Then my insurance will be contacted but I'll have to call my supplement tommorow afternoon and tell them about the name and gender. I'm still getting prescriptions in my dead name. I then have to go the DMV hopefully this week to get a new ID. I'm not sure how easy it will be. But I have all the paperwork so it shouldn't be that big of a hassle. But man does all this take a lot of time and paperwork! At least its worth it

Not much to report otherwise. My brothers birthday is today so we're going out to dinner. My mom says everything will be fine with my sister. She says you don't go into labor with a planned c section. She has an ultrasound tommorow so she will know more then.

But I feel pretty good today now that I've gotten SS finally out of the way. I also slept well last night and I ate a plain Wendys pretzel bun hamburger for lunch. My eating has been a lot better and I am maintaining right at my goal weight. Although my therapist still isn't really happy with how many calories I'm eating. I don't think 1700 calories is too little though if my weight is staying the same.

I like my therapist a lot. But honestly it almost seems like she is skinny shaming me sometimes despite the fact that she is also skinny. And its annoying. I got a couple emails from her an hour ago. She mentioned at the last session how she is super protective of me and stuff. Cool. Whatever. But don't harp on me all the time about my weight.

I deleted this post this morning. Please just ignore it if you’ve seen it.

I went for a walk in the park this morning. A brief one to start building up my strength again. I also sat outside in the sun for a long while.

We start our grief class tonight. Looking forward to it. We’re going to grab a bite to eat before hand.

I’ve allowed myself to be walked on like a doormat for years now. From my sister this comes in the form of bullying, yelling, attacks, name calling, aggression. I came to my senses and put a stop to it respectfully and diplomatically but directly and in a strong manner. I feel good about my decision and much relieved. I am a gentle, sensitive soul and it was traumatizing me badly. My sister wants nothing to do with me now and has cut communication. Part of me is at peace because it needed to happen and part of me is stunned. I’m posting this here so I can get it off my chest with folks who don’t know my family, leave it here and move on with my life. Thanks for listening. I’m going to move on now.

I hope everyone is having a peaceful day. Much love.

Mum got the all clear on her eyes today. My oldest sister came to go with her to the doctor. ( because of my hearing I can’t understand them with masks on. So she goes with as mum is unreliable when it comes to what they say) her scan was all green, no leaking. But they’d like to continue the shots but mum said no. Can’t blame her. She goes back in 6 weeks for a follow up.

Today is a harbinger of the cool days to come. Just 71 degrees but nice if your sitting in the sun.

I took 2 ambien last night but no luck with sleep. It was after 4 going on 5 when I dosed off. The alarm woke me at 7 but I only got up to cancel aqua therapy and went back to bed. Had drifted off into lucid dreams when mum woke me frantic! My sister wasn’t here yet and her appointment! She was mixed up thinking her appointment was in 15 minutes. So I was up! Had to get mum calmed down, but everything was fine. Hopefully tonight I sleep.

Just got a call from a car place I visited on line, really doing the hard sell!

I agree: I think you did the right thing! You will feel so much better now. Let's hope that she really has cut all ties and won't start up with the crap again.

I should stop being optimistic for a while. Found the problem. It's the alternator. The alternator is running ridiculously fast therefore the battery is getting way more power than it should, hence the near electrical fire and/or explosion yesterday.

My mechanic's estimate: $650 give or take $25. That's actually pretty fair given how much the two items run. Still, I can't afford it with $580 to my name right now. So, that brings me back to my dad's circle of mechanic contacts. This might be an issue as my dad seems to be unwilling to accept the reality that prices might have gone up since 2001 or even 2008. He thinks he can get an new alternator and battery installed for $200 with labor included. I can MAYBE get it down to $400 for parts and that's if I buy the cheap stuff. I'm not doing that if I can help it!

Not much to be done without a vehicle. If it doesn't get fixed tomorrow... well, I go back to work Wednesday.

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Originally Posted by Moose72 I want to add that October 4th is a great day to be born- N2s birthday . Or September 26th - N3s birthday.

Our kids have so much in common! All the N's, birth dates 10/3 and 10/4.


Md's sister's baby will probably be born on 9/26.

A planned c-section almost always means no labor unless the woman goes into labor prior to the planned c-section. I had a planned c-sec for my daughter, but I got a bad kidney infection and that set off labor 2 weeks before the planned date. But the labor was really light. I drove myself to the hospital and walked in by myself. Then they did the surgery and my daughter was just fine.

This is the weird part, though. My obstetrician was on vacation when I got the kidney infection and went into labor, so his partner did my c-section. That week my obstetrician's private plane crashed and he was killed. To be absolutely honest...I mean, I was truly sorry that he'd been killed, but the guy was a jerk. Sarcastic and kinda mean. So I was glad to have his partner for a doctor, instead.

Yes they do!

Md's sister should have her baby on 9/26!

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Originally Posted by unlived I hope this question doesn’t offend you (because it’s about a dog) but when you’re tapering / withdrawing from gabapentin apart from the sleep do you have any other effects? Any discomfort? I’m just trying to take my dog off it at the moment and because she’s a dog she obviously can’t tell me so I’m trying to judge what’s best for her. I took some of the powder out of the 100mg capsule tonight to make it easier for her to come down off it (they don’t come in lower doses or in tablets here) but I don’t know what effect it’s having on her so don’t know how fast / slow to go and vets are always pretty much telling you to take them off things quickly and don’t take withdrawals into account.

Your question doesn't offend me, at all. I think your question is excellent. Not only vets, but people doctors always seem to rush stopping medications, too. They all tend to ignore withdrawal.

I'm down to 1 capsule per day. I hate that Gabapentin is in only capsules!

I haven't noticed any withdrawal symptoms, except the sleep problem, which is miserable. I think that what you're doing with pouring some of the powder out is smart. That's what I'll be doing with myself, too.

How long has your dog been on the Gabapentin? I am pretty sure that the longer it's been taken the more difficult the withdrawal will be.

My car has been in the shop for so long now, I’ve been dipping around on different sites for cars. One of them called me today. I’ve arranged a ride with my daughter’s father-in-law for Friday. I explained that my car is in the shop waiting for a part. He said he could give $4000 plus what it’s worth for a trade in as it is. No need to fix it. So I’m going to see what’s available. I’m so nervous because I’ve never financed a car before. Always bought them outright. But can’t do that now and I’m getting really tired of this loaner car. My credit is excellent and I have no debts but eek 😱 I hate paying interest. To me interest is money down the drain. I pay my credit card in full to avoid interest even though I heard you get better credit if you pay installments. Ahhhh stress!

By paying in installments do you mean paying off your credit card by making monthly payments or making a monthly car payment?

It's going down to 52 tonight. I have my bedroom window open.

I mean making monthly payments, like the minimum amount they want.

Actually I don't think paying it off in full every month is bad for your credit. It just means the credit card company doesn't make any money off you. But paying on time in full every month is a good thing, I've always thought. The tough thing is if you have no credit history, but that is not the case with you.

For years I had no credit. I was homeless and had nothing. When I got SSDI I had to open a checking account. After years of that I got a debt card and then my bank gave me a credit card. I’ve always paid it back in full because I never get anything I can’t afford to pay back. It’s taken years to get my credit history but I live frugally. There’s a lot I go without.

Where's @MuddyBoots?

I’ve been wondering that too. Last she said she was going to split time between her mum’s and a friends place. Then nothing. I’m worried 😧

hubby is still not home from his rehearsal with the latin band.

he usually textes me to let me know whats happening.
he was due home half an hour ago.
heard from him, He said they were just wrapping up.
over 3 hour rehearsal He is beat. He just called so he
should be home by 945pm. He had dinner at popeyes.
around 5;30 before the practice at 6 pm.I went

to have a quick dinner at a chicken place I ordered

a big salad with chopped chicken and an avocado.
with a spicy dressing and a side of cilantro dressing as well.
It was very good and took half of it home.

He just walked in the door.
bizi

Thanks for the reply. She’s been on it a few months which I know in the big picture isn’t that long but I also know that our bodies can get hooked on these chemicals really quickly sometimes so I just don’t want her to suffer if I can help it.

I feel good physically, feel mentally stable and feel content today.

I just enjoyed sitting on the deck in 57F weather with a hot mug of tangerine tea. It was beautiful and relaxing. Sun shining, clear blue skies, birds singing, chipmunk visiting….I will go outside today when I get home as well. My med provider said to soak up as much as possible. I think I can manage that. Forecast is nothing but sun for the foreseeable future.

I have appointments and errands today. I get a bit anxious when I’m so far behind but things fell through the cracks for about 2 months and I’m focusing on priorities now. I’ve added soothing things to the rotation today like a blueberry Heaven smoothie from SmoothieKing and a walk and sit in the park. I’ll also meditate for 20 and speak to my higher power before heading out. It’s a lovely day to be out.

We missed the first grief class yesterday. Mom got dizzy about 4:30 and fell. Everything is okay. The dizziness is gone, no injuries in the fall and moving around as normal. I’ve been in contact with her doctor and kept a close eye on her. She has a doctor’s appointment scheduled in the near future and I will contact the leader of the grief class to see what the next best step is in regards to that. I still have brother’s life alert equipment. Tinkering with the idea of transferring it to mom now. I think that would be best.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day. Much love.