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#626
Sep 25, 2022, 04:35 PM
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Hi! I'm so, so happy to know you're feeling better. You are a rare breed, Christina. The world needs about 10 million more of people like you...angels on earth. I'm sorry, however, to hear about Steve. Maybe the lovelier weather will give him a renewed energy. I sure hope so. The gas station in town...I'm picturing an old-fashioned mom & pop gas station, the last one outta town. But I suppose I've seen too many movies. Whatever kind of gas station it is I think it beats fast foods, hands down. My only concern would be robbery if you're working at night. My med dude has been mostly useless. He started out fresh and new and focused. He's now rushing through appointments, cut back his availability, and I won't be at all surprised if he leaves the clinic soon. I like him very much, but...we'll see. I've done an immense amount of research about my GI problems and I HOPE and PRAY I have figured out why I've been so terribly unwell for nearly 2 months. Long story, but it all came down to Gabapentin. Yes, I am seeing Mary and it's so helpful. She hasn't been taking much time off, so the consistency is immensely beneficial. Our weather. We had almost 2 days of REAL rain! Oh, such a blessing! Now it's in the mid-90's in the afternoon, yuck. The evenings are gorgeous, cool and breezy. I'm tapping my fingers, waiting for the 70's to come. Today is Rosh Hashana, the Jewish New Year. May you and Steve be blessed, my friend, with good health, peace, and prosperity. I'm sending you love, light, blessings, dear Christina! 
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#627
Sep 25, 2022, 05:00 PM
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Your dog is so cute Christina!
Prayers for you and your husband. And I hope you’re able to find a good job that doesn’t affect your mental health negatively.  I’m not sure if my hobbies are technically useful but they do help my anxiety some so I guess that’s good  Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#628
Sep 25, 2022, 05:03 PM
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Thanks, I am hoping to improve over time, they’re good coping skills I was really worn out for a few different reasons so maybe I did need to sleep more I’m sorry to hear about the situation with your med provider, I hope everything works out in a good way Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#629
Sep 25, 2022, 05:10 PM
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I had an interesting day. I talked about a secret I’ve had for 20 years, since I was about 8, that I’ve never told a soul about due to embarrassment. One that really upset me when I was a kid and caused a lot of internal grief.
My friends and my sister have been supportive. So I’m going to bring it up to my therapist. I think it may be relevant to some of the early onset of mental health issues I had, some of my early depressive episodes when I was 9-12 years old and my
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I hope my therapist doesn’t think I’m stupid for bringing it up. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#630
Sep 25, 2022, 05:11 PM
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I hope Steve is alright and gets more energy soon. I hope you find a job that’s perfect for you and soon. I know how stressful finances can be. It’s tough. Thank you for thinking of me. I am taking good care of myself and am really looking forward to seeing M. We’re in a good place. Take good care of you. Much love
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#631
Sep 25, 2022, 07:11 PM
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@~Christina
Whenever you come through here it’s such a joy to hear (read?) your voice! I’m sorry about Steve I do hope he feels better soon! And finding a job when you’ve been out of the job market a long time is difficult. My SIL got laid off back in 2007 and has recently tried to get into the game again. She’s getting nowhere but she’s always looking for full time, she’d probably have better luck part time. She also has a physical disability that limits her. I hope you’re able to find something that doesn’t aggravate your pain, mental or physical. Me, well, my back was doing better for a week but I woke up in pain again today. Tomorrow I plan to get up early and hopefully go for a walk before work. I’ve been sleeping in too late on weekdays and I think that’s what makes me so tired and In pain. Thank you for asking!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#632
Sep 25, 2022, 07:48 PM
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Laying here with an ice pack on the side of my face- eye and face pain. Took a sumatriptan to hopefully ward off this pain getting worse. I'm really tired.
Tomorrow is N3's birthday! He's going to get his pic taken for his new driver's license.
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#633
Sep 25, 2022, 09:14 PM
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#634
Sep 25, 2022, 09:36 PM
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It is highly unlikely that anyone who hasn't done IFS will get this, but I read this in IFS terms when I was reading quickly and thought you need to have your anxious self talk to your safe self and then bring the self hate into a conversation with your safe self.......
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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#635
Sep 25, 2022, 09:44 PM
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I do still read the posts on MSF, but not as frequently as I once did. I used to be on here several times a day before GF retired. Then...Ummmm, I better find something to do. Our transition into retired life has mostly been smooth, but I sometimes long for some time to myself. Be careful what you wish for...My best friend's wife died 3 years ago & he's only now coming out of it. GF has been unbelieveably understanding about the bipolar thing. I'm not sure anyone else would put up with the shite I sometimes put others through. I'm off the chain manic sometimes, but the older I get, the depression is a more frequent visitor. Still, no fun to live with...
I just wanted you all to know I'm still around, & know cars are being purchased, and a house, folks are having intestinal problems, @~Christina's presence & perseverance, @Nammu your uncle lived a long life...I'm sure he wouldn't have wanted you to grieve too much. In other words, I'm not writing much, but I'm around. |
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#636
Sep 25, 2022, 09:46 PM
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Work was a mixed bag the past few days. A lot of technical problems (including one that cost me a customer in spectacular fashion), but also some genuinely nice (and ego boosting) moments. I had three customers in a row shake my hand after I helped them, not out of politeness or obligation, but out of genuine gratefulness. Also, there was a customer I had befriended who trusted my judgment so much, he asked me to do a little "off the books" job. He offered to pay me for my time. I demurred. He insisted, so I told him to buy me a Dollar Menu burger and Coke and call it good.
It's nice to have people respect my opinions and trust my judgement, at least on this particular topic. When I worked directly for Wally World, I asked for more responsibility and a job I had the skill set for. Not only did they say no, they wrote me up for "performance issues" less than a week later. They made their message (We would rather fire you than listen to you.) loud and clear. My bosses have questioned my competence and judgement. My dad and cousin refuse to give me a chance to solve anything on my own, by which I mean "I need help." turns into "I can't do it." in their heads. My mom will even give me an "Are you sure?" just a little too much. Add in bipolar disorder, where people equate me not being able to trust my own mind with me not being trustworthy, and you've got Jenga. The mania and depression make me doubt myself which makes other people doubt me which in turn make me doubt myself more. A vicious cycle. That's why this job is a lifesaver. For a few eight hour shifts a week, I don't have to doubt myself and people have noticed. I'm allowed to be competent and confident and not be immediately dragged down. It's a nice feeling.
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"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." -Litany Against Fear (Dune) |
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#637
Sep 26, 2022, 12:13 AM
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@buddha1too you’ve been of great comfort to me during some really tough times and I thank you for still being around. So happy that the transition to retired life is going well for the two of you as a couple.
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#638
Sep 26, 2022, 01:05 AM
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I’m awake before the 3 am alarm that will get me hopping for the next couple of weeks so I’m watching Predator and putting a last post here before I get moving.
I have some good news - I am engaged. I’ve held it close to the vest, yes. A friend encouraged me to spill so spill I am. I was afraid of being judged and I didn’t want to answer a bunch of questions so I’ve been quiet for weeks. He is the neighbor I started seeing after brother passed. He’s been a pillar of strength for me and so wonderful. There are some challenges yes. Mom to address and my cold feet stemming from a VERY stressful 19 year former marriage. I am happy and content though, consider myself blessed and am looking towards a bright future. I hope everyone has a peaceful couple of weeks. Much love. 
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#639
Sep 26, 2022, 01:09 AM
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How exciting, SF! I know you'll be busy so take care
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#640
Sep 26, 2022, 01:15 AM
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Of course she won't think you're stupid for bringing it up, Birdie! That is exactly why you're in therapy, to work through overwhelming pain. If you want to, let us know how it goes when you talk with your t about that very hard time when you were so young.
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#641
Sep 26, 2022, 01:17 AM
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I am over the moon excited for you, Sunflower! I don't know...I just have a really good gut feeling about your engagement.
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#642
Sep 26, 2022, 01:20 AM
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#643
Sep 26, 2022, 01:21 AM
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Oooh, that pain sounds so miserable. A very joyful birthday to N3! How old will he be? Is he doing anything special (in addition to the picture)?
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#644
Sep 26, 2022, 01:22 AM
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Put those socks on that are all super-soft and fuzzy. They're not even expensive.
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#645
Sep 26, 2022, 01:28 AM
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 Got lots of those. Thanks for the suggestion.
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#646
Sep 26, 2022, 01:53 AM
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Congratulations Sunflower! Thanks for trusting us with this special news.
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#647
Sep 26, 2022, 06:01 AM
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Thank you, I will let you all know how it goes I see here again October 11th so I’ll talk to her about it then I hope you have a peaceful week! How have your kitties been doing? Mine have been enjoying the cooler weather because they like when I turn the heat on. I actually found both of them laying in my bed yesterday. They both slept in there for a few hours and did t fight which is amazing because normally Maybelle doesn’t like Mustachio coming near her. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#648
Sep 26, 2022, 06:03 AM
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Congrats on the engagement Sunflower! Very happy for you
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#649
Sep 26, 2022, 07:20 AM
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Congratulations sunflower!
We leave tomorrow and are not finished packing yet. Things keep getting worse. We can't have our car when we move I don't have an extra $500/month for parking and insurance hike. So I have to leave my car.  . Everyone thinks this will be a horrible move. Kinda sucking the enjoyment out of it. We still haven't ported. So I'm really nervous about that. We need to fix that today. I have no idea what'll be required of us to port. But the two places we're looking at a gorgeous. Miguel is already looking at co ops in the area. It's walking distance to the Dr, target, and other stores. I really hope we get one of those apartments.
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Sep 26, 2022, 11:44 AM
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