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#426
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I’m worn out. I did two outings today. One to my psychiatrist appointment and one to the pharmacy. Throughout it and all the walking I hit 10,000 steps. Normally I’m too mentally drained after one outing to do another in the same day but I had to because I needed to pick up my meds.
I’ve basically been doing nothing since 1pm cause I’m so drained from all that. It’s going on 6pm now. I just took a shower. Tomorrow they’re having bingo in the community room so I’ll go to that then a couple hours after that I’ll go to the movie theater to see the movie I got a ticket for. I wish it was night already so I could sleep. I’m scared of starting the lamictal later this week. I always get extremely anxious and paranoid when big med changes are done. Because I have a fear that I’ll just like suddenly drop dead after taking the first tablet or something. I’m sure it’ll go fine, it’s just part of my paranoia. I mean I even sometimes worry meds I’ve been on for years with no side effects will suddenly kill me/poison me. So I guess it’s to be expected to have anxiety when starting/adding an entirely new one
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#427
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#428
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Usually self-diagnosable
Symptoms of bronchitis include coughing up thickened mucus and shortness of breath. People may experience: Cough: can be dry, with phlegm, or chronic Whole body: fatigue or malaise Nasal: runny nose or post-nasal drip Also common: chest pressure, headache, shortness of breath, sleeping difficulty, or sore throat
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#429
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Slow day at work today. I only teach 2 classes. Can't complain. They're Y7 and they're normally good. Fingers crossed!
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#430
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From my portal….
A/P 1. Bronchitis Overall symptoms are improving. Afebrile and no focal findings on lung exam making pneumonia less likely. Symptoms most consistent with post viral bronchitis. Discussed importance of deep breaths. Discussed cough may linger longer than expected given history of asthma. Encouraged follow up if new/ worsening symptoms. - recommended using albuterol 2-4puffs BID for the next 3 days to help open airways to expel mucus then as needed - benzonatate 100 mg capsule; Take 1 capsule (100 mg) by mouth three times daily as needed for cough. Dispense: 21 capsule; Refill: 0
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#431
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My moods are so much better today. Yeah I for sure need the prestiq. I"m still lacking energy and I fell asleep for a couple hours and my mom woke me up and I said "what year is it?"
But I'm not freaking out over the neighbor and I'm making up my mind about things more easily and just not fretting in general.
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#432
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Crazy day and crazy weather! The day was so slow at work I went to Adoration to spend time with Jesus. It did me good. Then I went to my friend's house to talk and discuss the new study we will be doing together. It was a lot of fun. She is so dedicated with her 5 kids and sixth on the way. I feel bad for even bothering her, lol.
A crazy thunderstorm cut our visit short; it was a crazy downpour! I made it home safe though but my Skechers were so soaked. They are drying by the window now; I might not be able to use them for a while. Good news is I had therapy today! That visit was amazing! I am so sad it's just once a month, I told him that if I get this job, I will get more therapy with him. I really hope I get the job. Even better news is, I was looking for something to do in my town and logged back into my NextDoor app and found a job fair at the library tomorrow! What luck! I can't wait to see what's there tomorrow. I ordered some resumes printed and am going to get all dressed up tomorrow. It will be nice to put myself out there in case this job doesn't work out I interviewed for. Oh yes, @Blue_Bird - Thunderbolts tomorrow! @Blueberrybook I love your watermelon! @Moose72 get well soon! @June08 - thinking of you, hope you are feeling better.
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#433
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Lady shadow I’m sending vibes that you’ll get the best job for you, whether it’s the one you applied for or one at the job fair.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#434
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My eye has been twitching a good chunk of today. An elbow muscle has also been twitching a little bit. It could be stress, lack of sleep (I haven't slept well on and off these past few nights), caffeine, or a side effect of seroquel. I've taken a higher dose of seroquel a few nights in a row, but the twitching could just be a coincidence with that. I do have TD meds so, if it keeps happening all day tomorrow, I might try taking one of those pills to see if the twitching stops.
School went okay. I'm very much ready for summer. Mentally, I'm looking forward to the brake. If I end up getting a second job, it will be one that won't take as much mental effort so that would be fine. Tomorrow will be a long day (might end up not posting here) because I have an evening school commitment. I'm trying to decide if I want to go home in between or just stay at school the entire time. Last night was an especially rough night of sleep. I kept waking up and, when I did sleep, it was a very light sleep. Hopefully, tonight will be better. Normally, I'm exhausted by now and ready for bed (it's 8 pm here) but I feel wide awake so things aren't looking good. Hopefully, my depression isn't turning into some type of mood episode. Chicago Fire is on right now, and I really like that show, so I have something to watch if I decide I can't sleep.
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Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 4 mg Quetiapine: 12.5 mg |
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#435
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ive applied to several jobs. we shall see if i pass my boards
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schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
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#436
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It’s been several days since I heard from my long-time friend- the therapist one. I finally wrote him the following a few minutes ago. He read it. He probably won’t reply. I still think his relationship with his wife is messed up but I’ve said my peace about it now so I can just shut up about it now. Here’s what I wrote:
Hi. I’m sorry if I hurt you. That wasn’t my intention. I have been sick since the first and it’s turned into bronchitis. I care for you a lot and would hate it if I were the reason for the loss of our 20-year friendship.
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#437
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I woke up feeling a little dizzy since decreasing the trileptal to taper off it and onto Lamictal. It went away after I took a nap though. This is why I hate med changes though and avoid them as much as possible cause I hate any kind of side effects of withdrawing from meds or side effects from starting new ones. They make me panic. I haven’t had an actual med change in like 4-5 years. Just minor adjustments to the med doses I’ve already been on this whole time. Hopefully the Lamictal is worth the hassle.
NAMI is doing a presentation here in my apartment building on the 29th for mental health awareness month. Today I’m going to bingo and then right after that I’m walking down the street to the movie theater to see Final Destination: Bloodlines.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#438
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I'm a bit off today. Things were going fine: took my walk, showered, had breakfast, then I had a pdoc appt. The appt. itself went fine, no med changes, but when I was in the waiting room waiting on my appt., I got a text from my sister:
TRIGGER WARNING: death
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So I haven't really felt up to art, I read with my SAD lamp; after a time I was able to concentrate some on my book. I'm going to make lunch, stream a show on TV, maybe read more afterwards, it's just kind of a downer of a day ![]()
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen Last edited by Blueberrybook; May 15, 2025 at 12:53 PM. |
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#439
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I'm feeling pretty good today. I slept from 9:30 until 4:30 I think. I had therapy and it went well. I keep rubbing my chest and yanking at my shirt a bit because this monitor is itching. Luckily my therapist wasn't rude and didn't ask to see it.
I took the second iron pill and I'm not having any side effects. I told my therapist about my anger and how my pdoc agreed to immediatly let me go back on the full dose of Prestiq. She thinks it might be because he saw my anger first hand in the session from a couple weeks ago. I mentioned getting pissed last week and that I accidently gave myself my shot the wrong way and now I have a huge black bruise on my stomach. And it was just little stuff like that that I was doing that was getting concerning. But I'm glad things are ok mental health wise today. My GI stuff has been fine for several days. I switched back to the vapor distilled water instead of the walmart brand. Thats the main difference I made. I picked up some more of it this morning.
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#440
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Work
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#441
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Oh my god you guys. I'm having a moment! I need to focus, but I can't! I want to write my novel, but whenever I start it I get blocked or question myself in some way or other and end up starting ALL OVER AGAIN. I need OFF these antipsychotics I'm on!!! They're hindering me! They're POISONING MY CREATIVITY. And focus and motivation for that matter. I'm freaking out, and I just took my afternoon anti-anxiety pills, but they're not helping, and I don't know if they will and I want scream and punch holes in my walls and cry and rip out my hair out of frustration but I can't because my husband would freak the fvck OUT!!!!! I want to EXPLODE.
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The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
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#442
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Therapist friend is silent.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#443
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Seeing my case manager tomorrow to work on section 8 paperwork.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#444
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TGIF
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#445
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I finally tried to distract myself with watercolor painting, and I guess this one was a long time coming:
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#446
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PCP's office just called. I actually am going to see my PCP tomorrow, but my mammogram results from Monday are in, and apparently I need an additional mammogram and ultrasound on my left breast, so now I have to wait for the mammography office to call me back and schedule it.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#447
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Wow blueberry, that looks more like gouache paint than watercolor! It’s intense and beautiful.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#448
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Stunning I love this!
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#449
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Well I was able to give blood today. Last month they turned me down due to low iron. So I went up to three days a week on my iron pill plus alternating between women’s senior multivitamin and an adult senior multivitamin. The women’s vitamin has iron and more of some things while the adult vitamin has more of different types of vitamins. I figured by alternating them I get the full coverage.
I’m still feeling low though so it’s not anemia anymore. All in all things are going well. There’s no reason to feel down, but then I never did have any rhyme or reason for my mood shifts. I have a pdoc appointment coming up so I can discuss it then. But it’s a manageable down, not horrible, but that’s probably because I’m sleeping alright thanks to meds.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#450
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The movie was great and I enjoyed it. But as I was waiting for the bus home I started dissociating severely and having the worst panic attack I’ve had in maybe a year or more. I think I’m just gonna stay on the trileptal. I thought it wasn’t doing much of anything but my body is not tolerating me lowering it at all. So I’ll call my psychiatrist on Monday and let him know I ended up not being able to change over to lamictal and want to just keep taking the trileptal. This is the worst I’ve felt in a long time
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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