Bipolar Check-In #92

Just came up with this:

Mania—it’s all the rage

Again, problems with breathing and poor sleep last night. All day I’ve been lethargic and moody. I’m not sure what’s going on. I’m now fearful of going to bed.

Do you have sleep apnea?

The day is going okay so far. I helped out at church and had an IV fluids appointment, both of which went well. My foot has been feeling okay so I'm going to give some physical activity a try later. We'll see what else gets done on my to do list. Once I post this, I'm going to read at least a chapter of my book. I spent my IV fluids appointment, which lasts about an hour, reading as well so I'm not sure how much more reading I have in me today. But, I'll give it a try.

Mood is mostly okay so far today.

Thinking of all of you who are struggling!

I just took a shower and put on sweats and a Tshirt. It’s been a long day. I made an attempt to clean- did the dishes and took out the trash. The dirtiest stuff! Listened to music earlier and now watching Disney+ show on the behind the scenes of various Disney World attractions.

I just ate Vegemite and cheese on toast. It was so good! Given I never eat bread I’m impressed. It’s just what the doctor ordered. I’ll just stay off the scale haha.

This coming week is going to be GREAT. I have Tuesday off work because I have to take my son into the city to see his paediatrician. Takes about 2 hours to get there. Then I’ve got Wednesday off work because I’m seeing my pdoc. He’s 1.5 hours drive. The drive is okay. Could be better but could be worse. It’s on the freeway. Just hope there are no break downs making me late. I worry about that all the time when I go there. I don’t want to change pdocs because he’s known me for 5 years and he’s pretty good!

That dopamax side effect came back fast. I've been sitting here for an hour just stareing. I finally shook myself out of it but I am tired from the dramamine and Tylelenol PM. I think I'm just super tired but part of my vision is like blackish.

Topamax is just evil. And don't get me started on eating an entire can of beans. The song exists for a reason

My mom just dumped out the entire cat box because ahe thought thw cats were the issue.

I guess a whole can of beans snd GI issues don'f mix.

I'm having certain troubles with things lately and maybe its my wonky intestines causing it. I was thinking of doing internal therapy but I didnt want a hot PT sticking her finger up there. What if I got turned on or something

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Originally Posted by Moose72 Do you have sleep apnea?

yes in addition to heart failure and copd. I use cpap. However, I did sleep a lot better last night ( thank goodness). Thx for responding

I went out last night. I'm hurt, angry, ashamed, and depressed that my friendliness was not returned. The bartender acted like i was doing something wrong. He was warm and friendly with others, just not with me.

I'm aware that people in the service sector are somewhat hostages when it comes to socializing with customers and i didn't persist in trying to chat with him when he was terse. I wish i'd asked him what was wrong.

Does anyone here know why a bartender would be cold to a good customer? (I spent over a hundred dollars.) Has anyone here worked in the service sector and could shed some light on why i was met with such rejection?

What percentage of that >$100 was in tips? That makes a big difference, at least here. If all of that was tips, server could've thought you had ulterior motives or at the least didn't see a reason to put in the effort to try to "earn" the tips, if none of it was tips he may have foresaw based on patterns with similar clientele and thought putting in the effort was hopeless from the get go.

I woke up this morning at 5 in. a lot of stomach pain. It was insane. I wasn't sure if it was muscular or the spinter. I used icy hot and took Aleeve and Dramamine I fell back asleep until 7:30 and I felt fine. I feel decent now. Just unsure of my day..

I'm still not feeling too good today. But my anxiety and feelings of hopelessness and boredom and just my mental health in general are fine again so that was for sure the topamax.

Its just this achy nauseous feeling.

They thought I had heart failure at the ER about 3 weeks ago! Boy were they busily paying attention to me. They took me right back. They thought they were going to have to do surgery! They gave me Tegretol in my IV for pain. Apparently it’s as strong as morphine but isn’t addictive. When the bloodwork came back- they must’ve marked it as STAT- they said “Good news! We don’t have to do surgery! We think the pain is your pulmonary embolism referring pain to your diaphragm which can feel like heart pain. So they sent me home!

Well my injection is lost. They said they mailed it the 28th and we haven't gotten a notice from the mail room.That's the 4-5th package they have lost. I'm so frustrated I need that medication

That really sucks!!