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I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but I believe that I have bipolar bc I don't have the symptoms of schizophrenia, such as hallucinations or delusions or disorganized/incoherent thinking. I have had two manic episodes in the past 3years but have been generally suffering from depression since childhood. Currently I have been severely depressed for about a year. I experience general anxiety and moderate to severe panic attacks throughout the day. I am on prozac...first on 20mg for 3weeks and then on 40mg for a few days till now....the med is yet to take effect. I am also on lamotrigine(mood stabiliser) and buspar(anxiolytic) that makes me calm and less irritable.
I feel unmotivated and disinterested to do anything. Every day seems like a drudge. There's no hobby that I enjoy. I used to love going out to malls to watch movies and/or do shopping/window shopping but now getting out of the house seems almost impossible and even if I manage to go out I feel extremely uncomfortable the whole time. I force myself to do things like watch a soap opera on tv, watch a movie on netflix, listen to music, read a story book or write...hoping that these would become a habit one day and maybe some day I'll get to like them bc a long time back I used to enjoy doing them.... Is there anything else I can do to get back my motivation? Last edited by Anonymous44144; Jun 11, 2018 at 01:00 AM. |
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Hi. Yes, I understand about leaving the house making you extremely uncomfortable. Can you still go for a small walk, maybe to the park and back, or around the block? It might help to boost your motivation in the long term. I actually walk quite a lot even if it drives me nuts, I don't care anymore, but it's hard. So, that helps me in other small ways too. Walking.
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Right now it seems impossible as I m getting panic attacks throughout the day and they intensify when I try to go out. Still I'll try...maybe not today...but after a few days. |
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Hey there! I am addicted to motivation as if it a drug to escape from my trauma. So I am super excited about a new idea and then suddenly it starts to fade with my energy, by the morning I feel super tired just after waking up. I found out personally going out helps well. You may end up questioning yourself "What if I get humiliated, embarrassed, mugged etc.?" but none of it will most probably happen. In my experience.
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Panic attacks, hmm. It might be best to see a doctor first about stopping those panic attacks Desiree2006. Then the motivation will slowly begin to return, I'm sure of it. Hang in there though, you'll get through it. |
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I am taking an anxiolytic for general anxiety but not anything specifically for the panic attacks. I have talked to my pdoc, he is not comfortable prescribing me benzos. And anyways, I have had them before and they didn't help much with the panic attacks. I try to tolerate them...that's all I can do. |
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I hope it all turns out well for you. I have each and every symptom of anxiety and I sometimes feel like I am a textbook of it. Never had (or at least realized I am suffering from) panic attacks, but I think exercising should work. Benzos are very harmful (they sometimes increase anxiety) so that's why your psychdoc didn't prescribe you benzos.
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![]() But I thank you and everybody else for your support. At least I can vent here and get responses. I can feel that some people do care. |
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Sorry you're suffering, Desiree.
There's a self-help book that's been mentioned by others a few times on PC, and I also found it to really good. It's called 'Self-Help for Your Nerves' by Dr Clare Weekes. Her own life was devastated by panic attacks. Some of the things she suggests have an almost instant effect. |
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I have szaffective too with bipolar. I know how you feel that at times you feel unmotivated. I feel this way too at times. I think it is because I am stressed out or depressed. I don't have anxiety attacks. I realized that if I rest or just do nothing for awhile then I get bored and want to do something later. So, it is like a cycle from doing nothing then too much activity resulting in stress then doing nothing etc. Thus, balance is the key. I now do a little bit of this and that and am happy. I still become apathetic from getting excited and doing too much. I have to watch myself. You should have seen me this past weekend. I slept almost 24 hours but finally woke up. I was exhausted. Living with a mental illness makes it difficult to undertake too much stress from work or other situations. I think that knowing your limitations and balancing one's life is key to stability and happiness. I am sorry I am rambling and not making much sense. I hope you find your key to happiness too.
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It's very frustrating! God knows if I m fighting world war 3 or what!!! Jokes apart, I have to be as brave as a soldier and take everything as a challenge and not give up. I am wounded...yes...but still I am a soldier! Last edited by Anonymous44144; Jun 11, 2018 at 09:08 AM. |
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[QUOTE=Purple,Violet,Blue;6156779]Sorry you're suffering, Desiree.
There's a self-help book that's been mentioned by others a few times on PC, and I also found it to really good. It's called 'Self-Help for Your Nerves' by Dr Clare Weekes. Her own life was devastated by panic attacks. Some of the things she suggests have an almost instant effect.[/QUOTE Thanks Purple! But my brain's not working much right now so that I have difficulty processing information....understanding or remembering what I read. So I won't be able to understand that book. It's a shame but that's how it is. |
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I am so sorry you have to go through this.
I suffer from the same condition. Talking about study books, I cannot comprehend what I am reading. I mean, I do read it like a newspaper but it doesn't go right into my memory. It's hard to accept because I wanted to be a doctor. |
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I wanted to study in USA - Univ of Pennsylvania. But now it's not possible. It's ok.I can adjust.I don't have any other option
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I wanted to get into AIIMS.
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I am... I didn't mention it because earlier I did on some other forum and got bullied. Don't mention it since then.
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Did you imagine me as
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Oh ok. Sorry to hear that.
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You're scaring me....though I m an Indian I m scared to interact with Asians. There are reasons but I can't tell you. Anyways tc
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