Weight Loss and Exercise #3

Yesterday I had 2 frappuccinos cause I was stressed. I didn't count my calories or carbs. I will try to do better today, though I'm not in the mood for it. I'm pretty fed up with dieting.

I had goldfish crackers and a slim fast. I tried eating a Panera chicken noodle soup bread bowl but so far I’ve just eaten the soup. Not sure what’s up with my eating. The lady said to me today “so you feel full on a slim fast, goldfish crackers, and soup?” And I’m like “yeah”... because I do...

Today I had a little cup of Lucky Charms with milk at midnight, then some goldfish crackers and an Atkins bar at 3:30. And then I got a plain hot dog from Sonic at 8:30. I was going to have 3oz of roast beef for dinner and a pack of cup a soup for a snack. I have down 1,235 calories for the day including the stuff I ate at midnight.

I think technically I’m restricting today. One of the reasons I wasn’t put IP yesterday was because I’m drinking water.

I did some stress eating last night. I don't feel well today. I'm struggling with my diet. I'm trying to eat right. I think I need to buy some more apples for when I stress eat.

I know I restrict food but god do I feel like ripping out my intestines right now because I ate 2 eggs and an English muffin 3 hours ago. Food just makes me sick.

I'm trying a 21-day vegan kickstart program starting tomorrow. I won't be perfect. I won't eat meat. I might still have a little cheese and a little dairy. Just because I just bought those things. I already gave away a ton of food that's not good for me like turkey and cheese. I will do my best to focus on beans, fruits, vegetables and grains. I bought mustard and non-fat dressings and a vegan mayo. I even bought tofurkey for sandwiches. This is harder than I thought it would be.

So, I signed up to try out the Health Coaching from Fitbit since I just can't seem to manage on my own. I don't need a trainer; I just need someone to check in with me daily to encourage/motivate me and remind me of my goals. I just started but I already feel hopeful that it will help. Just knowing another person will actively check in with me is helpful.

My goals this week are:

- 10,000 steps a day
- 3, 30-45-minute cardio workouts
- Average 1700 calories per day

Yesterday I got all my steps in and took 3 long walks with my dogs. I went a little over on my calories because I had a tea latte in the morning to help combat a migraine, but I still was under my calories burned so I'm going to call that acceptable. I had a break through in therapy and recovery the last month or so as I have realized that it's my OCD that really creates barriers in my diet and weight loss. So I'm just trying to view every step forward as progress and if/when I meet my goals that's a win and cause for reward/celebration.

Well, I did not get to workout today because my knee started bothering me. But I did get my 10,000 steps in. Diet was okay. Im icing my knee now and I took some Aleve. I think increasing my walking ton10k steps (where it has been in the past but the last month it's been less for sure) probably just irritated it a bit.

I did well yesterday. I had a little bit of cheese and I mainly ate vegan. I did have a frappuccino, but I got it with almond milk. The sugar wasn't that helpful. I was stressing out though because of a rough day. A frappuccino helps to soothe my nerves. Today I will cook some meals. I hope to make it easy for me to eat something that is vegan instead of falling into bad habits.

I am losing the battle again,not gaining but not losing weight!

I went to the doctors this morning and I was 5 pounds less just since Friday. I’ve lost 10 pounds overall since thanksgiving. The weight loss has been a combination of choice and not a choice.

My diet is basically: cereal, chicken noodle soup, Goldfish crackers, Slim Fast, and sometimes 2 eggs on an English muffin if I feel I can handle it. I usually get peach iced teas with Splenda every morning. Yesterday I had about 1,425 calories in 13 hours. I think that is ok and isn’t too much. The extra calories were from a single serve container of Cheerios and 1/3 cup of milk which I didn’t finish.

I am being told to eat 1500 calories a day but that is just too much most days.

Yesterday I was so exhausted I only did 7200 steps and I didn't do my final walk of the day. I also ordered fried food for dinner.

This morning I woke up and ran/walked 3 miles though so off to a good start.

I lost a couple of pounds. I'm trying to do well. It's hard. This morning I had a vegan burrito. It was dry. I wanted to put cheese sauce on it but didn't. One thing I find difficult is that I eat and 2 hours later, I'm hungry again.

I got some cheese fries from Sonic at 8AM but they gave me chili cheese fries instead. I was annoyed but I ate them and that and the bowl of blueberry Cheerios with 1/2 cup of milk I also ate this morning helped me be productive today. For lunch this afternoon at 1:30 I had some soup and dinner is going to be 2 fried eggs. I also had a caffeine free coke and a couple unsweetened peach teas with Splenda. It will be 1,235 calories for the day.

I made a vegan potato salad and vegan spaghetti. Both were really good and filling. Now I need to come up with something for dessert.

There is still no weight loss progress for me but also no weight gain.I will allow this to continue and start strict calorie counting in the New year!

I had a pear for dessert last night. I wish I would have had something heavier. I woke up later and did some stress eating. It wasn't too bad. I had chips and salsa and sugar-free chocolate. Still, I wish I would have had a cup of soup or something.

I had 2 Oreos, and a serving of goldfish crackers for breakfast at 7:30. I had a bowl of blueberry Cheerios around 10:15, a 20oz cherry Vanilla Coke at noon and an Atkins shake at 1:45. I was going to have my usual 2 eggs on an English muffin for dinner. I have down 1,185 calories and that is pretty accurate since everything was measured or counted. I just kind of forgot about eating today.

I had to shrink some of my clothes since I don’t want to buy new ones. I’m glad all my appointments are virtual so no one can get on my case since they can’t see all of me. My primary doctor never asks about my weight loss or food.

Down to 142 lbs. Yay! I thought I gained but I lost. My goal is to get to 120

I binged last night. But it wasn't really bad. I had a big bowl of oatmeal. At least it was healthy. It's still not helpful though. Wish I could get this eating under control.

I’ve been kinda holding back on eating today. But I’ve still been eating. I’m glad no one in group can actually see me or anything like that. I’m getting in trouble for wanting to lose weight. But I know what I want and what I want to look like so I feel like it’s my choice and not there’s. The only reason I wasn’t put IP last weekend was because I’m drinking water. I also just lose track of the time and get involved in TV shows for hours. I’ve lost 11 pounds since Thanksgiving.

I ordered MCDonalds for dinner tonight,Big Mac fries,chicken dippers,chilli sauce,creme cheese n chives sauce,diet coke and 2 hot apple pies.
I ate it all and enjoyed it,I don't feel guilty,I am happy I ate it.I found a download book how to control binge eating,the book says if you have to binge there is only one rule,do it mindfully and make sure you enjoy every mouthful,have no regrets and make it count.If you binge and don't enjoy it and spend hours regretting it that is bad for you and stressful.Just make sure you enjoy it and after get back to being careful what you eat and your diet.So that is how I deal with it and it works since I starting making my binge eating sessions for to enjoy I have binged less and stopped myself having lots I shouldn't.I am managing not to gain weight.That's a result,next step is to lose weight!

That's very interesting and makes a lot of sense, thanks for sharing that! I'm glad you were able to feel good about the binge session and enjoy it

Since I'm eating vegan throughout the day, my calorie intake is really low. By the time midnight rolls around, I am hungry. So I grab the first thing I can find. Tonight it was chips and salsa. I ate too many chips. It upset me so I threw the whole bag away. I just can't eat stuff like that. I have no control. I still have pretzels and hummus. Hopefully, I won't overdo it on the pretzels. But I don't think I will buy anymore. I need pita chips or something to go with my hummus. Or maybe fresh vegetables. I can't have Ranch anymore, so vegetables in hummus should do the trick.