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I am not sure where to post this but i wanted to ask for your thoughts. I was robbed at gunpoint last night in front of my apartment. As if the world weren't a scary enough place, now this happens. sigh. i'm not doing so well and i'm scared to go back there (i'm at a friend's house now). i don't know what to do. i called the police and all my credit card places and everything...but i'm still scared. i'm feeling very lost and very small and insignificant right now. please keep me in your thoughts.



-shadow

oh ((((((((((((((((( Shadow )))))))))))))))))

That's such a horrible thing to happen to you. Thank goodness you weren't physically hurt. Perhaps when you feel ready, you could go back to your apartment with your friend, who can help you to look around to help you feel safer. You could also buy some kind of self-defence weapon to help you feel more protected. I'm really sorry that happened. Are the police helping you in any way?

Shadow,

I think your reaction is completely normal and healthy. You have every right to be scared! I know I would be. When you decide to return (if you decide to return), maybe take a friend with you and go during daylight hours. At least at first.

Personally, I wouldn't blame you if you decide you want to move. Whatever you decide, I know you will make the choice that is best for you. Thinking of you. Take care.

{{{{{ Shadow }}}}}

I'm so sorry that happened.

I can't even imagine it.

Have you talked to your T?

Sending you safe, warm, healing thoughts.

Petunia

Shadow, do you have a T you could talk to? You're probably feeling violated after the robbery and it would be helpful for you if you had someone to talk about it. We'll help you as much as we can so please keep posting.

Like 1dayatatime2, I think your reaction is normal and healthy and that you're handling all of this exceptionally well...(I would be in complete meltdown state). But it might be beneficial to talk to a T since you were held up at gunpoint....it might haunt you for a while and I would hate to see that happen for you.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((shadowdancer)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Hugs, Flutter

((((((((((((((((((shadow)))))))))))))))))))
I am so sorry this happened hon You are in my thoughts and prayers and I am sending you warm fuzzy thoughts....
I wish I could do more,
Love,
Fuzzy

((((((Shadow))))))))))
I'm so sorry
Be safe.
C

((((Shadow))))

Gee this is a terrible thing and such feelings of the victimization! Call the police dept back if you have no one else, and ask for any victim resources they have. Glad you're around to tell us about it... (((hugs)))

thanks so much to all of you here who have responded to this. i'm still not doing so well. i'm jumping at shadows and i haven't been able to sleep. i AM back in my apartment. i have my roommate here so that helps. i am terrified to be out after dark now which sucks since i have a night class.

i do have a T and my appt is wednesday...she's gone til then so i'll have to wait. i could talk to the on call T at the school but i don't feel comfortable doing that. i'll just muddle through. i'm about to break open the sleep pills though because i have to sleep.

the police have little to go on and probably won't be finding whoever did this. they were very kind though (the police) and helpful.

my main problem now is that i feel so guilty for all of this. i know that sounds dumb but i feel like it's my fault it happened. i feel so stupid. that is gonna be the hard part of this. i can see it tied into my past... i know the guilt isn't just from this...i just can't seem to make it go away. sigh.

thanks so much to all of you.

(((((((((((silver queen)))))))))))
((((((((((1day))))))))))))
(((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((flutter))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((fuzzy))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((ozzie)))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))
(((((((((((((((cms))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((sky)))))))))))))))

please continue to send good thoughts my way. i have a feeling that it's only just begun.

-shadow

Sending you all my best thoughts, you are in my prayers dear
((((((((((((((((((((((shadow)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

PM me any time if you need or want to,

Love,
Fuzzy

{{{{{ shadow }}}}}

Take good care,

Petunia

(((((((Shadow)))))))))))

good thoughts, as requested

Be easy on yourself, OK?

Caroline

thanks to all of you

(((((((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))
(((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))
((((((((((Caroline))))))))))

to keep you all posted...
a detective called me the other day and had me find through my cell phone company if any calls were made from my number before they closed the account out. there were so i sent them to him. he now has some mugshots for me to look at tomorrow to see if i recognize anyone. i'm nervous... i hope i do okay. i'm still not sleeping well...and i do not like going out at night but i am doing a bit better i think. still having some rather intrusive flashbacks... hopefully talking to T about it tomorrow will help some more.

keep me in your thoughts thank you for all of the hugs. i've really needed them of late.

-shadow

Shadowdancer,
Good luck tomorrow with the detective! You will certainly be in my thoughts-- keep us posted.

Not to sound negative ... but it took me many years to get rid of the flashbacks of a weapon pointed at me. It may not take you as long-- since you are in therapy-- but still--- be gentle with yourself and take as much time as you need to feel better.
I hope you are doing a little better each day-- remember-- we're here for you!

mandy

((((((((((((((((Shadowdancer))))))))))))))))))))))
I am So sorry that that happened to you. I hope you are able to identify him so that he is put behind bars.
Be kind and gentel with yourself.
(((((((((((((((shadow))))))))))))))))))))
skylarks

((((((shadow))))))

{{{{{{{{{{{{Shadow}}}}}}}}}}}}} Sending you thoughts of strength and peace. You're in my prayers, Hun.

Have you thought of putting maze on your key chain? Only thing you have to be careful of is if YOU have a breathing problem. It would affect you, too, if you had to use it. You could also put a can on your front door, somehow, in case someone tried to break in through there. They'd be pushing that can of maze at you... easy to grab and use. Just my thoughts.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

((((((((((((((((((Shadow))))))))))))))))0

Thinking of you.


Hugs,

Jen

((((((((Shadow)))))))) I am so sorry this happened! Thank goodness you are physically ok. I don't even know how I would feel if something like that happened to me. You are in my thoughts. Take care of yourself.

-Jennifer-

((((((((((((((((((((((Shadow)))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that happened to you. It is good you have a friend to be with right now. When you are ready you will go back. Have someone go with you. Please try and be safe within yourself. My thoughts are with you

(((((shadowdancer))))),
Only saw your post today, so sorry, none of us need another PTSD trigger.
Want to say more, but afraid of triggering everyone, maybe PM, but don't want to trigger you.

{{{{Shadow}}}}}

I just saw this.

How scary.

Take good care of yourself.

I just saw this post too. I do hope the detectives can give you some information so that you can point to who it was. I know that looking back, I really wish the police could have caught the woman that pulled the ID theft on my Mother.....& I know who she is. I feel that if I could have put her behind bars for doing what she did to us, I would feel so much better.....instead of her getting away with it & doing it so another person dying of cancer.

I can understand the feelings of not being able to go back to where the robbery happened to you.....especially how it happened.....my situation was no where as life threatening & I still have problems going back there......at first I needed someone....now my dogs are sufficient.

It is best to take someone with you.....the comfort is amazing. I also hope you can find some finality & the police can be more helpful in your case then in mine. It is horrible realizing that someone can get away with doing something so horrible.

Hope you are taking care of yourself,
Debbie