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![]() ![]() I will be far more wary of people from now on - especially given what just happened with the couple I recently met, and also what happened with my old college friend! People continue to prove to me that I cannot be so open or inviting. But like I've said above, I am a hippie and I hang out in a hippie, love everyone type of crowd. And I will not change my scene just because I need to be more wary of people. I love the live music AND the culture, but I'm just going to not be so open anymore. I won't change my locks and there is a good reason for that, which I will not get into here. I really also don't think it's necessary. Hugs to you and thanks so much for dropping in on my thread!
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#528
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This is simply an addendum to a post I made earlier regarding music/singing.
Another possible musical option could be meetups for Karaoke. I realize doing Karaoke is not to everyone's taste. But if you want to wet your chops with singing around others, could be a good safe starting place, and a place to meet others. Or buy your own karaoke machine or a karaoke app for your phone or laptop to have fun with singing at home. You can cast the lyrics to your TV so you can dance or move about while reading the lyrics on a big screen. Although, if you desire the social aspect of going to a karaoke place with people that you will eventually get to know, join a meetup. Great way to build a new social circle doing something you love. |
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#529
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#530
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It's been 3 days of no contact. I guess my last text to him worked to keep him away. Very interesting. Being mean paid off.
I have no doubt he is looking for new supply to replace me, even though he last claimed to me that he has no interest in dating. I highly doubt that. Narcs have to have supply - they feed and live off of supply. The more I read on my abuse forums, the more educated I am on how he operates and the more sickened I am by him.
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#531
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I just realized that less than 5 days is the longest I’ve ever gone without speaking to him. So after tomorrow, I will have hit an important milestone!! I’m excited about that - it’s the small successes we must celebrate in addition to the bigger ones. And I’m doing pretty well today in fact with all of it.
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#532
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I know you already are aware of many of the points I made. I just feel very protective of you, as I'm sure many of us do.
He might be waiting for a length of time until he can find an excuse to swan back in, and parade his new "supply" in front of you. That would be textbook. Be prepared for it. Sending hugggs! ![]() |
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#533
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I blocked him on Facebook, so I cannot see anything he posts about any new supply. And yes! I am preparing for that next.... I know it's coming. UGH. Yuck!
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#534
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I hope the slug leaves you alone now, Have Hope
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#535
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Thanks!!! I’m sure more is coming…
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#536
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I have my 1st narc abuse support group tonight. I am really looking forward to getting additional support from peers and others dealing with the same exact things.
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#537
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I think these groups will be awesome for me and very therapeutic, especially since I don't have a therapist.
I think I may be codependent - well, I know for certain that I have been in some of my abusive relationships, the ones I did not walk away from quickly enough once I knew it was abuse. I tried to fix and help the person instead. That's codependency - and I did that with my husband too - tried to fix and change him. So, yeah, I am codependent and must learn how not to be that way anymore. The more I learn, the better off I am. I am educating myself every morning about narcissism on YouTUbe. There's a psychiatrist I listen to who is amazingly helpful and informative about this personality disorder. There's a support group I will join eventually for dealing with a narcissistic parent. Though my father is gone now, that's what I grew up with, and lo and behold, I've ended up with many narcissist men. Multiple at this stage. So, I have a pattern of abuse, and specifically with narcissistic men. Time to break the pattern, and it traces back to my relationship and childhood with a narcissistic father - this is my healing path now. This is my learning ground and where I will grow.
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#538
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Wonderful! I love the group idea. The more you learn, and the more you understand that it's not just "you", the faster healing will begin, and the stronger you will be.
These people are so adept at taking advantage of our best qualities, and snowing us under in the process. We become a bit blind to other possibilities while we're in the middle of things. You may be a bit co-dependent, but you were also very much in love, and you do have a wonderful, caring nature. I think you did the best you could do, under the circumstances. Because as soon as you recognized his patterns, you were willing to think of things in a completely different way. And you've taken steps to protect yourself, and start a healthier way forward. Congratulations on being so willing to admit to different aspects of all of it. This is a very positive way to be. ![]() |
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#539
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But I never truly fell in love - like butterflies, get excited to see them kind of feelings. I grew to love him, but I was never in love. Weird, huh? And I married him. I will be honest, and I've said this before on here - I wanted revenge on my ex fiance who had broken my heart terribly. And I wanted to get married because I was 48 years old and had never been married, let alone had hardly lived with a man. So, while I may have grown to love him in the sense of caring about someone, I never was in love and that's probably why it's easier on me now to separate.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes Last edited by Have Hope; Nov 10, 2022 at 08:08 AM. |
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So, I heard from him last night. He broke no contact and our 5-day silence. It was yet another outpour of emotion, so I grey rocked him, kept my responses brief and emotionless. He said he's hit below rock bottom, that he is not well and that he often feels he doesn't want to be here anymore.
What am I supposed to say to that? I've already told him to see the therapist once per week and to talk to a doctor about meds if he is depressed. What more can I do? Nothing. He's also repeating himself.
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#542
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This is emotional blackmail, which is trying to cause emotional pain if you don't do what he wants. Grey rocking and referral to doctor/therapist is a good plan.
If he says he is in imminent danger of hurting himself or others, such as saying that right now he has a plan and the means and he is going to attempt, you could call the police. |
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#543
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#544
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Emotional blackmail is never okay. It is more manipulation, and pretty cruel and thoughtless, considering he knows very well what has happened in your life. Keep a journal of this stuff! Times and dates. Threaten legal action if he breaks the 'no contact' again. Watch him snap-to real fast. |
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#545
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Abso-effing-lutely.
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#546
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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#547
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WOW - just WOW - can I please get some opinions on this?
That male college friend of mine? Who offered to pay my legal fees, who tried to tell me that he is OK with me approaching a certain man that I found attractive, acting a little possessive of me as though he's my boyfriend? Well, he butt dialed me last night TWICE at 1 AM and woke me up. I texted him at 7:30 AM to let him know and to ask if he meant to call me. NO REPLY. By 2:30 PM, I sent another text, and NO REPLY, so I sent a final text at 4 PM saying "Ok, you're not replying. I don't understand why, or what I did wrong. Thanks a lot". So, HE'S pissed at ME for setting a boundary with him apparently?!? I told him directly that he is NOT my boyfriend, when he said to me that it's OK with him if I approach another man. So, I gather that that offended him, and that this is why is he now not replying! WTF is wrong with some people?!?!? I swear. I do nothing except go out and pretty much try to mind my own business and just have fun. I try to meet nice people and I keep meeting these low lifes! Yeah, it must be the crowd I am hanging out in - I need to diversify! I am not going to stop seeing music, but the people I am meeting at these shows are below par and I am frustrated and sick of it all. GGRRRRRRRRRRRR.
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"Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes Last edited by Have Hope; Nov 10, 2022 at 06:18 PM. |
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#548
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Sounds like (if he's not busy) he's playing mind games, same as your ex is
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#549
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Yes, more mind games, and more immaturity! I am SO sick of people and of men!!!!!
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#550
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Another example of rules never applying to him and disrespect of your boundaries.
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