Roll call

Well, if I can't stop you, I can't stop you. Enjoy the noodles. I love ramen noodles, and I can't have them.

Meat, cheese (or, failing that, other dairy products), eggs, avocados, beans, even brown rice in a pinch. Tofu and soy products.
Ramen doesn't have any protein.

Probably meat, cheese and eggs are your best bet for what costello is suggesting, though.

i just found some candy at the bottom of a drawer in the fridge

Why can't you have ramen?

FACK THAT man.

You're preaching to the choir here, sister. I've had all these same thoughts. If he's going to quit taking the meds as soon as we take our thumb off of him, why not explore alternatives? At the very least we can avoid the rebound when he quits cold turkey. And maybe he could learn some coping skills along the way.

Shiny, shiny logic doesn't convince psychiatrists, though. I've never really figured out what does.

ETA: Coping skills aren't really big in psychiatry, either. Everyone has chemical illnesses in the face of which they are helpless, dontchaknow.

Oh, if you're vegan (like me) then eat anything else on that list. I live avocados because they can be made into guacamole, but that's just me.

I eat low carb.

im not vegan
its ok
but anyway
im gonna go brood.

Carbs are the best part of life.
I miss bread.

Me too. Since I started eating a lot of fish, I've added back in things like bread and rice and potatoes. First, because I'm still hungry after eating fish and veggies. It's really not like having a steak - where you're satisfied. So I added in the other stuff.

Second, I always lie to myself when I change my diet. The current lie is that all that omega 3 will fix my metabolism, so I can go back to carbs.

It's not true. I've gained nearly 10 pounds, and my blood pressure is going up.

Bye bye, carbs. As of today, I'm back on the wagon.

Come to think of it, why didn't I have some ramen noodles while I was on my carb fest? I really do love them.

I've been constantly hungry since I got diagnosed with coeliac disease. I eat some fish, but as you say it's not very satisfying. The same thing with rice.

Also, I think something in the psych meds switched on a "pasta gene" or something. I was never really a carb-eater before, but as soon as I took clozapine it was like I would die if I didn't have refined wheat products in my mouth at all times.

"Everybody" does this. We're designed to like fatty and sugary foods; and we're not especially smart about avoiding them when we can get them. Don't beat yourself up over it.

Is the wagon necessary? What about the moderation train? Or the occasional treatmobile?

The wagon is moderation.

Oh, I always hear people talk about the wagon as strict adherence, like the sobriety wagon.

Hi all, today we loaded our rigs and have hit the road. We are @
My sons and he let me use his I phone so I just wanted to drop a line and say. I'm Ok
and we are now headed 2900 miles east. I'll check in as I am able. I hope you are all doing okay. Smile it will make your face happy and it's contagious...just for fun stand on the street corner and look at the sky, you'll soon find everyone around looking up. Just tell them your looking at the beauty of gods creations...it's marvelous what the responses are.

wait a min
i found som nyquil
started taking it likek shots

now im outt??
it my lucky day

Had a horrible day today. Of course there is the fact that I didn't sleep. I get these nights occasionally with one extreme being total insomnia and the other being hypersomnia sleeping 12-14 + hours a day. In other news for some odd reason the voices have been bad today and usually my voices are just a couple of times a day with seeing things as well. Today it has been constant. When I got up this morning I was hearing talking between two people (of course mom and dad.. the usual) that wasn't out of the ordinary since it was in the middle of the night and I couldn't sleep as mentioned before. In fact I wrote some of the posts in the middle of the night my time. Then music started coming out of my computer. I thought it was an ad (it wasn't Pandora or YouTube playing None of them were going on at the time) so I shut down everything on my computer and it continued. Some of the music had words, other songs had just instruments playing. It got worse from there. When I was at a place when there was no one in the area, I heard this young female voice (maybe teenage to early adulthood... I am 29 though) that was making fun of me and calling me worthless and stupid over and over again. More stories like that throughout the day. I am embarrassed about one of the things that happened and that was I saw the blinds on the windows doing weird colors between the blind and thought for sure it was a code for an alien attack. I am so scared and I don't know if it is sleep deprivation (I don't think just 24 hours would do all this and more) or something worse. I have actually been getting more hallucinations (according to outsiders who tell me that they are not real) as the days progress. I am scared that I am going to go in the hospital and I refuse to ever go back. I am also scared of that I am thinking more and more about hurting myself. I know I have been depressed since March of this year (at least more depressed than my usual self) and had some so called "psychotic" symptoms since then as well. I do have a stressor coming up and that is my mom's billionth surgery. She has 1-2 a year... at least. That is if no infections which she gets a LOT of because of realism. I hate being a realist but in reality it means I am more in touch with reality than the average population. Mom is real to the extreme. That was my exciting day.

i f'ing hate when it thinkk an ad but its not man

more stress.
insurance only covered half of hospital stay cause psychdoc cut me off.
SHE cut me off.
F**K.
i quit seeing my therapist cause they ALL let me down.
therapist knew id be paying.
f**king hell man.
f**king have no money.
F**K

Yeah. My son ended up with a $42,000 bill for an month-long stay in the hospital once. It ended up being one of the main factors that tipped him over into that last really bad episode.

Avoiding hospital bills is one huge reason to stay sane. Abusing Nyquil and Xanax is likely to result in more hospital stays.

In Kansas when you apply for Social Security, you can then go on a temporary state program that gives you cash, food stamps, and Medicaid. It's meant to be a stop gap while you wait for Social Security to come through for you. Anyway the medical benefits can go back 60 days before the date of application. If you have the same thing in Texas, it might help with that bill. Of course, my son didn't have any health insurance at that time. Sounds like you're on your dad's policy? I don't know how that would work.

I'm really sorry you had a bad day. It does sound hard. Probably it's just because of the stress of your mom's surgery. I hope you're back to your level self again within the next couple of days.

idk what a policy is
im undec my mothers insurance.
i amso sorry im really f'd up right now
i know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about medical stuff, insurance, and ...anything like..that yea

i have a lot of bills one me right now from childhood that my parents didnt pay and i have no money and am gettingcalla ffrom colectorsz.

i just man...
i have no money man
you know...and the churrent bills arent my fault my parents just didnt pay and i know not one thing about money or insurance or anything. those billz are what stressed me into the hospital and my dads drinking. its just numerous bills dating back to when i was 8 years old or something now its on me? ;'(
i didnt do anything man ;'(

ugh man and then heres more bills
my stressors were here ehen in got outta tha hospital. my dad pickede me up drunk man.

i never do this. abusing crap. this and when i was 15 is when i did. thats all. i never did this stuff really. i cut myself usually. cutting doesnt pass the time though right now. it just showsz time. even still i dont really cut or abuse stuff. im not a drug addict or anything. if anything im a self harmer. most of the time i shove it back into the bback of my brain thats all.

f**k!!!
F**K

You aren't obligated to pay bills from before you turned 18. Those are your parents' bills, not yours. They can pay them or not as they wish, but no one can force you to pay them.

Bankruptcy's an option for any bills that are yours - except things like student loans.

You do have a lot of stress on you right now, and very little support. Please don't start abusing medications and drugs. That won't solve anything and will only add more problems.

This is why you need your own income, your own medical insurance, and your own place. But to get those things, you have to go make application for them. A good mental health case manager can help you with all this, but you have to be willing to go down to the mental health center and ask for help. I don't know what's available there, but your situation might qualify you for some kind of immediate housing through the mhc.

I am watching tv with my bride. I worked earlier and I've read the newspaper and exercized by walking downtown. I did a load of laundry and dishes. I made dinner and put away the dishes. Sleeping will be easy tonight. i'm tired.