[71421]

Hey,
I think it's time I introduce mysf.
I'm a 20 year old aa female.
I do not take medication, nor do I revive therapy of any type.
I'm here cause I'm tired of being this way.

[Row Jimmy]

Hello everyone. I am recently diagnosed with mixed state rapid cycling bipolar. There's a good chance I've had it for 20 years and either never knew it or was in denial. However, I feel a bit liberated now that I am able to understand why I act like I do. I'm getting a better idea of what to do and how to handle certain things. To be honest, I didn't know much about it until the doctor told me what he thought. I finally went to get some help at the urging of my wife.

I am looking forward to reading and contributing.

Um, hey....
still trying to navigate around this site...
I'm female, late teens, and I've just started seeing a doc.
he hasn't classified what type it is....
I don't know what else to say really...

[kaybae218]

HI! i feel like i posted this like 5 times. i'm new and dont know how this works. but Im Kayla, and i am a senior in high school, at 17 years of age. I was never diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, but i think i am. i show the symptoms of it. Although this is a stressful year for me, deciding where to go for college. I know i want to go into the nursing field because i want to help people who need it because its just what i love to do. I'm not sure if its the stress thats causing it or i jsut dont know. i need advice. i'm terrified to talk to my mom about it, she'll be judgemental and tell me that its high school, that im just stressed and ill get over it. but when i cannot control my moods, cant control how angry i get and then the next minute im laughing my *** off. or my crazy episodes when i hate everyone and everything. JUST HELP?? what do i do?? could i be Bipolar??

[Leafeon]

Hi there! I just signed up so I'm still figuring out how this forum works. I'm 26 years old, female and married, and I was diagnosed with Bipolar Type 2 almost 4 years ago. I've been on medication (Lithium and Clonazepam when needed) ever since and am currently shopping around for a new therapist. Looking forward to connecting with some kindred spirits

[PseudonymMan]

Hi, I am a 20 year old college sophomore studying engineering. I have not yet been diagnosed with bipolar either. However I have an incredible memory and can remember events almost from birth and my reactions to those events that are very bipolar in nature. Since highschool I was bullied severely which also attributed to severe anxiety I still suffer with. My mood seems to flucuate with the seasons. I completely fall apart sometime around spring and then began escalating into extremely delusional mania. This was so bad before that I was sent to an inpatient facility. I made a quick recovery, but nothing was done to address the actual issue. They believed it was just depression every time when in all reality it wasn't. I know this personally because it is all marked with extreme racing thoughts. I can actually play a song, do a math problem and maybe think about other parts of the country in my head all at once. I am not crazy and I do not hear voices in my head but this has been very traumatic. I feel like no one will listen to me because they think I'm trying to self-diagnose which I'm not. I just want help. Whatever type of disorder this is it sure does seem to me a lot like bipolar and I was wanting some advice as to the best steps I could take to getting a proper diagnoses without people trying to immediatly cram medications down my throat. This has taken a toll on my relationships to the point where I can't really even keep friends. I hate it and I want to do something about it. I want to make friends without pushing them away.

[manicdepressivesun]

Originally Posted by deprofundis

Morning, all. My name is Rene. This is the first time I've ever considered talking to other people on a message board about my condition, my problems, my ongoing battle with Bipolar I, dissociation/depersonalization, and OCD tendencies. After 7 years of misdiagnoses (and a 2-year stint of intense treatment for Dissociative Identity Disorder, which I didn't have), I was finally diagnosed properly and put on the right medication. I'm a working professional and reasonably stable but with an everyday baseline of lingering depression. My life is empty. I don't do well with people. I've never had a single romantic relationship before, only brief encounters. I feel highly uncomfortable in crowds and around people I don't know. When I'm at work, that's the only time I can keep it fully together -- I literally split, into a different kind of person, to keep super-stable in my job and be able to handle being around other people and deal with my many responsibilities. The moment I walk out of the doors and get into my car to go home, though, this persona drops and I'm often then overwhelmed by exhaustion, irritability, and simmering depression. I don't know where I'm going in my life. I turned 27 this year and, while some people think that's young, considering what I haven't yet achieved or even gotten close to achieving, I feel like a complete failure. No relationship, no further in my chosen profession, no graduate degree, no financial stability, loads of debt from manic spending sprees, etc. On top of all of this, every day I think about the darkness. The days spent locked in my room, completely overtaken by severe, psychotic mixed episodes, filling whiteboards with what I thought was the secret of life itself... cutting, picking, and being self-destructive. Loss of any and all control. And, now, I constantly feel the need, the urge to get it back. To let go. To give up and let myself fall back into the darkness.

I guess I just didn't know where to turn, and so I turned here.

Hello Rene,
I can understand how you feel, especially with the "split". I am 23, but feel like I haven't accomplished anything besides graduate college, but even that seems silly since I studied Psychology. Go figure. I work in the metal health field but sometimes feel like a hypocrite because I can barely keep it together. Furthermore, I have been very unstable with jobs-- for the past year I've gone through a pattern of obtaining a job, getting bored, doubting it, quitting after a few months and jumping into another. I impulsively moved to Arizona in February after getting out of a hospital stay for depression, but i am staying in a small condo with my mom's friend and it's not the best place. I gave my two weeks notice yesterday and will probably move in with my mom, which may help as she is a happy, positive and supportive person who I love and get along with. I want to start therapy because although I take lithium it isn't always enough. I still feel myself slipping. I hope you find the support you need and I hope I do too. I'm new also.

[Rayray2863]

Originally Posted by 71421

Hey,
I think it's time I introduce mysf.
I'm a 20 year old aa female.
I do not take medication, nor do I revive therapy of any type.
I'm here cause I'm tired of being this way.

You have made a good start by researching support like this. You should also look into local outpatient facilities to help you understand, control, and help you even further. It sucks, but just know you are not alone.

[Gmeister]

This is strange, I'm normally a very private person...but I guess at some point I should share...I am a 29 Years old, not married, living with my two dogs, Doberman and Great Dane.. I have my own business but pretty much up to my ears in debt...so even though, I am doing well financially, it isnt enough to upkeep my life so I constantly find myself in financial trouble.. I have been diagnosed around 3 Years ago and always knew I was way different than anyone else I knew...I believed and still believe I was meant for and destined to save the world...sounds stupid apparently but, I have very good reason to believe that..

My problem in my life came when I was admitted to a hospital for a Manic Episode and again later on for a Depressive episode in which I attempted suicide..I have tried that a lot in my life, but no one knew, this time, my father apparently found me after I had swallowed all my meds I had in stock knowing that a massive supply of Seroquel would most likely do the job...

Anyway, I am getting off topic. I have always been a positive and strong, charming person by heart but sometimes my mind doesnt agree. I have done well in my life from what I can recall but lost everything as quickly as I had gained it.

The last few weeks I have been up and down like crazy and found myself to be particularly low and hopeless but with tons of energy and then suddenly happy the last two days.. Knowing my past when I get like this, I am scared and to tell you the truth, I only joined because I feel I needed to vent.. I am seriously not someone who talks about my emotions because frankly it sometimes feels embarrassing because of all the cliche'd movies we have seen of people sitting in a room staring at the subject and him turning around and saying: 'Hi, I am Bruce" and everyone goes: "Hi Bruce" - But regarding, Hi, I am Bruce...oddly, my name is Bruce..he he

I am really here to say hi to all and to have myself acknowledged and read other's posts. Please people, don't welcome me and say: "Don't worry, your not alone" because at the end, it is the thing I despise when people have told me that before. I am alone right now, at my computer and besides, telling someone that with an immense amount of emotions is definitely not going to help, it only makes me feel like some unique club that you are obviously not a part of. And maybe not today for me but a lot of the times, it is an amazingly, awesomely, fun and happy place...

Welcome all and thanks if you read my post!!

[Bi-overit]

Hi, I'm a 25yr old male who has recently become a father to beautiful little boy and has a supportive partner that through the ups and downs I either push her away and distance myself or become needy of her attention and support.

There is a history of suicide in my family and this makes the constant thoughts about suicide feel so much worse and the guilt for thinking about it. Being a new father and my father committing suicide along with my mothers father committing suicide. These feelings are horrible, I had a manic episode two months ago, where I felt invincible at my job and completely broke down on the Saturday, where I set out to break up with my partner an take custody of our little baby (even though that night I was talking to people i worked with about proposing to her). After following out these sequence of events, I waited at the front door on on one knee to say how sorry i was along with proposing.

At this point I knew I needed to take or attempt to control these highs and lows. I saw a doctor and he mentioned it could be bi-polar as through this manic phase I wasn't sleeping, buying things that i normally wouldn't and distancing myself from my partner, feeling invincible. I saw a psychologist that week and agreed that medication (I have thought that medication was something I needed for sometime as I didn't think it was healthy to be this up-down). Saw a psychiatrist who brushed over my symptoms and how I was feeling in 5 minutes and said you obviously have a history of mental illness in the family, but I see people far worse than you and it's hard to answer questions when your in a sort of hyper state as you have that sort of confident feeling.

I took a week off work to see the right people, and was openly honest with my employer to only be terminated from my job the following Monday a day before my 6mth probation period was up for no reason explained. I found out last week that the reason I was sacked was due to my manic phase people in the workplace thought I was using ICE/ METH and the
CEO of the hospital wanted to drug test me at work as it was so apparent I was using (NOTE: I have never smoked ICE or used it), however seeing as though I was still in my probational period, they terminated me.

Something I think I'm realising is that alcohol and drugs (illicit drugs) are not something to be mixing with our personality, thoughts anyone?

Nice to feel apart of something.

[Gmeister]

Originally Posted by PseudonymMan

Hi, I am a 20 year old college sophomore studying engineering. I have not yet been diagnosed with bipolar either. However I have an incredible memory and can remember events almost from birth and my reactions to those events that are very bipolar in nature. Since highschool I was bullied severely which also attributed to severe anxiety I still suffer with. My mood seems to flucuate with the seasons. I completely fall apart sometime around spring and then began escalating into extremely delusional mania. This was so bad before that I was sent to an inpatient facility. I made a quick recovery, but nothing was done to address the actual issue. They believed it was just depression every time when in all reality it wasn't. I know this personally because it is all marked with extreme racing thoughts. I can actually play a song, do a math problem and maybe think about other parts of the country in my head all at once. I am not crazy and I do not hear voices in my head but this has been very traumatic. I feel like no one will listen to me because they think I'm trying to self-diagnose which I'm not. I just want help. Whatever type of disorder this is it sure does seem to me a lot like bipolar and I was wanting some advice as to the best steps I could take to getting a proper diagnoses without people trying to immediatly cram medications down my throat. This has taken a toll on my relationships to the point where I can't really even keep friends. I hate it and I want to do something about it. I want to make friends without pushing them away.

Hi PseudonymMan,

I can certainly understand your feelings as I went through a lot of the same things which led me to this point minus the bullying fortunately.. My ex suspected it in my very early 20's but I believed I was special as I was unique to anyone I know..and my ex's kept telling me that but fortunately for me, they loved my uniqueness... Years of crazy times went by and I only got diagnosed at age 26 after I was going through a Mania episode..a year later, another Mental trip because of deep depression and an attempt at suicide..

Here is what might help you, I have always been an incredibly private person and have a set list of things that I want people to see about me. I have learnt that being Bipolar in public is fine and fun...people love the eccentric risk takers and they pile up to be friends with one. The problem comes when you know that you are Bipolar...and worst yet, tell people that you are...the quickest route they can take to back off is what they will do and sadly only one person out of a hundred might stay.. I personally wish that I was never diagnosed because you become so aware and obsessed with what mood you might be in. When I am Manic, people keep reminding me to slow down and I don't want to..then I become agitated and it just never ends well.. When I am depressed, everyone who isn't Bipolar or depressed who knows what I have...then tells me that I shouldn't worry because everyone has they're ups and downs and that they also sometimes go through this. As Bipolar s, we are unique in such a perfect way that as sad as things are, the ups are not ups, its practically God-like, and let me tell you, they have no idea how awesome that feels... I am getting off subject..lol..sorry..

A diagnosis sucks...it drains me to this day...because in my mind, it is better to believe something about yourself than for some pdoc in a white suite telling you that you are ill when all your life you believed you were unique.. Your mind races more knowing this and your depressions last longer because you linger.

On the other hand, we are not all the same, for instance, I also have quite a bad case of OCD and Anxiety which is sometimes easy and manageble and helps me out in my daily life as I do things well and sometimes it is just out of control crazy. Some people are less introverted and and and.. I am everyones best friend when happy manic and dont get in my way when I am angry manic, leave me alone when I am depressed..period..lol..

Again, the diagnosis is up to you...you seem like one of us...but think about it first..and meds...again, up to you..I hate meds and barely take them..I try to find other means to help...but meds didnt help me, but maybe they will work for you. I can tell you that Therapy is important... My girlfriends helped a lot in my life...that was before my diagnosis...now I battle a little finding someone who cares as my mind races all over when I take someone out because I am scared that I might chase them away..again..watch out for that diagnosis...before, I knew I was important..now, I still know I am but what if I am just some sick headed dude like the docs so nicely camouflaged the outcome and wording..

I hope I helped a little in a decision.. its info I could have used before but wouldn't have helped because I was admitted involuntarily so I dint have a choice in my diagnosis really..

But you do...consider all things and remember, even family drifts away when they know your secret..

Wish you all the best..and I am here to talk if you need to :-)

[iaem85]

Hi I'm Isa and I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder 6 years ago.
I had always had a lot of ups and downs and mods switches during my entire life and I thought I was crazy because I could not control it.
As a teenager I was a real rebel and besides my mother's attempts of making me go to therapy I never took much interest in it.
Nonetheless when I was 24 I had a very bad depressive episode that ended up with a suicide attempt. That's when I was first diagnosed.
I was very reluctant about taking the anti depressants and mood stabilizers. But by the end I started taking them.
The side effects of the mood stabilizer were so severe that I simply stopped taking it after 2 months. I never told the psychiatrist or my mother since the pressure and the demand of me getting well was so high.
I kept with Zoloft though, after one year and a half I also quit the antidepressant.
I just hated the idea of needing a medicine to be well, I thought I could manage by my own.
I did, with ups and downs, many episodes of uncontrollable anger. Until it finally hit me and my level of energy went lower and lower each day. I went back to Zoloft that got me out of the depressive mood but put me in a hypomanic state during the whole last summer. Afterwards my mood state was just so weird I could not keep up with it. Now I know I was going though mixed states which culminated with me 2 weeks ago trying to kill myself again.
I am now on sick leave from work, seeing a therapist once a week and soon enough I will start with Lithium, once my blood exams are checked by the psychiatrist.
Since the day I got the diagnosis of BD six years ago I have not really accepted it. In the beginning I just felt relieved that there was indeed some chemical unbalance in my brain, and there was a reason why I acted the way I did. After that I never really wanted to think about it and I thought just having the meds would help me.
Recently I'm trying to accept it and also understand I need more structure and discipline on my daily routine. It has been quite hard and it is still sinking in.
I thought joining an online support group would be very beneficial since I only talk about my BD with a friend of mine who also has it.
Since I have been living abroad for almost 5 years, it is easy for me not to mention what I'm going through to my family, specially to my mother.

[tentoedsloth]

10 years ago I was hit by Something that seemed like intense anxiety and insomnia to me. All the professionals kept calling it depression. Well, of course I did get depressed from the lack of sleep. Anyway, I kept thinking there was something more going on in there.

Amitriptyline gave me back the sleep but I was still being tormented by Something. Lamotrigine (150 mg) started 7 years ago made a lot of it go away and life was good maybe 50% of the time.

A couple of weeks ago I found out that the current doc had diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder at the latest appointment and the one 6 months before. A couple of years ago he had diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder, but only once.

I've never been manic so I thought, no way, but after reading more, I'm thinking maybe. Sometimes I'm really, really happy and life is simple and fun and I love everybody and they seem to love me, but I don't know if that's normal or not. Other times life seems like a curse that I'm sorry I inflicted on my children. And sometimes I get really, really tense and feel like everything's going wrong and I feel pressured. So that's a strong maybe.

I doubt there's anybody who can read all these introductions but I read the two above me and I can identify with both of them.

I am relieved to finally have something solid to work on.

[MB85]

Hi I am a 30 married woman. I was diagnosed with bi-polar 4 years ago. Currently I am on Gabapentin 800mg 3x a day. It does not seem to be working anymore and no nothing has changed and yes I am taking it as prescribed. I see my therapist May 1st and I am wondering what works for others with their bipolar? I am desperate, any advice would be superb!

[Keith2k15]

Hello Everyone!

Firstly, thanks for accepting me on here! Not really sure were to start but I will have a go.

I have a long history with Anxiety/Depression and had been put on anti-depressants and Diazepam approx. 13 years ago. Around this time I attended my GP who told me he would like to do a referral to Mental Health Assessment Team as he thought I may have Bipolar.

I was quite taken back by this and decided to change my Doctor as I did not want to be labelled with being Bipolar. My father has Schizophrenia and a younger brother has Bipolar also.

I was brought up in the care system since I was around 1 year old and spent the next 17 years in care homes/foster carers.

As a bit of background: I also spent sometime in a children's Psychiatric Unit (not quite sure why to be honest - although my current Psych Nurse has requested the archived notes).

I have experienced anxiety/Depression since the age of 15 years old. Over the years I became dependent upon the Diazepam and had become addicted to them.

I have been in Psych Hospital previously for multiple over doses as I would have drank alcohol to try and supress the feelings (mostly in a depressed state) resulting in taking over doses.

Mid March this year I was on a 'High' for almost 8 weeks (very little of which I remember) and lost approx. 4 stone in weight in this period. I really cannot account for much of this time and this is very frustrating.I was taken to hospital by Ambulance as a fireplace and mirror fell on top of me ( I don't know what I had done but apparently my neighbour heard this and called Ambulance). I stayed in hospital for 2 days (mainly due to the amount of alcohol in my system and the consultants concern about my mental health).

I then spent 2 and half weeks in a Psych Hospital. In this time I had detoxed from the Diazepam and alcohol (only on diazepam prescribed by the Doc x3 5mg tabs daily).

On discharge the Consultant Psychiatrist had discussed with me that he thought I had PTSD, Underlying Personality Traits (vulnerability - what ever this is?) and wanted me to attend day hospital 3 days a week for assessment for Bipolar.

I have been attending the day hospital for approx. 5 weeks now and in this time my Psych Nurse has mentioned that he has noticed that I had been very depressed for a couple of weeks and they became concerned about a change in my behaviour (I went on a 'high' for about a week) then crashed down to depression - sometimes there is no middle ground were I feel 'normal'.

He has also said that he has noticed quite a drop in my weight again and has asked the Psych Doc to see me ASAP.

Sorry if this is dragging on....I'm trying to out things into context and struggling with my concentration also :?

Can anyone relate to this?......

Sometimes I can feel a 'High' coming on and sometimes I can't (confusing). When I am high I do some very embarrassing things such as buying 12 pairs of trainers instead of 1 pair! Randomly and without thought sleeping with people I would meet online (something I would never do at all), spent an excessive amount of money recently on a business project that I had previously (whilst feeling level headed) agreed was not salvageable, Stay awake for a week or so without feeling the need for sleep, always taking on more than I can manage (and what I do take on I rarely finish), sometimes I feel irritated for no reason and frustrated that others cannot keep up with me.

There is quite a bit more I could add about my 'Highs' but the list appears endless!

Sometimes these 'Highs' are enjoyable, I feel I can get a lot more done and I welcome these sometimes when I have come out of a period of feeling depressed as when my mood is low I often feel life is not worth living, I am frustrated and embarrassed by my actions at times, the debt I have incurred through stupidity, not wanting to get out of bed, panic attacks at the thought I would have to venture out, even to the local shop for milk! It is really a dark, dark place to be as I am sure most here can relate to.

Recently I attended the local Emergency Department as I could feel the onset of depression after a 'High' and was getting urges to self harm. This is the first time I have actually sought help before things got to out of hand - I followed the advice given to be by my Psych Nurse....I was experiencing constant thoughts of death and obsessing over it, I was hearing voices and noises at home (I live on my own so quite scary), I could not really make sense of the voices I was hearing and could maybe only make sense of a few words - sounded more like rambling, I also felt cutting sensations on both by arms and was getting these extreme urges to cut my arms (something I have never done).

After attending the Emergency Department, the Crisis Psych Team wanted to admit me to the Psych Ward for my own safety. However I really did not want to go back to that environment and agreed to the Psych team calling at my home the next couple of days until I was due back in to the Day hospital a few days later to continue my assessment.

I get confused and frustrated at myself as these episodes are becoming more frequent (with shorter periods of normal moods in between - sometimes I just go from one extreme to another.

I get frustrated that at times I am able to see when I am getting 'High' or 'Low' and also the fact that when I am 'High' I do not always remember what I have done....just does not make sense?! How can I forget things like this??

So, currently my Psych Nurse has no plans to discharge me from Day Hospital, I do feel like I am in Limbo as I do not know what is going on and my Psych Nurse thinks I might have Bipolar....He has asked the Psych Doc to see me sooner rather than later as he feels I might need some medication for my moods (becoming erratic lately - ups and downs- sometimes change every week or so with no normal mood in between).

Sorry to be rambling on and sorry if I have not put things across clearly!!

By Psych Nurse has the best of intentions but is constantly forgetting to request PSYCH Doc to see me (day hospital is quite under staffed at present). This makes me feel as if no one really cares and sets me off feeling depressed.

I know you guys/girls are not here to do the PSYCH Doc's job, but just wondered if anyone can relate to any of this....like I say I feel as I am in limbo not knowing what is going on....

Any advice would be appreciated.

Thanks,

Keith

[bipolarbrother]

Hi, I'm new to the forum. I've been diagnosed bipolar in 2010. I recently came across this forum and it has really helped me to understand myself better. Thank you for this valuable resource.

[BrazenOcean]

Thanks for the welcome! I was referred to this forum by Moodswings research forum as a place where our people could legally share information - since that is a violation of Moodswings. I go by Brazen there. I also happen to be schizoaffective, though I spent the past 15 years thinking I was bipolar, I recently was diagnosed all over again. So anyone from Moodswings, send me a line if you want my email.

[lookinside]

Hello, I was diagnosed after a hospital stay for suicidal ideations (that never actually went away) but I have taken hold of my life again with medication. I was on less helpful forums recently and thought this might be better for my mental health. Thank you for your time, I've been having some trouble reading for long periods so I might not finish long posts.

[Mmss88]

Hi all, my name is Mairin, Im from San Jose CA and I attend cal state university Monterey bay as a Social work major. I grew up in an environment with alcohol and severe drug abuse, as well as copious amounts of emotional and physical abuse. My mother passed away from cancer when I was 9, leaving me stuck in my fathers toxic life. My aunt and uncle took me into their home when I was 15 and have been my guardian angles ever since! I have struggled with clinical depression since I was 13 and bipolar since I was 15. I am currently 18 and have been trying to find an online community where people were still active, and would find support around the struggles and issues that I live with in my day to day life. I'm hoping to find a good support system and am more than excited to become a member of others support systems!

[lookinside]

Well fingers crossed for the activity, I'm new as well. I'm sure it will be rewarding. It is lovely meeting you, good luck Mairin

[hey1991]

Hi, i am new to this process im not entirly sure how it works, im looking for information and or to chat with other people with the same illness (bi polar).

[ivylynore]

I've had bipolar disorder since the early 2000s but I just finally decided to really do something about the mania side, which has been getting me into trouble for a long time (though I was in denial about it). I joined a research study on Lithium a few months ago. I'm currently taking 1500mg. I'm here mainly to talk about others' experiences with Lithium as I decide whether it's for me, and what's a temporary effect as I adjust to a new dose vs. a long-term side effect.

[lookinside]

Originally Posted by ivylynore

I've had bipolar disorder since the early 2000s but I just finally decided to really do something about the mania side, which has been getting me into trouble for a long time (though I was in denial about it). I joined a research study on Lithium a few months ago. I'm currently taking 1500mg. I'm here mainly to talk about others' experiences with Lithium as I decide whether it's for me, and what's a temporary effect as I adjust to a new dose vs. a long-term side effect.

That is a really high dose of lithium, at least it would be for me, I was having a lot of side effects at that range.

[bipolarandproud]

Hello everyone, I'm very happy to be here. I was diagnosed with bipolar I about a year ago and my life was chaos and symptomatic for the last 14 years or longer. I'm 27 now, trying to study at university but I keep changing my subjects and never finishing anything I start. I also have ADHD so that's that. I've been on lithium for 9 months, it didn't help against mania or depression... gained 60 pounds and now my doctor prescribes me Zoloft, Abilify and Concerta. I like that mix, I just still get quite manic when on it. Nothing seems to help to really stabilize me. When I'm manic it's really bad, I build companies and never follow trough with the ideas of course, spend 6000 $ in one day and 20'000 in a month even tough I don't have that money. I totally ruined my parents finances with my actions- they hate me for that, are disappointed and treat me like I was mentally deranged ever since those events. Great. But still I am proud of living with bipolar, it takes so much strength and courage to face this illness everey day. We can all be proud of ourselves! It also makes me super creative, which I love. If anyone of you ever comes to Switzerland- let me know- I'd love to meet you! I am so happy to have found this forum and to see there's people who are facing the same issues as I am and that I'm not alone in this. that is so empowering!

[evolve]

Hello group. I am a RN student with an interest in mental health nursing. I am here to become more educated on mental health specifically BP. I believe that learning from people that actually endure the trials and tribulations of BP is the key to providing competent nursing care. Thanks for allowing me this opportunity.

Originally Posted by Merlin

Welcome to our forum! Come in and introduce yourself to other members!! This thread is place for new members to get the attention and feedback of the older members, or older members to give more information about themselves. They can discuss diagnosis, treatment or another other topic of their disorder and older members will respond.

I created this introduction thread due to the number of introductions posted on the "Bipolar Chat" sticky. The Bipolar Chat that I lead is now scheduled on Fridays at 9 PM EST. It will cover a variety of topics which will be posted in the chat announcement and outlines will also be posted for those unable to make the chats. The first Friday of the month Wingin'it will lead an open Bipolar Chat. Those will Bipolar are also invited to the Depression Chat on Wednesday at 9 PM EST, but there will be significant overlap in topic.