Bipolar check-in #70

I have to agree with thatcher, if you’ve made no enemies you’ve not done much. An opinion shall always piss off someone, just cause it’s not the same one they hold.

Then I’ve not done much as I’m not in the business of making enemies.

I don't like having enemies, not at all. It can sometimes even be scary. But sometimes it seems to have happened, anyway.

And yet, ''Experts'' who were in my life told me I had ''not done much''...(or that I ''kept making mistakes'' etc.. you get the drift..) those were the sort of ''Experts'' who would have profited more from self examination and self awareness rather than projecting and judging.

Oh gosh! The hospitals are full around here. My sil has to spend the night in ER because there’s no beds!

That happens in my town a lot as well. Every last time we would take my brother it would happen. I am sorry about your sil though.

Thanks Fuzzy !

I’m so glad to see you around. Much Love

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I found out today another little way my world has changed with this precancerous cell mess.

A friend on facebook was complaining about how hard it is to get a doctor appointment for anything anymore, listing various specialties. I nodded along, agreeing in my mind.

And then I remembered the high risk breast clinic having to cancel my first appointment and when I said "oh, that's ok, take your time" they said it was important to get me in. Since at the time I didn't know that I was high risk I thought that odd and they got me in 3 weeks later which is like hours in relative time to my hospital. When they wanted an MRI in 6 weeks it was scheduled in exactly 6 weeks. For the rest of my life I'll get in for mammograms and MRIs every 6 months without any scheduling difficulties and if I find a lump I'll get into high risk clinic rapidly and then get imaging rapidly. When I have post-op in 2 weeks I have a mammogram scheduled. Based on my prior experience in that clinic (breast surgery vs. high risk) they'll probably do ultrasounds on my various lumps in both breasts, plus checking on my new lump either with 3D mammogram and/or ultrasound.

It's weird. In comparison I had to wait nearly 2 months from meeting my surgeon to get my gallbladder out even though I was miserable. My ankle surgery was scheduled 2 months before it was done. They schedule everything way out. But now, in this one area, I don't wait.

It's weird.

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear I've never tried bok choy. Hope you enjoy

Oh, bok choy is tasty. Sort-of...a tiny bit bitter, but also sweet. I don't think people eat it raw, I think it's meant to be cooked. Fried.

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Originally Posted by Nammu Ohhh, my son-in -law is in the ER. Pneumonia. He had a fever of 105 and low sodium, whatever that means. Sounds like they are. Going to admit him.. I’m so strongly wanting to say to them that this would be a good time to quit smoking, but that would be mean. But it is what goes though my head. They both smoke and their whole family is always getting sick.

Oh, Nammu - low sodium can become dangerous. And 105 is high! Yikes, smoking....

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird I won a prize at bingo, was a beanie hat which is cool because I love beanies. And some toiletries. There's going to be yoga classes the next several weeks in the community room. They're an hour long. I plan on going to them. It says all levels are welcome. Sent from my M8L using Tapatalk

That's terrific, the prizes! I started doing yoga after Noah was born in 1989. I still do it. Yoga is so good.

I looked for chocolate chip pumpkin bread in a nice grocery store, but found only pumpkin spice I'm dreaming of it with choc chips...

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Originally Posted by Nammu ... Anybody know how to prepare and cook bok choy 🥬! Never had it at home before. Got two bundles of it. .???

Bok choy is excellent in stir-fry. Maybe with cubed chicken, bean sprouts, other types of veggies, and all of it over rice (either white or brown; if white, I personally love Jasmine rice). I used to cook bok choy often when the kids were growing up.

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Originally Posted by Nammu I have to agree with thatcher, if you’ve made no enemies you’ve not done much. An opinion shall always piss off someone, just cause it’s not the same one they hold.

You have (imo) a mature take on it, Nammu. The poem was hard for me to take. But, you know...it speaks to life.

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Originally Posted by Sunflower123 Then I’ve not done much as I’m not in the business of making enemies.

Maybe you're not old enough to, yet. And maybe I'm not, either. I don't know. People who are older seem much more okay with not being always liked than younger people do.

There was a man my husband worked with, a long time ago, and he once told David he didn't like me. I was devastated! I was always friendly and very polite to the man; how could he not like me? We'd barely ever spoken. ??? Who knows. Perhaps I reminded him of someone in his past. Maybe...something else. Maybe he misunderstood me. He was a suspicious guy. Most importantly: maybe his dislike of me had absolutely nothing to do with me. One thing's for sure, his disclosure to David sure taught me something about not taking things personally.

That poem was a tough one for me to swallow! ...so "gritty." So Thatcher. It literally stings me to read it. But - I think Nammu makes a very realistic point, when all is said and done.

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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow I found out today another little way my world has changed with this precancerous cell mess. A friend on facebook was complaining about how hard it is to get a doctor appointment for anything anymore, listing various specialties. I nodded along, agreeing in my mind. And then I remembered the high risk breast clinic having to cancel my first appointment and when I said "oh, that's ok, take your time" they said it was important to get me in. Since at the time I didn't know that I was high risk I thought that odd and they got me in 3 weeks later which is like hours in relative time to my hospital. When they wanted an MRI in 6 weeks it was scheduled in exactly 6 weeks. For the rest of my life I'll get in for mammograms and MRIs every 6 months without any scheduling difficulties and if I find a lump I'll get into high risk clinic rapidly and then get imaging rapidly. When I have post-op in 2 weeks I have a mammogram scheduled. Based on my prior experience in that clinic (breast surgery vs. high risk) they'll probably do ultrasounds on my various lumps in both breasts, plus checking on my new lump either with 3D mammogram and/or ultrasound. It's weird. In comparison I had to wait nearly 2 months from meeting my surgeon to get my gallbladder out even though I was miserable. My ankle surgery was scheduled 2 months before it was done. They schedule everything way out. But now, in this one area, I don't wait. It's weird.

It is....creepy. Or can be. My oldest sister retired long ago, but she was an MD. She told me once that if you have lab work or imaging done and don't hear anything within a day or 2, it's a good sign. If they hold off your appointment for a long time, it's also a good sign. And, if you have lab work or imaging done and they say, "Oh, the first" (whatever) was hard to read, or wasn't as clear as it should have been, or any "excuse" and they want to do the lab work or imaging again, it's time for at least some concern. But, she also said, sometimes "a cigar is just a cigar," so to speak. So not to always worry (I always worry, she was always level-headed).

I really REALLY hope I'm not about to add COVID to the list of my troubles. I woke up feeling hoarse and achy, but didn't think much of it. I talk people's ears off with sales and I always wake up with some sort of ache and pain. I took appropriate medicinal measures (Aleve and cough drops), but it got worse, namely with the addition of loss of taste to my list of symptoms. Loss of taste isn't necessarily COVID, but it's not "not COVID" either. I left work early, went to the doc who gave me the swab up the nose test. I learn the results first thing in the morning. Here's hoping it's negative. Quarantine sounds like no fun!

It is weird when someone we've always been friendly and polite to doesn't like us. It bothers me too when it happens to me. And I do believe it is much more about him than about you (or me) Someone only the other day said to me about not taking things personally.

That poem, ''gritty'' (exactly my thoughts) Yes, tough to read but interesting and in a way quite wise.

@Nammu, here are a few recipes using bok choy that I have made, if any look good to you. The tofu one with pepper is very heavy on the pepper and salt. Keep that in mind. The others are far milder.

Tilapia Bok Choy Foil Packets | Sweet Ordeal | Low Calorie

15 Minute Stir-Fried Chicken and Bok Choy | A Mind Full Mom

Black Pepper Tofu with Bok Choy | Feasting At Home

Appointment with med dude this afternoon. He was in good form, friendly. We discussed, he concluded that my meds are okay where they are...which is Lamictal, Gabapentin, and the monkey on my back, K-pin. The time for me to come off Klonopin is long, long, way overdue. Since stopping on my own ends up with awful w/d effects I'll be seeing a specialist who will set up a situation so I can stop taking the stuff without nearly dying. Maybe a "cross-over" plan (low dose of Valium while decreasing the K-pin, thereby lessening the heavy w/d effects).

I'm busy admitting to myself that I am bored. No - not exactly bored. Mis-placed. I come from a city where I raised our family, began volunteering when I was 14 and kept on volunteering until the kids grew up. I went to a large, inner-city high school with great friends I still have - but who are miles away now. Inner city college. Inner city jobs. Even the cafe (inner city) was a hub of activity - art, music, lots of music, thinkers, doers. A block from a university and never a moment when I had to watch the clock. My shifts flew by. I spent my life planning, cooking, baking, sewing, creating, taking care of, dah, dah, and dah. I freakin' sat in traffic every single day. Many times a day. "Oh, my Gawwwd, the traaafickk" *rolls eyes*

Then for one specific reason I had to suddenly move to a town. A town with a Main Street. So cute. Main Street. I like my apartment and people are friendly, I'm friendly. There's no traffic. I miss sitting in traffic! I miss seeing the heat rise off the cars in front of me and I miss the movement. I miss the dance of a city, it made me appreciate the trees more.

I miss my life.

I have to figure something out.

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Originally Posted by Aurelius710 I really REALLY hope I'm not about to add COVID to the list of my troubles. I woke up feeling hoarse and achy, but didn't think much of it. I talk people's ears off with sales and I always wake up with some sort of ache and pain. I took appropriate medicinal measures (Aleve and cough drops), but it got worse, namely with the addition of loss of taste to my list of symptoms. Loss of taste isn't necessarily COVID, but it's not "not COVID" either. I left work early, went to the doc who gave me the swab up the nose test. I learn the results first thing in the morning. Here's hoping it's negative. Quarantine sounds like no fun!

Ugggh, I hope not, hun!

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear It is weird when someone we've always been friendly and polite to doesn't like us. It bothers me too when it happens to me. And I do believe it is much more about him than about you (or me) Someone only the other day said to me about not taking things personally. That poem, ''gritty'' (exactly my thoughts) Yes, tough to read but interesting and in a way quite wise.

I remember Thatcher all too well. Sure did not like her politics, but- she was a contender!

And that guy? Ha, he was such a creep. As the years went by I decided I was glad he didn't like me. Why would I want such an icky person to like me?

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Originally Posted by Soupe du jour ... 15 Minute Stir-Fried Chicken and Bok Choy | A Mind Full Mom Black Pepper Tofu with Bok Choy | Feasting At Home

Yes! Tofu with bok choy is excellent.

With @Blue_Bird's chocolate chip pumpkin bread for dessert.

The thing with covid is for so many people it IS totally random and they never know where / who they got it from. Like I’ve said before all you have to do is walk past one person in a shop who has it - just one random person in a random shop - and then you suddenly have it. There doesn’t have to be anything else to it. Having said that being run down and eating too few calories would definitely make your immune system more vulnerable to catching it.

Did you guys in the US do all that contact tracing and checking in to shops and everywhere else with QR codes during the height of the pandemic? When that was happening people had a good idea where / when they caught it but they don’t do that anymore so we all just have to assume that anyone we come into contact with even for a brief moment could have the virus and pass it onto us.