Bipolar Check-in #87

Just got back from an early visit to the beach with my son. Bliss. Going to visit my daughter later on. This day is perfect.

These are gorgeous and i looove the uncomplicated style.

I went back to bed after about an hour. Great dreams of being in some expensive high rise , I had a big huge truck and Sir was there. I put sir in the back of the truck and backed up to two other animals. Went to the fancy food booth and got red and purple vegetables for me and ground meat for sir. But went the bought it out it was green veggies.

After that I went and did errands. Got my library book. Need to finish the other one though. Nearly done, then I can start the new JD Robb book.

Speaking of periods, ooh not sure i want to get that up close and personal with my body products. Im not particularly squeamish but big fat no from me. I got some magic panties for my old lady leakage issues and its like - where am i supposed to wash these? Where i BRUSH MY TEETH?? An IUD gave me MUCH heavier periods - granted that was almost 50 years ago, the Copper-7.

Yeah, the copper one will make periods heavier/more painful, but the hormonal ones like Kyleena, Mirena , and Liletta (autocorrect did not like any of those names) are supposed to ease things up. Supposed to… (many times do!)

(You wash them in the kitchen sink where you wash your bowls and apples, duh!)

(Edit: or the library bathroom. What happens in the library bathroom, stays in the library bathroom. Except herpes. Herpes comes out of the bathroom).

My gp wanted me to go on Mirena again for heavy periods. I had it years ago and it did work quite well. My periods were so light and I hardly had them. But I was too chicken to get it inserted again. You can always look into menstrual cups but I found they made such a mess. All depends on your comfort zone I guess.

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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots Yeah, the copper one will make periods heavier/more painful, but the hormonal ones like Kyleena, Mirena , and Liletta (autocorrect did not like any of those names) are supposed to ease things up. Supposed to… (many times do!) (You wash them in the kitchen sink where you wash your bowls and apples, duh!) (Edit: or the library bathroom. What happens in the library bathroom, stays in the library bathroom. Except herpes. Herpes comes out of the bathroom).

Yeah, generally the copper ID is supposed to make periods heavier...but it never has mine. I had my first Paragard IUD until my daughter was 4 and we decided to try for a second baby (never happened). Finally, I decided I was too old, the risk factors that could happen with a pregnancy and to a baby were too much, got a 2nd IUD, that was just before I turned 40. Actually, my periods never did get heavier on the copper IUD, just a couple days longer. Now they are super light (TMI but I could use 1 regular pad for 24 hr or longer if I didn't change it for hygeine reasons), I suspect it's the start of perimenopause.

Oh, on the effectiveness of making periods lighter, I had Liletta and definitely had lighter periods! They just would come as frequently as in three week intervals or as long as a year apart and my PMS was sooo bad physically and mentally. Only started my period in a psych unit for a few years pretty much. (Again, I’m told I’m a weirdo in this way. Not trying to advise for or against)

I had horrible pms, now days they have a term for pms that’s that bad. I’d cycle in the hospital once a month. It was awful. Menopause was the best thing that ever happened to. Me. If it wasn’t for the two episodes that happened after menopause I’d think it was all down to monthly hormones.

I decided to voulunteer first. My sister also said volunteering first would be better. I would get used to people again and I wouldn't have such a strict schedule.

This heart stuff is pretty freaky. I get out of breath doing Iight house work and then I need to chug a bottle of water and lie down to feel better.

But I do feel better mental health wise now that I've decided to do volunteering first.

I wore my clear glasses today and they don't look too bad. Especially with a beanie hat and a hoodie.

Oh my god. Feeling nauseous here guys. Feeling nauseous. 🤢 Just self-published two of my books. Well, the first book, an anthology of my short stories, is coming out on the 26th, and the actual novel is coming out on the 31st. Both are available for pre-order on kindle, so I have to get my booty marketing.

I don't know why I'm so anxious. I wasn't last year when I published my other books, but I think that's just because I was in my spring upswing, and the spring upswing doesn't seem to be happening this year! (Well, at least not yet. It's still kind of early I guess.)

Oh my god. I feel so sick though. Seriously, I need a hug! 😭

About periods... not to be tmi, but I'm allergic to pads (so forget about tampons!), so I was looking into other options too, but nothing looked appealing. I'm not sticking copper in my uterus, I can't take any birth control with hormones in it (they ALL turn me into a raging bytch the entire month), and the diva cup looked too messy, same with the period underwear. So I'm just sticking with pads (and having itchy lady parts for seven days out of the month!).

Sorry. I know that wasn't very helpful. I apologize @Victoria'smom.

@Mountaindewed

Have you had your blood cell count checked? Anemia can cause heart problems. My heart used to race whenever I laid down, and I couldn't walk anywhere without feeling fatigued. Could you be anemic? I don't know. Just an idea I'm throwing out there. All I know is that ferrous sulfate saved my life!!! I feel SO much better now! Like want to give my GP a hug next time I see her.

@raspberrytorte I had my blood cell count checked a couple months ago. My hematrcrit was a bit elevated. That can cause a lot of my issues. But it wasn't high enough for my endocronogist to be worried enough to send me back to the hematologist. My white blood cells were normal. Things could be different now though. I had to go for weekly blood tests for about a year in 2022 to check on the level.

My Pdocs nurse is leaning towards the Geodon. Idk whats going on.

I've cut back on caffeine though and I'm taking my meds more regularly.

Oh, forgot to add, got myself down to 20mg of diazepam from 30mg. Was okay for the first couple of weeks, but then the anxiety hit me hard and I almost had a panic attack one morning and HAD to take my morning dose and half a seroquel.

Told my husband what I was doing with my diazy's and he got PISSED. Told me to start taking my full dose again, despite my protests that it was just diazepam. He insisted I had to go through my psychiatrist, and I don't want to do that because she just takes me off things cold turkey!

I don't LIKE being on a fudging controlled substance. Ugh!!!! I know I need it, but it's only a matter of time before I get some moron who's going to take me off it in a week. I'd rather do it myself, at my own pace!

Okay. Ranting over. Lol.

Good evening. I’m feeling better. No longer dissociating or panicking. I played my videogame for awhile. It’s called Life is Strange 2. It’s in a series of let me think….5 games if you include the prequel. Really really good storytelling games. I love them so much. Anyway, that helped ground me. And relaxed me. Yay for videogames!

Tomorrow I have to go to Walgreens to deposit some money onto my debit card. Other than that not much going on. Just cleaning and practicing violin. I was gonna practice violin today but never got around to it as I was dissociating most of the afternoon. But I definitely plan on it tomorrow.

I took my night meds. Washed the dishes and the kitchen is clean for tomorrow. I just hate waking up to dishes so I try to always make sure there’s none left before bed.

lol 😂 blue 🐦 that picture looks like a story to be told. Just finished watching Flow, a cat was the main character. No humans, no talking. Very good.

I am exhausted, but for good reasons. Today, I went to the dentist, met a friend for lunch, worked in my classroom a tiny bit, went on the longest walk I've been on since I got sick in 2023 (50 minutes), cleaned my bathroom, and cooked dinner for the next few days. My dentist appointment went fine. I inquired about a night guard because my jaw pops but, even with insurance, it would have cost $200 so I had to pass. Lunch with my friend was okay-she was a little passive aggressive about something and dismissed some stresses that I have though. I didn't get to the grocery store, so I'll have to do that sometime after Mass tomorrow.

My mood was stable today-just normal emotions and a few passive SI thoughts.

I took my nightime blood pressure after listening to music in bed for an hour and its 131/100. I hope I don't die in my sleep.

I don't feel like going to the ER either. I'm worried they will admit me. I don't know.

I'm not paying any attention to this measles stuff since I'm vaccinated. As Savannah said on the today show "its not me"

It was so lovely seeing my daughter. We had a lovely lunch then we drove her 1.5 hours back to her place then the 1.5 hour drive home. We only do it every other month. I got her a visa gift card because I know she’s struggling financially.

Thanks everyone,

You know what is weird? When I was coming off a benzo before, I was continually getting pink eye. I just suffered through it bc my son never got it. It was really strange?..

So adorable! Reminds me of my cat Tiger pooh bear!

I'm sorry blue bird. But man this thread moves fast! What is going on with your heart and eyes if you don't mind me askin?

I understand. But a lot of psychiatrists will take you off slowly. Mine is. I haven't started yet but will.

Well my caregiver that I love had to quit. She said she just couldn't continue doing the stairs. She's 60 and has had 2 mini strokes.

She said if she was 50, no problem but she can't risk breaking her hip or something bc her hips already hurt and she thinks she's going to end up having surgery on them soon.

She said we can still be friends and if I need my prescriptions picked up, she can help me.

My son came today but at 7am. He's not supposed to be here until 1pm. I did have food for him so I gave him a ton of food.

I do have a new caregiver starting Monday. I think it will be all business. But my sister said you'll probably get more done though. She's right.

More snow is coming. I'm soooo sick of winter.

Aww I was just saying to myself that Papi reminded me of Winnie the Pooh!