Bipolar Check-in #88 (again!)

Not all cats hate carriers and riding in cars! My guy enjoyed it until his last year. His last year he just wanted to be left alone except when he decided he wanted lap time.

Oh I miss him. Jack. Got a little dog. Ohh so sweet. Never saw a chihuahua so calm. He’s only 8 months old but he’s got an old soul attitude. Ahh well I don’t miss the litter box! But I do miss Sir.

Slept well, need to get dressed groceries delivered in an hour.

I'm doing fine. I went back on my other blood pressure med. I wasn't tired until right now. Now I'm exhausted. My new cholestrol med has this weird side effect where my muscles cramp up. It took a few seconds to button my jeans today because I kept getting a cramp in my wrist.

I'm kinda nauseated but its just like "whatever" at the moment. Its just med side effects. My therapist is like "you need to rest." Yeah. I feel like I should be doing something though. Its not cancer.

I’m not feeling well today, I was gonna go grocery shopping but decided against it. I’ll go tomorrow if I’m feeling better.

Had a rough night. Was having really bad GI issues all night and morning. Anyway, I ordered some Imodium tablets to have around the house, it arrives tomorrow. Even if I don’t need them tomorrow at least I’ll have them in case I do end up needing them eventually. For the generic it was only like $3 and change for 24 tablets so that’s not bad. Especially since I’d probably rarely use them

I have a feeling it’s related to how I’ve been eating because I was eating really unhealthily for a few days. Like extremely unhealthily. I wasn’t having any GI issues for awhile then I started suddenly eating unhealthy for 4 days and this is the result I guess. lol So yeah gotta get back on track with eating healthy. Tomorrow I’m going to the grocery store to buy healthy foods.

Plans for today are to relax and watch the Lord of the Rings: Rings of Power series on Amazon prime video.

Wait you got a dog??? That’s awesome! Sorry if I misunderstand , I wasn’t 100% sure

I wish I could take today off work. I’m just too tired. But today is my better day on my timetable plus tomorrow is the last day of term then I’m on a 2 week break. I’ll just have to tough this one out today! Yesterday was not an easy teaching day with some tricky classes. Although I didn’t send students to coordinators I did send some to stand outside the classroom for 5 minutes. One student just took it as an opportunity to run off ….

I have a chihuahua too. His name is Odie. He’s smaller than my cat. He’s so cute!

No jack, got a dog. He’s so adorable! Makes me weak in the knees for a pet. But no, I haven’t gotten one yet. I’m weakening tho

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Originally Posted by Nammu Not all cats hate carriers and riding in cars! My guy enjoyed it until his last year. His last year he just wanted to be left alone except when he decided he wanted lap time. Oh I miss him. Jack. Got a little dog. Ohh so sweet. Never saw a chihuahua so calm. He’s only 8 months old but he’s got an old soul attitude. Ahh well I don’t miss the litter box! But I do miss Sir. Slept well, need to get dressed groceries delivered in an hour.

You were lucky! I've had 5 cats (2 have passed away) and none of them liked cat carriers or riding in the car! Though they do tend to be eager to return to the cat carrier once the vet is finished with the visit!

I had one cat that loved riding in the car. This was good because I lived 10 hours away from my family at the time and so we had long rides for holidays. The first time we did it I gave her a lot of catnip and after that she seemed to think car rides were associated with feeling reallllllllllly good . I just had to have an audiobook playing. She didn't like music and she didn't like it if I stopped the book so I could take a bathroom break.

Got a litle over 3 pages done on my 8-10 page reflection. Its easy thankfully. jsut time consuming. i have so much homework due the next 3 weeks

ill be done with my field practicum 3 weeks from today! im applying to work there!!

Home with one unhappy cat later! Clean bill of health from the vet and updated rabies vaccine Glad to have that over with!

I AM A PROPHET! GOD TELLS ME SO. I KNOW WhAT PEOPLE ARE THINKING!!!

There’s a lady here who bakes cookies and bread for the meetings and games. So today when I ordered groceries I got eggs and sugar for her. It’s got to be expensive buying that stuff all the time. She was appreciative.

I’m really lazy today. Got up ordered groceries and played games. They want me down for poker tonight but, bah. I’m not into it.

I don't know what is wrong with me. Vocational rehab cancelled this week. I'm blocking noise by using earbuds. I keep feeling like something is behind me. I have therapy tomorrow. I'm empty. My mom was nice enough to buy food for us but ED voices suck. She got us stuff that requires all day prep and cooking. So I don't know what we are going to do. I can't prep and cook all day and h would rather just not eat. Plus some of the food h is allergic to. So now I have stuff but it's not going to really get eaten. There's so much. I'm just sad I feel like crying that she wasted her money.

Salmon is yummy!

I had really bad side effects I finally had to call my doctor. I was just in this intense stomach pain and I had bad nausea and I was exhausted. I feel better now but my stomach is still off. I don't know why these meds are making things worse.

Ok, I am a grad student and managed to get some tasks done. Did yoga and meditation and ate lunch with friends. I am a performer and had coaching and rehearsal, and went to therapy.
I still somewhat grieve my life before I went manic. I wish I could go back to that.

Med related



I'm still not 100% but its better then earlier I guess.

@Moose72 I'm sorry you had to deal with TD. I'm glad it eventually went away for you. I really hope Vraylar works out for you.

Sorry you're not feeling well @Blue_Bird

@Blueberrybook My pcp had told me, if the weight gained continued and seems to be caused by birth control, I could always try another one. With how much this one is helping keep me stable, I highly doubt I'd switch though. I'd be to afraid to. And, like you said, nothing to worry about if I'm still in a healthy range.

I've recently learned how tricky cat travel can be. A friend of mine is moving out of state and is trying to decide what will be less stressful on her cat-flying with it or driving with it (it hates the car). She told me how some cats are not supposed to fly-something about their sinuses or some structure near those.

Today, I took a risk and tried a very simple body weight workout. It's a risk because increasing physical activity can trigger POTs symptoms. The exercises triggered my symptoms a little bit, but nothing to bad. Tomorrow will be the real test-seeing if I wake up in a flare or recovered. I really don't enjoy strength training, but it is so important so I want to try to add some to my walking routine and actually stick with it this time. I've started and stopped strength training many times in the past.

School was fine. Stopped at the pharmacy on my way home. I've been feeling a little melancholic this evening. I think it's from my schedule at work being so thrown off due to testing.

I have to start thinking about going through my things/packing in preparation to move in May. I found some packing bags on Amazon that I bought. These will be nice because they fold up really small and I'll be in a studio that doesn't have much storage.

Has been really an amazing week. The weather has been beautiful, and I am really getting deep into my faith. But my heart, oh I can't tell you enough what this has been like. I am learning the meaning of sacrifice, and the meaning of giving up what you want for the greater good for yourself. It is really difficult, but I am pushing through.

It really hurts to be in love with someone so much who you can't be with. Everything else in my life is going great though - @Blue_Bird I hope you feel better soon - when I eat take out or order out more than three days in a row, I get really stomachy too.

Welcome to MSF @VasaliaTheWise. I see it's your first post

Welcome

Yes recovery from mania is hard. It really does disrupt our lives.

i got my paper done before the storms got here. its starting. theyre goign crazy on the news

Good morning! Got an early morning (6am) grocery delivery today from Whole Foods through Amazon. Getting back on track with healthy eating.

I’m heading to walk to the gas station/convenience store soon to get some eggs. I didn’t order them because they were out of stock online. There’s a couple other small food items I need to pick up from Family Dollar on my way home from therapy tomorrow. Then that’s it and I have everything for the month.

The keyboard book I ordered arrived yesterday. It’s got like 43 Christmas songs for piano in it. Excited to start learning from it today. Have therapy tomorrow.

Plans for today are to take out some trash and declutter some, shower, walk to the store to buy eggs, cook, practice keyboard. Also have that generic Imodium being delivered today. Which should give me some peace of mind. I might try to get on the treadmill today as well because my anxiety has been bad. So a 30 min walk to the store (15 min there 15 min back) and 30 min on the treadmill. Exercise helps my anxiety a lot.

Tomorrow I have therapy. Saturday I’m cleaning. And I have a volunteer shift on Sunday with the cat rescue.