Bipolar Check-in #89

I do this exact same thing. Any time I have an appointment or something I feel stuck in waiting mode until it happens. I just feel like I can’t do anything else other than wait

Got some manga books from the library. Looking forward to reading them.

Spending the afternoon watching Naruto and maybe some Pokemon Horizons as well.

I have a violin lesson this weekend. Definitely looking forward to it. My lessons always leave me feeling inspired and motivated afterwards. My teacher is awesome.

I’m trying to start taking a 30 min - 45 min walk a day everyday outside now that the treadmill in the building isn’t working. Eventually I might do longer but that to start with. I just need to get out every single day because sitting around in my apartment without going anywhere drives me nuts. Like I like to spend a lot of time at home. But I also like to leave the house once a day even if it’s just for a quick walk. I get cabin fever if I’m in my apartment all day.

At least summer is coming. I hate summer to be honest it’s too hot for me but it’s better than trying to walk on sidewalks coated entirely in ice in the winter.

Maybe I’ll go check on the treadmill and see if it’s working. Sometimes they fix things quick sometimes not.

I do that starting a week in advance. Mostly because i have to worry about finding (or washing?!) some clothes to wear.

Went this morning to get my blood drawn. It wasn’t until 10:30, fasting blood meant my morning routine was all messed up. No chai, no pills. Just reading until it was time to go. I took the bus, the only drawback is that I have to wait an hour for it to come back, blood drawing only take 5 minutes. But taking my car is such a hassle. Parking over there is a major headache so I’d rather wait an hour than deal with parking.

Wow! They voted for a new pope already!

@LadyShadow did you see that they just elected a new pope, they are going to announce who it is soon

I have a lot of posts to catch up on!

I slept around 8 hr last night, and my morning was pretty usual. I jogged a bit during my walk, so I'm sure to be sore tomorrow! I showered, read with the SAD lamp (not using it the full time yesterday def. affected me by afternoon), picked up a prescription at the pharmacy, drew 3 pics though my sunglasses picture didn't really turn out (all in the creative corner).

Despite being on my period and it being heavier than usual (though when I say heavier, most women would still consider it a light period, definitely it's light compared to my 20s and 30s), I'm in a good mood. Yesterday evening, I felt so happy and nothing really out of the ordinary had happened. And I'm not hypomanic (at least I don't think so). It's been so nice, and I keep thinking I've got to savor this good, stable period, because who knows when the ball is going to drop? It always does eventually..sigh.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day!

It’s Leo the 14th I don’t remember how to spell his name but he’s an American.

I went out this morning to get fruits and vegetables and some chickpea and lentil chips. I caved in and got some cookies too. I had to return 2 things to Walmart and my phone was at 15% as I was walking in the store and then it was dead when I got into the store. I explained what happened and they gave me a gift card. I felt kinda bad but I didn't have the energy to go charge my phone and then come back later.

Then I had therapy and it went well. We have been doing these somatic regulation things and they are really helpful. On the way there I got a call to go set up my heart monitor on Tuesday.

I then went to get my lab work and for once the lab was empty. I was in and out fast. I had to give a urine sample too.

Not sure how I feel about an American Pope. Idk. It just feels weird for some reason. My mom swears that orange turd isnt that powerful.

Oh thats nice! I have a baby cousin named Leo but he was called after his great grampa.

Still a lot of us are disappointed we didnt get our Pope Pizzapallo. And i cant help but wonder if they didnt select an american out of fear of becoming the 52nd state?

Took my new meds at 9 am and went back to bed till 1 and took a shower and am now feel much improved!

I was sort of hoping for the singing guy from the Philippines. That would have been cool. But yeah pizzapallo! What a name.

Woke up with a headache at 4:00am and just generally feeling blah. Hopefully this latte fixes it!

I just realized - im older than the Pope!

Hope it helps! Headaches suck. Caffeine generally helps mine as well

Going to my volunteer shift in about an hour and a half from now. Probably gonna be a fairly quick shift. Whoever does Thursday mornings does a good job so there’s not a whole lot to do Thursday nights. Just really let the cats out and scoop their litter and give them fresh food and water. But this particular group of cats we have now are really extremely shy and scared so none of them want to come out. So I just pet them if they let me but if not I just talk to them or give them treats. Last weeks shift only took like 40 minutes tops. Plus I have an assistant, she’s in high school. They don’t typically allow people under 18 to volunteer there but they didn’t realize she was under 18 till after they accepted her application so they made an exception for her with the caveat that an adult volunteer has to be with her the whole time any shifts she does. So that would be me. She does a good job and we work well together. It goes by a lot faster now that there’s another person in there with me. Normally for several years it was just me doing my shifts alone. It’s manageable but it is a lot of work especially if there’s a lot of cats or if there’s many small kittens that come out to play and you kinda of have to catch them and round them up to put them back in their cages before you end the shift which can be chaotic.

So yeah going to that soon here. Gotta catch the bus around 5:30pm.

I’ll try to take some pics of the cats there tonight to show you all

Ran into a little snag with my medicine. I'm not sure what's happened. It's not worth getting all bent out of shape about but basically, I can't fill my script until the 10th. Normally they could fill it tomorrow for me (day 28/30) but he's set it to be filled no earlier than that. This isn't really a issue except I only have 1 day worth of medicine left (Friday's dose). I must have dropped a pill or something somewhere and didn't realize -- but it just means I'll have to take my Saturday meds with the new script. No real issue I don't suppose. It is what it is.

I went walking in the park today. It was really nice. My legs are a little sore from walking so much. I did enjoy getting out and getting some fresh air.

Thank you fortunately my headaches gone so I can just get on with the rest of the day!

I’ve got a load of laundry in the washer before work. Nothing like getting in there early! Now at least I don’t have to do it this weekend! Go me. I don’t particularly enjoy laundry but who does lol.

Ugh...trying not to make this too political. H got word that a program he is affililated with funded through a government grant aimed at largely minority areas (acting as a liason in STEM between 2 colleges) has abruptly been cancelled It sucks for us because while it didn't pay a lot it was an extra $300 a month. The program had been getting a lot of positive attention of late. H told me he feels really bad because the woman in charge of the program had her entire salary funded through the grant, and now she is basically out of a job. A lot of the students in the program had scholarships through the grant, and those won't be renewed either. Such a wonderful country we live in...

My mom chewed me a new one for going to Taco Bell. I met Robert there. I just really wanted the company but I didn’t need to spend $13 on fast food!

The pharmacy is going to call me in the morning about getting my next set of blister packs- my regular meds. I run out over the weekend and they are closed then.

I'm at work early with not much to do. I start in 1.5 hours (my first lesson is in 1.5 hours I should say). Next week I will have a ton of marking coming in because both my Year 7 and Year 8s are working on an assignment. It's my Year 8 class who worry me. They're around 4 years behind in their reading and writing yet somehow or other they're meant to pass this task. I would feel sorry for them BUT their behaviour makes me lack empathy unfortunately.

My uncle, the one who has cancer, his girlfriend is in the icu because she had a reaction to a medicine

She almost died from a viral thing 2 years ago and she had breast cancer a few years ago.

I'm trying not to stress but I wish my mom hadnt told me

went to the graduation luncheon. i didnt get any awards but i got two cords! one for my school and one for being a NASW member. i also go to see my old professors and say ty. one was from my undergrad school. she wa there with the nasw. she was amazing and it was good to see her.

Couple of the Kitties from tonight

Awww they are both adorable.