[Bark]

Originally Posted by color14u

It's a beautiful day. I should go outside, but I don't feel like dealing with people or questions right now. Maybe I'll feel better later...of course it's suppose to rain. I think I need to just go back to sleep

Could you maybe just sit outside in the sun? It can do wonders for your mood.

[Bark]

Managed to do the few dishes I had. Also doing laundry. Still really don't want to shower but really want to shower. I have to shower.

And study....

And eat more than a few biscuits.

[Rose76]

Doing pretty good.

[color14u]

Originally Posted by Bark

Could you maybe just sit outside in the sun? It can do wonders for your mood.

I did. Thanks

[Nammu]

It was such a wonderful dream, ....wish I could just stay there, in the dreams, where I have the power to change things, the power to fly.

....I feel so powerless now...

[TheOriginalMe]

I was managing today until I hit my head. Now I feel sick and sleepy.

Absolutely horrible. I feel like curling up and crying. I just want to talk to my T. I feel so worthless and sad.

[Marla500]

Really horrible. Can't seem to pick myself up. I Have managed to accomplish a little bit this weekend but only with a lot of effort and there's so much more that's not going to get done. I wish it would get better.

[Turtlesoup]

Good day today kinda low key-did some things around the house & got quite a bit read in my book. Managed to stay out of my head most of today except for a rough 30 minutes or so-but that's so much better than 90% of the time obsessing & depressing myself. Still raining here & saw another rainbow today

[waterknob1234]

Stressed over work. My shoulder is hurting from arthritis. I will stop here for I am turning into a complaint farm.

[maddnessreturns]

I am just lonely after moving I have even less friends than I did before which is about impossible. I have no one to talk to. I can't even make friends on the Internet. What is so wrong with me?

[dillpickle1983]

I'm really feeling down right now. This week has been really bad for me and I can't shake it. I take stuff hard even if it has nothing to do with me directly. Oh well new week is beginning, hope this week will be better.

[LindaLu]

Pretty good day. I had a long conversation with a neighbor at grocery store. Did some laundry. Called friend at volunteer organization to discuss what to tackle next. Friends had me over for dinner and TV. Lifted hand weights for 5 minutes. Better than nothing.

Still feeling really crappy mood-wise. I know my walk/jog will improve my mood, but only for a few hours. I'm calling my ECT pdoc today and seeing if I can get in for a treatment this week, then increasing the frequency to more than one a month. I just hate feeling like this and trudging through the day. Yuck. There's nothing worse, at least that I've experienced.

[Chummy]

I had so much trouble with getting out of bed. I've so little energy.

[tigerlily84]

This past week has been rather difficult. I feel myself backsliding back into depression. I'm doing my best not to fall into old habits, but it's hard. Mostly I'm just doing my best because that's the best that I can do. Maybe my pdoc was right - maybe I do need a med increase. That would increase my wellbutrin xl dose from 300 to 450mg. That just seems like a lot doesn't it? But I guess if I need it then that's what I need to take. I think I just wish I didn't. Hoping for a better day today. Wishing the same for all of us here as well.

Last night was horrible. I cried myself to sleep. I had an anxiety attack today in class. I was so embarrassed. My professor told me to switch rooms to finish taking the exam... It is 20 minutes after the anxiety attack. I feel so embarrassed I texted my therapist again, second time in a row since yesterday. Told him that I had a bad anxiety attack and now I feel like a burden.

[angelene]

I hate this. I hate waking up in pain. I hate taking all this medication that only slightly lessens it and is probably doing more kidney damage than good. I hate not being able to go to school or work because of my poor health. I hate neglecting my hygiene. I hate wanting to buy things just to make myself feel better. I hate never having good news.
I hate that I am a complaint machine.

Originally Posted by angelene

I hate this. I hate waking up in pain. I hate taking all this medication that only slightly lessens it and is probably doing more kidney damage than good. I hate not being able to go to school or work because of my poor health. I hate neglecting my hygiene. I hate wanting to buy things just to make myself feel better. I hate never having good news.
I hate that I am a complaint machine.

I hope you have better days ahead Angelene.

Today am going out for the first time in over two months... mom needs me to help her carry bags home from the store. So nervous... I feel like people will be able to tell that I never go out... that I will appear dumb. However, looking forward to fresh air.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by angelene

I hate this. I hate waking up in pain. I hate taking all this medication that only slightly lessens it and is probably doing more kidney damage than good. I hate not being able to go to school or work because of my poor health. I hate neglecting my hygiene. I hate wanting to buy things just to make myself feel better. I hate never having good news.
I hate that I am a complaint machine.

I was on pain meds and in terrible shape for a few years. It's an uphill struggle some days but I'm off the pain meds and doing physical stuff again. Though it doesn't feel like it now it can get better. It's so hard when you are in the middle of it. I don't see you as a complaining machine, it's just where you're at right now. Keep posting.

[Nammu]

Fri though sun I did much of nothing and ate junk but today I pulled myself out of bed and climbed back on the cart. I went to cardio, walked the hamster wheel ate better and even talked to a couple of people and played Wii bowling. Now I'm getting ready to make a salad....just hoping I stay strong the rest of the day where the food is concerned.

[Bark]

When someone thinks you've showered but you haven't, that's a bad sign.

I showered! Finally. I don't know why it stresses me out so much.

Feeling better today... huge relief. But I'm behind on my studies.... Ah well, I still have time.

[TheOriginalMe]

My head still hurts, but I don't think I did any damage other than a big lump and feeling shaken up. I'm still drowsy and more miserable than usual. I've been clinging on to relative normality and I think the shock loosened that grip a bit more. I honestly don't know how much longer I can hold on, I just want to let go and free fall, I am exhausted and I don't even know why I'm still trying.

[Turtlesoup]

Feel good this evening-positive day, had a very productive visit with my pdoc & we came up with some med changes to try. She is pleased with how I'm doing & the coping strategies I'm using. It was really beautiful here today & I took my time running errands & just enjoyed being out & about. Going to walk to the library in a bit then fix supper. Big hugs to all here