[Tucson]

This has been a 2400 calories day. My daughter came over to see me. We had a nice pizza and smoothie together, but this was a mistake for me to make a second smoothie for myself. Also the two slices of pizza that I ate did me in due to being high in calories. The smoothie and pizza together cost me allot of calories. I will have to make up for this tomorrow. I should not be that concerned about the extra calories for I have a few more pounds to go on the up side.

[UpDownAround]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I don't know whats wrong with me. I either eat 1000 calories a day or I eat nothing all day. I'm terrified of gaining weight and obsessed with losing weight. The scale makes or breaks my mood for the entire day.

I had to break the grip of 1000 or less a day. I was losing too much besides fat. I am the pot calling the kettle black, though. I lost almost 40 pounds before I started upping my calories.

I was also obsessed. For me, it is part fear; I am afraid I will binge again if I let myself eat more than light meals. I got the bing urge tonight. One of my kids had a holiday potluck and his friends brought lots of treats. We provided the meat and after the kids ate, my wife and I made plates. They brought way too much food and there were some good desserts. I didn't go overboard, but there were a couple of things that triggered the urge. Creme de menthe chocolate fudge and hot chocolate cup cakes. I had some of each, but I logged it using what I think are reasonably close entries. The urge was strong to grab another cupcake and several more pieces of fudge. I thought maybe I had beaten that for now.

[UpDownAround]

A little heavy on junk food, but the light lunch and the non dessert part of dinner left room for the sweet tooth. I can't eat like this too much though.

[Cocosurviving]

Well for 12.16.17 I registered 1,470 calories (MFP mobile app). I walked a lot today...two hours in my local mall. I used my Apple Watch to track. I’m not going to give myself a target date to lose the weight. 1). I gained weight due to meds 2). I just stopped one med so that should help 3). I gained extra weight over the course of being on that med a year. I’m not going to weigh myself everyday either. I have to be realistic I’m still on two meds that effect weight.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I don't know whats wrong with me. I either eat 1000 calories a day or I eat nothing all day. I'm terrified of gaining weight and obsessed with losing weight. The scale makes or breaks my mood for the entire day.

I agree with bizi, please check with your pdoc about whether or not you may have an eating disorder. You don't need an extra label, yet it might help you to understand more about your behaviors. OCD likely plays a part.

Be gentle with yourself.

WC

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A nice surprise this morning. 181.6 - my new lowest reading so far. A lot of it is timing with certain bodily functions and oddly enough, partly because I ate so much junk yesterday. Sweets are calorie dense; I didn't put as much food (by weight) into the system. If I truncate, which is my usual method, I now have lost 42 pounds with 16 left to go. I hate to keep moving the goalposts, but actually it will be more like 20 because my goal will be my new upper limit. So I will celebrate but keep eating at a deficit, probably right on up to Memorial Day.

[Tucson]

I weigh 178 today. So much for gaining a pound. I need to gain weight, but I do not want my past eating habits to return. I am a little paranoid about that.

[hopeless2015]

Still logging in at 30 carbs a day but I've had 2 days st almost 2500 calories!! That's insane! Really need to reel it back in here

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Originally Posted by Tucson

I weigh 178 today. So much for gaining a pound. I need to gain weight, but I do not want my past eating habits to return. I am a little paranoid about that.

The candy and desserts last night spooked me. I did okay as far as my total goes, though the mix wasn't very nutritious. What spooked me is the binge urge was triggered by a couple of items. I resisted it, but it was a situation where it likely would have been noticed if several pieces of fudge and/or cupcakes disappeared, so it wasn't pure willpower. The leftovers of both items were taken home by kids who brought them. I am glad of that. But I wish I had not felt the urge so strong.

[UpDownAround]

Treat heavy again and done at 6:30 pm; I might have a piece of fruit later and roll it from tomorrow. That happened today; I had the Lindor balls technically today, but it was not long after midnight, up late to pick up one of my kids. Yesterday was not a good day, even though I worked it out calorie wise. I let my sweet tooth rule. Today had some of that also. Hopefully, I will pull it together for the weekdays. This has had no impact on my weight loss goals because of making the calories work, but it is impacting my psyche; I don't like letting the sweet tooth make so many choices. This is how binge behavior starts. I gained 15 during the holidays last year. Not going to happen this time!

[Tucson]

I consumed 2300 calories today. Unfortunately, my sweet tooth got the best of me. So I arrived at this calorie count due to three servings of dessert which I made a half an hour ago. I ran out of my last dessert, so I had to do something about that, right? Not a nutritious way to add up calories. Oh well.

Out of curiosity, I decided to change my profile on myfitnesspal to my goal of reaching 185. So in order to gain one pound a week, the website stated that my goal is about 2600 calories a day. That is a bit much for me. I think I will stay between 2000 to 2300 days with an occasional high calorie day. I must permit myself this which allows for occasionally eating richer foods and my desserts. I may eat out once this month as my present to myself. Then there is Xmas day which will be allot of calories at my ex’s dinner. My ex’s dinner will be part American and part Mexican. She is from Puebla, Mexico.

PS Today I went out shopping for a pair of pants that fit me. I have been using my pants that have not fit me except before I was losing weight. I went from a 44 waist size to 38, which still is about one or two inches too large. The drier may shrink the waist a bit. This is amazing to me. I have not been this weight for at least thirty years.

[99fairies]

I had a cheat day yesterday, It was tasty and wonderful. Now back on the wagon.

[Tucson]

I have been cheating when I eat too much of my desserts, particularly if it is rich. I have recently been trying to get it under control. I need to start planning in my menus the amount of dessert I will have to limit my consumption. Deserts will not give me problems now, but after I gain a few pounds, I will have to restrict it anyways.

[UpDownAround]

Yesterday was another day with a few treats, but a little more balance. This morning was another lowest weight so far - 181.4. Now it would legitimately round down to 181. It's creeping lower, but at least trending the right way.

[Asteya]

I cook my food from scratch. I’m lactose intolerant so no dairy. I have food allergies associated with preservites. It’s been 13 years since high school and I’ve only gained about 10-15 lbs. make your own food. I eat whatever I want given the limits above. I never count calories. I know not everyone is the same, but don’t give up!! 🙏 you will find your groove.

[99fairies]

Once again I thought I had nothing nice to wear to Christmas dinner, but I tried on an outfit I havent been able to fit in for two years and it fits perfectly! I'm so excited!

[UpDownAround]

I have on pair of jeans and one pair of khakis that fit me properly right now. I have a few pairs that are still too small and some that are baggy but I still wear. I don't want to buy stuff this size unless it is at a thrift store. I want to get in the stuff that is too small but have to be patient with my healthier approach. I am hopeful that increased exercise will kick it up to maybe 1.5 pounds a week, but I keep putting off when I will start exercising more. Definitely Christmas if not before; that's when the pup comes home and I will have a lot of walking duty.

[Tucson]

I forgot to post my calorie consumption for yesterday. It was a 2500 calorie day. I will no longer make desserts like I have been. I have been going overboard on my making of one dessert after another. Instead I will have a yogurt smoothie. That will be my dessert. Otherwise I will try to eat healthier foods. I did eat out for dinner yesterday. I was only able to finish off the shrimp scampi.

[99fairies]

Updown... I too have clothes that don't fit me from 4 years ago but I barely weighed a 100 pounds and all my clothes are a size zero. Not planning on being that weight again. I need to get rid of them but they are such nice clothes.

[UpDownAround]

Less junk today. Still a lot of my daily calories from snacks, but mostly fruit. It will be nice not to have treats out all the time after New Years. Part of what makes them hard to resist is knowing they are only around for a short while. I ignore regular candy at work all the time, as well as donuts and whatnot. But this time of year, there is more stuff out that I don't have often, like the peppermint bark on today's report or the creme de menthe chocolate fudge I had a few days ago. Next week on my birthday, I am likely to get a home made chocolate roll cake with peppermint cream filling. I might have a piece of that "off the books", although my wife might not make it this year since I have been cutting back on treats. I asked for only individually wrapped small candies in my stocking and not too many. No inhaling a whole sleeve of Toblerone this year...

[99fairies]

I haven't been able to eat the last few days. Something about cleaning up everyone's vomit isn't exactly a situation that makes me want to eat.

[Tucson]

I had about 2500 calories today. I found my weight to be 178. I wonder how long I have been this weight? Over one month? Despite my back-to-back over 2300 calorie days? Interesting. I am sedentary. I do nothing except errands and watch TV. In the past, my metabolism changed where I started to gain weight very easily. I could no longer eat multiple turkey dinners on the same day without gaining weight. Now look what is happening. How many calories do I need to maintain my weight when I am actually doing something like periodic exersizes? Something here has changed with me.

[UpDownAround]

Yesterday. Still a fair amount of holiday junk food, but still fitting it in and staying under goal. Weight this morning was 181.6, same as 4 days ago and .2 higher than 2 days ago. About all that proves is I can make myself crazy worrying about the "jitter". 3 weigh ins in a row below 182, which had been my lowest before that, so still trending slowly down.

[UpDownAround]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

I haven't been able to eat the last few days. Something about cleaning up everyone's vomit isn't exactly a situation that makes me want to eat.

You have had a rough go of it. I hope things turn around soon.

[Tucson]

I have had 2300 calories today. I weigh 178 pounds. This is good. I am getting closer to maintaining my weight. I just want to gain weight slowly. I have had some 2500 calorie days. For the next few days, I am going to shoot for 2300 calories. I used the weight calculator to determine that 2037 calories to maintain my weight, and 2537 calories will have me gain one pound a week. I am paranoid that I will gain too much weight too quickly, and at worse, end up the 235 pounds that I once was. I am pretty illogical with this belief, but this is what I have been feeling.

PS Ever since I took care of my mother, which ended a half year ago, I have been paranoid about some things. I do not know why.