Couch 157: Fair Value

Jdna that fund thing sounds like the thing. I don't know much about it but I know when I was really low and Internet cut off and no food for the week I just sucked it all up and went to charities even though I did not feel I deserved the charity it did end up saving me when I was feeling that way.

JDNA yes you could ask about the Docjohn fund. So many of us here “know” you and would want to contribute

Exercise is my drug of choice.

I did not fall on my head. I also still can’t do a headstand or stay in crow pose for more than two seconds. Practice practice.

I also am still in an anti-therapist mood, or at least anti-one particular therapist. (Not Info, who hopefully is learning something as she observes all this.)

well ATAT, i can't do either at all....so i applaud you.

In my yoga class, when it's time to do headstands or splits or the new pretzely one the instructor showed last time, I sit and watch. (I try not to do this with my face: )

I'd probably break myself.

I just finished my stretching session. I sat on about a 2 inch foam cushion on a square aerobic step prolly 3 inch inch high platform. It was pretty good. I can see why old people shrink.

What they lose in physical dimensions, they grow by in heart, intellect, and experience.

I don't know if this needs a trigger warning there is nothing explicit.
This is my session today.
Today the insiders had their day, well the insiders who don't talk. We started out talking about the texting situation and how I am more comfortable with negative attention because positive attention like 'you look pretty today' or 'I like that dress' means someone always wants something and after some questions it set everyone off and it was turmoil in inside but when my t said to pull my blanket closer they settled down a bit and after awhile the all seemed to be pointing down, towards my lap. My T wanted to know if this meant anything along with feeling cold and sick. I really could not talk and made sneaky noises and had to clear my voice a lot til I wrote down 'we're not allowed to tell'
I want to ask him next time if he believes about the insiders as my mother thought I was lying when I said Cathy or Rory or someone did something

Sounds like you had a hard session. I hope he believes you. I do.

Hey, Couch.

Could use hugs today...having difficulty coming back to baseline after Friday. If it's one hit, then I recover relatively quickly, but given that every single one was thrown at me...not so much.

Hi all. I will look into the doc John thing. I feel weird asking for money. I took my seroquels and slept til now. It's 4 am. I'm going to my iop group tonight for the second time

Hugs, Lost.

jDNA, I hope things get better for you. Like others have said, many of us would be glad to contribute to the Doc John fund.

My beautiful wonderful elder neighbours just gave me 4 packets of rump steak and a packet of bbq steak because his Christmas hamper turned up and he said he always orders way too much and gives stuff to his kids I was so grateful I haven't had steak on about 3 or 4 years it's just way too expensive. I feel lucky to have them as I haven't bought pumpkin a long time now.

Does anyone know where you go to apply for it

Psych Central Community Grant | Psych Central Community Connection
I guess this is it?

Wow, that's super sweet

Hugs you two... I hope you both get some relieve soon

I get my work paycheck on Friday. I may just wait. No power for 3 days isn't that bad I guess

And I've been going downtown and using the city WiFi to watch stuff online. For distractions.

My car tag is the issue. I don't want to get pulled over. And now I'm prob gonna have to pay a late fee

It's ok to apply for this fund you know. I doubt that your financial situation is gonna get better "just" because you get your paycheck

BTW: here your employer is legally obligated to give you your paycheck early if you're in a financial emergency situation. I don't know how it is in America tough...

Every day I wake up too early! 5 hours of sleep is not enough! T is right we have to do something about my insomnia but I wish she would take me seriously about giving up.

I am not currently caught up on the couch.... but I wanted to announce that I will be joining the ranks of cat-having couchies today!!

I'm pretty anxious, never had a pet-- picked up relevant supplies and made a modest attempt to catproof certain things. I am cautiously optimistic but if it doesn't work out then I have a very nice plan B for her.

Cats are great. I love my dogs but am in general more of a cat person.

We used to have cats and loved them! Then I became highly allergic to cats and dogs.

Five hours is pretty typical for me, but it is apparently not enough sleep to help you feel rested each day so it may be time to consider some options. Might need to talk to your doctor about some medication options. They can start with something very mild and work from there. Being short on sleep is probably feeding your depression. Your therapist knows that which is probably why she's not really focused on your thoughts about giving up. They are just thoughts and pretty usual for someone who is showing signs of depression. You aren't actually suicidal from everything you've said here, and your therapist knows that too. What needs more focus is the issues that are feeding that depression, and the sleep deficit is probably the first thing that needs consideration. There is a reason sleep patterns are one of the first things they try to get a handle on with patients who are showing symptoms of depression or other mental health issues.