Couch 179: Even-numbered days in a year

Fml and **** hurricanes. So, classes have so far been cancelled for 3 weeks at my uni. We are "tentatively" going back October 1. Somehow, though, commencement is going forward as planned. That means we somehow have to "make up" all the time that was missed, without the semester actually being extended at all. They cancelled fall break and reading day, but that's only 4 days. I am so anxious. I've been doing my best to keep up with my schoolwork, but I don't have assignments for two of my classes available. One of those is English, which I hate because I have a perpetual case of writer's block that I can't seem to break out of. Writing just makes me so anxious at this point that I become paralyzed.

The other thing that's killing me is that I haven't been able to see my T since I evacuated on 9/11. And apparently, she's going away for a vacation right when I'm planning on coming back to town - so I'll have missed seeing her for 3 weeks, too. I'm seeing my longtime T, which is lovely, but I really wish T was going to be there when I return, as the return is really stressing me out. I'm dreading it, actually. My relationship with my mother isn't great, but staying with her in my hometown, I don't feel isolated. In my new town, I feel completely alone and despairing. Although it's of course not as bad as solitary confinement, for me, it has had really devastating effects. I mean, I go for days without talking to anyone, and for weeks or even months without anyone touching me, unless I go have a random hookup. I've regressed so much and have avoided hospitalization by the skin of my teeth (and by withholding...).

Ok, that turned into a rather long rant. Sorry. Just had to get it out.

Lemoncake, I just want to say how awesome you are. You celebrate other's successes all over the place here and I just wanted to celebrate that about YOU!!

*curls up on the couch*

Hello, everyone. I know I'm not around often anymore, but I think of you all often.

I just need a place to be sad today. Don't mind me.

It's ok to be sad, but I hope you feel better tomorrow.

I'm being a lazy bum today.

This morning, I was in charge of D since H was working a seminar for a sport where he's a referee. She was really whiny this morning, took her to gymnastics, where she seemed to be doing OK, so I decided to go for a walk in the area. Went on some trails in the woods right there, then, uh, got turned around, tried to find my way back, was blocked by a fence, and had to use Google maps to get back to the gymnastics place before it was time to get her! (Made it with 5 minutes to spare. Got some extra steps in, I guess...)

Then the smoothie place I normally take her to turned out to be closed, and I had to figure out how to get to another one, while she was flipping out in the backseat. On the way to that smoothie place, while stopped at a stoplight, I got rear-ended. Thankfully, no visible damage, so I waved off the apologetic driver (it wasn't that hard of a hit, so not worried about whiplash or anything--yeah, I know I should have gotten his insurance or whatever, but it's fine). Was sort of relieved when, after getting the smoothie, she just wanted to go home instead of grocery shopping!

Ugh about getting rear ended!! I hope you're both ok.

Yeah, we are, thanks, though D got to hear me curse really loudly!

I'm spending some time today going through my gazillion emails and deleting, deleting, deleting and unsubscribing from what must be a double-gazillion email lists. Crimenetly.

What do you want to have happen after he's read it, healed?


I'm going through something similar with bio mom myself, so know you aren't alone.

Ugh, that's ridiculous about your classes. Will they at least take away some of the requirements? Because they have to realize too that people are away from home and may not have resources to do the work (like, maybe they couldn't take textbooks with them when they evacuated).


Have you heard from your regular T? I know you'd been worried about her safety.