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I think of suicide as a luring option.

Both hemispheres of the brain.. They connect - While on psychs. I used to be too "Left brain".. Now they are balanced. Very well balanced - it's great.

The whole of reality is an IQ puzzle - Different for all people - Depending on infinite states of consciousnesses

But we try to find some objective IQ.. I think it's brain power - How fast analytical processes can be done.. Left brain, like a computer.. And then the right brain is objective culture, creativity, comprehension. Then people say that there's many IQ's - Depending on the dimension of consciousness. We must understand the brain - But while doing that, we're making AI's. Imagine a quantum computer AI, more powerful, more emotion than humans - But in order to do that, "objective" reality (Agreed by many people) of 2021 would have to transcend space-time into more complicated information.. Like understanding deeper into science - But it's the same as religion.. Or brain damage or death.. Idk. You can continue solving more and more complicated puzzles by living life/reality and see where that takes us - To the maximum divine explosion.. Maybe humans - As far as anyone will get (YOU/ME/WE) is just experiences - Like doing on something for the first time - That's the reference point - Or anything is a reference point for it.. I just imagine the biggest star, almost a black hole.. How much euphoria or suffering that I can harness with some of the most complicated puzzles manufactured by machines or souls..

"What causes random euphoria?

Causes of Euphoria Sexual satisfaction, exciting life events, achievement, and love can all provoke feelings of euphoria. Exercise also causes feelings of euphoria when the body depletes its glycogen stores and then releases endorphins"

Euphoria vs nirvana?

"So there is a type of meditative Bliss called Jhana - that is better than any drug induced euphoria- because you are experiencing pleasure directly from an internal cause, as opposed to trying to get it from an external like a drug. So imagine being able to get "high" have complete control over it and have it last as long as you want and as intensely as you want - that's Jhana. Nibbana is even better than that - Not only would you be able to have that type of pleasure anytime that you wish - if you have developed the path correctly - you would also be able to rest in the effluent free awareness release available only to those that are completely enlightened."

There's only so much information in the circle to get to that state - Since things change... All you can be is 100% sure that things won't change to be in "Nibbana" - Which is delusional - But philosophically, it's not because it ends + Nonsense. Nothing + Nonsense.

"Light has no mass so it also has no energy according to Einstein, but how can sunlight warm the earth without energy? Light indeed carries energy via its momentum despite having no mass."

I could go into understand it all - Everything.. Like chasing success or dying, driving a car, etc (Infinite examples).. You're no happy when not attached. The best happiness is to be NOTHING.. Maybe ego death.

So.. What if ego death + perfectly compatible mind hallucinations - Like light shining through the cracks in an unperfect transparent piece of glass = Perfection based on a good run of experience in probability.. And it's all subjective to ANY other experience - But has similarities to others for a philosophical or spiritual reference point.

But many just go about their day, caught up in momentum of crap.. but all an expression of the thing.. To find truth, draining from the thing and flowing to the thing - Like water

"This capacity for deep insight into any experience is otherwise known as intelligence"

Ok so ANY experience... And IQ is like a magic trick test of democratic truth which 50% agree on for baseline.. But full retardation - What is it? ME.. No jk. And even then, IQ can change throughout the day or depending on when the test is taken - If someone got paid a million to take the test.. Philosophy is the world, math, geometric shapes - It keeps going on.. It continues.. The things aren't finished yet. I'm afraid that truth can be a dark *** thing, nihilism. I have too much to understand - And must prioritize it all - That be life.. People telling you this and that, interacting with the THING

Retardation: the action of delaying or slowing the progress or development of something

"A mental retardation-linked nonsense mutation in cereblon is rescued by proteasome inhibition"

" Schizophrenia often causes spoken and written communication that is garbled, nonsensical or otherwise impossible for others to follow. Examples of this disorganized speech may include: using words and sentences that do not fit together."
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So what about Bill Gates..

Controlling the world - The man. The one people with schiz fear. Does he have zero symptoms of schizophrenia? And so then what is the psychiatric association trying to explain.. What is it different to conspiracies - When the media serves the interests of elite - And then.. Art, revolutions.. Explain things about the man (+Others of course)..

There's a state where both left and right brain can be balances - Then there's intensity or decrease.. It all follows the laws of the universe.

Sociopathy can be an adaptation to abuse - Defiance, resistance. It is there to manipulate - Very smart because on top of searching, it has a goal - Destruction of the host of which it thrives upon. Bad things can happen to you, me. It can happen to anyone. Compassion comes with enlightenment for that reason.