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Your ticker is a terrific idea, Mm! Please take your meds regularly and find out if they really do help. __________________ |
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#622
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Isn't it perfectly lovely when everything with the pharmacy goes smoothly? Such a relief! __________________ |
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Wow, I'd be annoyed, too. Whether careless or not upfront maybe she's a loser. __________________ |
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#624
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Many years ago I used to shop at thrift stores and resale clothing boutiques. When I was a size 6 I found clothes, anything larger than that I found jack and I've stopped shopping at them. I also get really frustrated with thrifts. __________________ |
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#625
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I entirely agree with you. I worked in a cafe for 15 years and there was never one single shift I worked that I had a "bad night." Professionalism is essential at any job, as far as I'm concerned. If her day is so bad that she can't maintain herself she has the option of taking a "mental health" day. __________________ |
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#626
Good day. I had a pedicure, so now my toes are polished with a pretty, deep rose color Then I went shopping with the gift card my son gave to me, which was a really lovely treat. Plus, the weather is stunning. Absolutely perfect spring.
Now I'd like to crawl in bed and read and sleep, but I'll wait a couple of hours. I'm still having some paranoia issues. I sure hope my therapist is back in on Monday. __________________ |
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#627
I completely unplugged for the day. Up until now. Once I got home from the thrift store and started reading my moods got better. Every once in awhile I’d read something that reminded me of my old therapist. I feel kinda sick that I’ll never ever get to see her again. I really do move on fast so I’m sure this is just a temporary feeling. I remember in 2006 when I first went to the hospital I was so scared and so sick I kept begging my mom to call my guidance counselor and my resource teacher from my Jr. High. It was spring break so there wasn’t anything she could do. But by Monday (I got admitted on a Saturday) I was really enjoying the hospital staff and I had completely forgotten about the teacher and counselor from my school. I never ended up going back to the school and I saw the 2 of them a couple times at meetings. But they disappeared fast from my mind once I got used to the hospital and then PHP.
I just have to get through this weekend and see what’s in store for me on Monday. I’m dealing with PMS but I don’t feel like guzzling anything. My books are super distracting. They also helped me fixed my sleep schedule. I’m also a bit nervous because the housing market is really rough right now. People are buying but not selling. I’m worried we’re going to get stuck with a crappy house in a weird neighborhood. My mom says it will work out but she is worried too and when’s she’s stressed about something, it’s pretty bad. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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The pants I got today were 32/30 Hollister jeans. And I couldn’t even get one leg into them. While my 34’s that I ordered online from Hollister awhile ago are almost falling off. I only have luck with shirts and hoodies. But only sometimes. I saw a cool shirt and a nice hoodie but they were the wrong size. That happens all the time where I see something I want but it’s not the correct size and it is just disappointing. I saw a Supreme baseball hat today I really wanted. But it was $55. I get that it would be expensive but it was not in good condition. I was expecting it to be $20. I’m not a fan of flaunting your wealth though. It can be very dangerous. I could easily be robbed for the hat. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#629
Not much going on here. Went to the pharmacy today. Talked with Caleb for a bit. Talked with my mom and sister for a bit too. Made a dentist check up appointment. The place i had to drive far away to is now in my town! Not that this place needs another dentist- there are a bunch already but I hope this branch takes my insurance or it won't matter. Its been over a year since I have been for a check up.
I'm watching The Muppet Show again before I go do my nightly reading. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#630
I started the day awfully irritable and agitated, but have since calmed. So far we've done only piddly things, but that's OK.
I did finally hear from my new therapist with a date for our next session. I'm glad. I was getting frustrated with her thinking I would need to find another person. Last edited by Soupe du jour; Feb 27, 2021 at 08:45 AM.. |
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#631
Well it’s signed and done. WE CLOSED ON OUR HOUSE!!!! I can’t believe it! I worried about it straight up until the papers were all signed. The last thing I worried about was that I had made the cashier’s check out to the wrong entity as I had made it out to the title agency, not the title company as a whole. But they didn’t even mention it. So we have a house!
It was nice to go over yesterday and just be able to walk around and see everything on our own timescale. We were able to see all the minor repairs that we had to do from the off. One thing we need to do is get a new knob/lock for our future bedroom door. All the locks in our house are those old skeleton key mortise locks. Makes it more difficult to replace. I watched a YouTube video about changing them into newer mortise locks and I definitely can’t do it myself, not sure if RS can though I know he will try. If not we’ll just have to hire a locksmith. My mind is humming with decoration ideas and how to maximize space, especially in the small kitchen. I’ve got good ideas for everything, but I’m stumped on what color area rug I should get for the living room. The walls are a very pale yellow, our furniture is dark brown, and the floor is medium warm hued hardwood. Obviously a tan/medium brown would be a good bet but it would be nice to add a pop of color. The complement of yellow is purple, but blues go better with browns so I just do not know! I was hoping to have my SIL’s help but they are so busy trying to sell their house that I’m not sure they’ll ever have time to pop by. I think I’ll wait until we are all moved in to find a rug. I’m going house shopping later today since RS agreed weeks ago to help a friend move his (non functional) truck up to the northern part of the state. Very involved, they have to push it up onto a trailer and then unload it the same way once the get where they’re going. Probably take at least four hours all said and done. I will be able to put up a shelf for all my present and future Knick knacks. Frank, my bottle cap ostrich, will now have a home! The big antique store in the mountains we go to has so much stuff I always wanted to buy that I never did because I had nowhere to display it. I can’t wait for all this godforsaken snow to melt so I can see what’s planted In the front garden. If there’s no daffodils currently, there definitely will be once I’m done with it! __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#632
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I guarantee you'll have plenty of work with the new home, but it is also a unique fresh start. That's a good thing! Also, I imagine the real estate values will appreciate nicely in the future. Owning a nice home is such a good investment. |
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#633
After last night I feel ok this morning. I’m kind of tired. I drank an iced coffee, 2 diet cream soda Dr. Peppers and a cup of black tea. But my anxiety is ok. I just feel bad about last night and I’ve been helping around the house and stuff instead of cooped up reading. I’m trying to deal with my thoughts instead of bottle them up and ignore them through distraction. I think my mom feels bad too because she’s offered to get carry out tonight which we haven’t done in a long time and she said it’s her treat. I called her out in some texts and I said she missed a lot of stuff when I was a kid. With my brother too. But these feelings and thoughts I had just built up for so long and I don’t think I ever properly discussed them with my therapist. So with everything I am currently dealing with, I just blew up. I’ve never thrown anything since I was a kid. Plus the extra Geodon and the 2 mil of Xanax after weren’t good either.
But I did apologize and I’m trying my best today. I was in the car at the hardware store waiting for my mom and some dude try’s to open the side door. I’m like “wtf?” But not alarmed. Then he tried the passenger door and then looked and saw me and was really embarrassed and said “sorry” my mom had come out by that time and set the car alarm off at him to scare him away. I figured he had just mixed up the cars. He then came around his car and rolled down his window and apologized and said the cars looked the same. Which they didn’t really but they were the same color. My mom was more freaked out then I was who just brushed it off. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#634
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Congratulations! Hurrah!! You know, my parents were interior designers and I did pick up some tips from them while growing up. If you use a tan/medium brown rug it will look bland. Blue could look okay, it really depends upon the shade of blue. But purple - I think - would look smashing! Assertive and bold. __________________ |
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#635
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OMG, I did that once and I actually opened the door and got into the driver's seat (No one was in the car and I don't know why they'd left it unlocked!) before I realised I had the wrong car. I jumped out and was mortified, I was so embarrassed. __________________ |
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#636
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My coworker never said anything to me. She hadn’t gotten out of the store yet so she didn’t see me do it. But I never heard anything of it. __________________ Ridin' with Biden |
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#637
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__________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#638
Was it the same type of car as yours? Same color?
__________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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#639
It was my mom's car that I was driving that day. A white Buick and, yes it looked just the same. Once I was sitting behind the wheel I noticed little stuffed animals in the back and I thought, "That's odd...why would Mom have those in here?" OHHHH, NOOOO That was when I realized I had the wrong car __________________ |
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#640
An absolutely beautiful pre-spring day! Beside that I have a new neighbor and she's really irritating me. The apartment complex I live in is small, mostly very quiet Mexican farmworkers and a few other friendly, quiet people. A few cute kids. There was a young college guy living next door to me and he was as quiet as a mouse. I don't know if he acquired a girlfriend, a room-mate, or what's happening. Actually, he seems not to be there. Instead, there's a noisy girl staying or living there that sounds like she's about 16 - or just very immature. She blasts garbage, annoying, tinny music between 11a.m. and 10 p.m. She gets on her phone and screams and shrieks like an idiot all day and evening. Worst of all, she screech-sings to the awful music (she cannot hold a tune).
After a week and I'm at my wit's end. My bedroom and bathroom have been invaded by the chickie's rude habits. This morning I almost put my old CD player in my bedroom window (speaker facing out) and played a German death metal CD (music I don't mind, for a short time). I would turn it up just loud enough to drown out her crap. Doing so is a strong possibility if she doesn't quiet down today. __________________ |
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