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Sorry you’re having such a hard time blueberry . But you do sound better today than yesterday.
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Old Today, 09:49 AM
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I love my pdoc! He is out of the office until Aug. 18th when he is back. I never realized. But I left that voicemail on his mobile phone. He called me back already He told me to take 1 extra 25 mg Seroquel/day until I am stable (so I'll be taking 3 of those instead of 2 until I'm back on track). He also told me I can take 1 Zofran to control nausea and throwing up. I missed the Cymbalta Friday morning, and I am not sure why. I was still stable at 2 PM, able to concentrate on my book & able to drive. I already have the Zofran & do not have to get it from the pharmacy today, so that is a blessing. My pdoc told me b/c I missed the dose of Cymbalta, I started to become nauseous & throwing up. (Just ONE missed dose of Cymbalta, and all this happens to ME! WOW! I may just know how to induce mania & become psycho if I want to!!). I know to take a Zofran if bad let alone minor nausea like now even starts before I start throwing up. (I took those too before posting this! Even took my stomach med I could be getting there).

I wasn't even sick w/ a virus at all!

But my pdoc really is wonderful

I have an appt. Aug. 18 @ 11 AM. He told me if I can't drive & H can't drive, I can do it by phone. He told me to call him on the mobile until then. And so can H.
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Old Today, 10:06 AM
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@Blueberrybook I'm really glad your pdoc got back to you! Sorry you're having to deal with all of this though.
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Old Today, 10:20 AM
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Anyway, I'm doing good. Went in today and had the post of my monroe piercing changed because the other one was too tight. Oh sweet relief! I need to get another piercing. But we're playing bill catch up from all the concerts we've went to last month and when I get "paid" instead of getting a piercing I have to stock up on my vapes since they'll be banned in September (only FDA regulated ones won't be, which is like three, and only the tobacco and menthol flavors).

I got a text from my mom this morning out of nowhere, asking how our summer has been so far, and I told her about all the concerts we've been to and she told me about her garden and eventually it evolved into her inviting us over on an afternoon when we're free.

I didn't respond because I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do!!!! I don't want to walk straight into the lions den! And I don't want to invite them out to lunch because right now we're trying to conserve money (again. Too much fun. Bill catch up). My mom is evil and toxic and there's sooooooo much negativity between my parents and I.

Plus they're going to criticize my appearance, and I don't feel like dealing with that.

BUT in the end I decided to make an old lady happy and go over, even if I don't want to.

What I REALLY want to do is ask them if they're disappointed my husband didn't turn out to be a drug abuser who beat me because, you know, that's what ALL tattooed guys who listen to metal music do. 🙄
Sorry you have to deal w/ such a toxic mom. My mom can be toxic at times, but not as bad as yours; mine is just passive aggressive (sigh).
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Old Today, 10:25 AM
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So sorry for all of this @Blueberrybook - you seem to be going through a lot. I am so glad you were able to get in touch with your pdoc, I hope you feel better soon! Will be praying for you!

@gary290 - I hope you do go back to AA and church again - they really helped me a lot in finding stability with my bipolar. I also have sleep apnea and use a CPAP - the shortness of breath used to happen to me a lot too. I hope you navigate your way around this and feel better soon.

@JaneOnceMore - It wasn't my intention to insult your intelligence with my suggestion - I definitely don't think you're stupid. All I know is, when I used to go to bars, bartenders used to like to see money on the bar, (or a $5 or $10 bill in their tipping glass), while they were serving - it might be different now, its been a while since I've been to one, that's the only reason I said that. I am sorry his actions upset you though, some people can just be jerks, especially with how he made you feel - honestly he didn't even deserve that 20% because of how cold and unfriendly he was to you.

@Nammu - maybe the first thing should be the meds in the morning? If you have a routine where you're doing other things first, maybe that's how you forget possibly? I usually brush my teeth first then straight to my meds if I can. I don't know, maybe an alarm would help, or a note somewhere where you make your latte to say "Take Meds Now" or something? Maybe?

As for me, it's going to be a good day today - I have my Legion of Mary meeting later, and I will be writing letters for my penpals today. Also going to send my guy a box with some of the cool stuff from GalaxyCon. Sent my best friend in NY his box yesterday. Feeling better about things, last week was a hard week.
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Old Today, 10:33 AM
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nammu, I'm on stomach meds too. My gastro doc has always told me to take them first thing on an empty stomach when I wake.
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Old Today, 10:51 AM
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I only now realized that at least I am posting my every single thought here instead of burdening H & my daughter with it. It's progress, but slow. It is helping to do that b/c here no one in my actual real life are screaming at me and haven't snapped at me today. (My pics too are real, all the art, pics of myself, cats, etc.) It helps my thoughts not cycle as much b/c I can come back here & read what I wrote b/c at least I have told somebody on an online forum about it, so I can try to hold my family together too.
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How are you feeling today? I hope you are having a better day and are able to ground yourself w/o a benzo. I know you try to use benzos sparingly b/c of their addiction stuff. Don't listen to the voices. Your meds are not poisoning you.
Thank you blueberry, I’m doing a lot better today. Got some stressful stuff taken care of so now I’m feeling better. I ended up sleeping on the couch last night because for some reason I was afraid to sleep in my bed. Afraid I’d die if I went to sleep in there. I’m not really sure why. It doesn’t make any sense but at least I got some sleep. You sound like you’re doing somewhat better, I’m glad you have a good Pdoc I hope things continue to improve for you
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And here comes caffeine withdrawal creeping up on me. Last thing I need is coffee & soda withdrawal too. And I just made another cup of coffee to help with my headache.
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Blueberry, you do sound better. I am sorry about the mania/mixed that you were experiencing. Glad that you are better. I usually end up apologizing for my behavior. and stuff said if you remember correctly.
be well my friend.
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Possible Trigger (ED stuff):

Possible trigger:


I talked to my pdoc by phone today. He told me since I missed one dose of Cymbalta Friday morning, it caused the nausea, which caused the vomiting & diarrhea and cascade into mania & blackout pyshosis (probably my becoming psycho that point b/c then I was missing all my meds for over 3 days). He told me that will take up to 1.5 weeks for me to stabilize.
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Such bad caffeine withdrawal. Can't it let me sit down to eat lunch instead of another cup of coffee? I need food. I need tons of food & water along w/ meds, sleep, a SAD lamp, nightly melatonin to become halfway normal again & keep my family together. Please let me eat lunch already and not drink another cup of coffee. I need to eat. It is prepared at least (sandwich, mandarin orange, and avocado). I usually have one avocado daily. This is my first one since Friday lunch.
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The receptionist at the hospital called and asked some stuff. Then my mom mentioned the tarry black glob from last night and she transfereed us to a nurse who talked to the doctor and said if that happens again go to the ER. My doctor is in surgery now but I'm hoping to get some answers about whats going on.

Therapy went fine but I feel kinda funny.
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I just found all 3 of my valium still in my med box. No wonder I feel goofy.

The caffeine pill is helping so much. I don't feel the need to drink Coke after Coke and I have energy and my GI sfuff is decent.
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