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#151
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Do what you can do. Not what you can't. |
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#152
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Lauru-------------That's me, Bipolar and Watching TV ![]() ![]() I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I— I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. ---Robert Frost |
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#153
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Dear Recent Ex-T ;
HOW COULD YOU DO WHAT YOU DID ON MONDAY TO A PATIENT?? OK OK-- SO I tell you about my suicidal things, what I was doing- EVEN ONE OF MY PLANS! AND THAT I WAS CUTTING! YOU give me a chapter on Bipolar and suicide and say read it and do the work sheets--- The Chapter states that it was ok for me to be honest and open with my therapist about these thoughts and planning, and all........ That not to fear of losing people and that people will help me.... Then my session after that one, you Tell me that I am fine- I never have hit a low spot for you... You take a note that I wrote while in mixed rapid state whatever- and take it OUT OF CONTEXT of I did not want to do therapy- I TOLD YOU in the note and the session that I gave you the note- that I Was Getting to the point of HOPELESSNESS with how I am and getting help.... And then you read it the session after, use it against me as I don't need therapy- and all that crap. YOU MAKE ME FEEL PARTIALLY LIKE I ****ING SCARED YOU!@ ALONG WITH OTHER FEELINGS TOO I know I said something not so nice of My boyfriend thinks I have gotten worse while seeing you when you were pushing me out- BUT at least that was honest- he does think i had gotten a bit worse with your stuff that you told me to do with no direction which was so frustrating that it was not funny.,.... T-- I am sort done right now00 It is almost a week of this me fighting in my head with you......... saying things I should had said..... going off on you!! You have really broken a trust with me-- and worse yet YOU Were My first Therapist-- IT TOOK ME SO MUCH TO GO IN AND THIS IS WHAT THE OUTCOME WAS.... I AM TAKING THIS EXPERIENCE AND Trying to learn from it-- I AM MAKING A LIST OF QUESTIONS AND THINGS FOR ANOTHER THERAPIST> In addition-- YOU PUSHED THE IDEA OF MEDS ON ME SO MUCH- one does not work- YOU ARE THE ONE THAT WAS LIKE GET OFF THIS ASAP -- AND THEN.... YOU TELL ME THAT I WOULD NOT STAY ON ANY OF THE DRUGS ANYWAYS LIKE I WAS THE ONE THAT JUST UPPED AND STOPPED IT I AM SO ANGRY WITH THIS WOMAN RIGHT NOW AND I HOPE THIS FREAKING PASSES SOON!
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#154
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#155
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I still so love you and want you to be my mother. But I must recognize that a more skillful therapist could better help me advance to where I need to be.
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#156
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I've given up, and it's okay. Nothing you say will ever make a difference. Nothing touches me. I've already moved on...
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#157
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Dear T,
Even though I was really upset the other day. I chose to get up today and not stay in bed crying. I chose to not allow my over-reaction to go on and on for days. I know that you are aware that I was not mad at you when I said some things that insinuated that you didn't care. I know that you care. I also know that you have to be the strong one here and keep me going toward my goal. You can't join my pity party, sadness, hurt, or anger. You have to be the one who shines the light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for that. Sometimes it urks me to death when you do that, but I know it is necessary. Squiggle |
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#158
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Dear T,
So we had a really great session Friday. I was feeling very upbeat, very hopeful, very happy, very energetic. Had some laughs about how ditzy you were acting because of the cold medicine. Our relationship is great - warm, solid, trusting, caring both ways. So why, why, why when I come home and I'm sitting reading do these new memories come flooding in and hit me, wham, like bullets all over my body? I felt like I couldn't catch my breath. I was so scared I couldn't move for almost five minutes - I just sat there shaking. I thought I was done with uncovering this sordid ***** from my past - what's going on - why now when I'm suddenly feeling so good for the first time in years? I feel like I'm being punished. I wrote everything down, put it in an envelope, sealed it and put it away. I can't deal with it or think about it all week until I see you again or I will do something I'll regret. I can't believe I have to wait six days to see you and discuss this. Please be very, very patient and kind with me next week - I'm very frightened right now.
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#159
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Technically I can't tell you and you are my XT but I've decided to blog about my experience ... May help you too if you ever see it, feedback is good right?
http://chief-imjustsayin.blogspot.com/ Wishing you all the best, I am..... And by the way , I know that's a canned response as you said exactly the same thing on my attempted termination letter! Last edited by anonymous112713; Feb 18, 2012 at 03:21 PM. |
#160
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I hate the nature of CBT.
I almost wish I had some sort of trauma, so I could see you in a different therapy setting and we'd be closer. (Yeah, that would be another T then, but whatever. I effing hate the non-closeness.) |
#161
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I wish you could see the other side of what is happening on the other side of the email. I asked for an appointment and you asked if a day/time over a week away is okay. You know how tough it is for me to ask for help and emailing you for an appointment was a big step. I'm just not sure how well I'm going to be able to function till then, that is if I even email you back to confirm.
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#162
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Dear T,
I have been SI for about two weeks now..I go between feeling really guilty for doing it, and not really caring. Then, I hear the words you said to me the day I told you that I had been at the point having thoughts of doing it again. You said, I don't usually tell my clients that they are making bad choices, but cutting would in your case be a bad choice. Now, I am afraid to tell you. I don't know how you are going to react, but I feel like I need to tell you. I wanted to tell you at our last session, but I wasn't sure how to bring it up. I really wished you would have asked me. Now, I don't have an appointment for another 8 days.. I am not feeling good about that. I am feeling the lowest I have ever felt.. and I don't know how to convey that to anybody and I am not sure what to do about it. I really want to tell you all of this right now.. and not wait.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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#163
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I felt like this for years. In my case it was, "I love you, and I hate you for not loving me enough."
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Mr Ambassador, alias Ancient Plax, alias Captain Therapy, alias Big Poppa, alias Secret Spy, etc. Add that to your tattoo, Baby! |
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#164
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Dear T,
What's the point? You might as well give my appointments to somebody more deserving and who will actually talk to you! I feel I'm just wasting your time |
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#165
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I bet you don't!
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Mr Ambassador, alias Ancient Plax, alias Captain Therapy, alias Big Poppa, alias Secret Spy, etc. Add that to your tattoo, Baby! |
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#166
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Dear T,
I don't think I want to pursue a relationship with you any longer. I'm afraid to tell you this, but also I'm afraid to actually leave. You have been good to me as far as the time you spend with me, giving me a ride home, & most of all agreeing to see me for little to nothing, but I just don't think you are helping me. Or maybe it's me...maybe I'm not open to your help because it's not what I expect. Idk exactly what it is. I just think you can be insensitive sometimes & when I expressed that to you all you had to say was you're being honest. I love that you be honest with me, but hate the way you say things at times. Little do you know...that's hindering my growth with you & it makes me shut down. |
#167
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Dear T,
Sorry for all the stupid emails today, the anticipation for seeing you tomorrow is killing me!!! Plus I am so nervous about starting school tomorrow. I hope you are not mad at me, for sending them, or annoying you a million times while you were away. I am sorry I am so messed up. I am sorry I am so dependent, and in need of your help. I miss you. I can't wait to see you. |
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#168
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Dear T.
everything is so hard im not big i feel really small really tiny tiny tiny like an ant about to be squashed. I feel like i wana disappear T. I need u
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#169
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Where are you?
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#170
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Dear T,
I feel like crying because you won't directly say "I love you" to me. I know the heart you gave me shows how much you care, as well as everything else you do for me, but because of a thread on my forum, I feel bad because other Ts tell their clients they love them. I know that there are probably two good reasons why you won't. One is because you aren't comfortable saying those words to any client. Two is that I might be triggered and feel too good by you saying those exact words to me. I know how much you care about me. I will be okay about this; it's just a minor trigger about being loved. If I'm still thinking about this on Tuesday, I'll bring it up with you. rainbow |
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#171
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good bye, T
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#173
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Dear T,
I'm so afraid you're going to hate me or think less of me after you read my latest email. Maybe you won't hate me, but you'll surely roll your eyes reading it and will probably second guess ever taking me on as a client. ![]() ETA: On a lighter note-- I always start every email to my T with "Hi (first name of my T)" but in my last email I had actually written "Dear T" by mistake but luckily caught it before I sent it. ![]() ![]()
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#174
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Dear T-
Now that you know about Psych central, how often will you drop in? Maybe not at all? Are you reading this now? Sorry I held back so much today. There is so much I don't tell you but I wish I could. Please don't forget me. |
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Dear T,
You would be surprised how little I've thought about you the last couple of weeks since the "needy little girl" disappeared. I've actually been able to not count the hours until our next session, concentrate on school, and participate in my own life. It feels really liberating, and I know you would be proud of me.
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